cupcakes......YUM 

ever felt so lazy that you just don't wanna go and get what you need? so i need my book which is in my book bag, oh let's say.....3 ft away. but i just want to sit here and have someone get it for me. but alas, i better just go and do it myself. time to do some online class stuff. off i go. enjoy the cupcakes for now.

listening to X&Y Coldplay

so have you ever wondered why you are in the field you are in? as i sit here studying about human anatomy, i think about all the other options i had set before me when deciding a major in college. why did i choose this field. why am i learning about the anatomical system? why not literature, business or law? i wonder. then there's always the road not taken. ahhh....but many ways in which we can view life.

i constantly question this path i am in, what does that mean. i should just stuck it up and stick with it. but if you think about it, why should i? i really am still confused about why i am where i am. i guess i just have to accept it. learning is fun so i don't know why i am complaining. i guess i am just thinking about all the other things (resources) that i want to expose myself too. i think the weather is changing. i wish i got more done today. oh well, tomorrow is another day, now ain't it. better get to bed, cause i am getting hungry.

oh yeah, after my run today, it felt cool. it was somewhat windy. well, sleepy time, alas.

oh yes, life and it's revelations.......so many things i want, yet so afraid to take those baby steps. i wish......life could be so simple. i guess it can be. but then there was that apple and that snake and now we are sinners. so let us now all repent and pray for rainbows.

last things....well, i will save it for another time.

American Cities That Best Fit You:

75% Honolulu

70% Denver

65% Austin

65% Seattle

60% Atlanta

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

Brunch at Brockton Villa 

I began my saturday with having brunch with close friends over at The Brockton Villa Restuarant over at La Jolla. Thanks Sondhaya! I had a very interested dish....effs ipenema. it had an interested sauce that seemed thai inspired with the fusion of tomoto sauce and coconut. it was wuite electic.

later that evening, we headed out to Air Conditioned.


me and cindy at air conditioned 

for your viewing pleasures, here at some pictures cindy took. cindy's pics

and here there are some new posted pics here. highlights.....rockreation, brockton villa and air conditioned and more

deep fried chickens, these suckers take a while to cook, plus, massaging them was just strange.  


my mom, me and julianne 


just posted some back logged pictures. the chicken is from my sister's bon voyage party. she is at lund now. and the other is from my brother's birthday, but the baby stole his thunder cause who can resist babies.

feeling bored and sleepy. feel like i am wasting away here.

the long awaited gallery of pictures that i have ever so been lagging on

today may perhaps be the best day of the year. the weather was perfect. my walk was so pleasant.

the verve pipe - colorful

its been so long since i heard that song. brings back memories. i finally uploaded some pictures. okay, so all my pictures. all i have to do now is upload them for viewing. and back them up.

gosh i ate so much i feel like such a pig. am so sad that my computer, desktop that is crapped out on me. that's why i had to get laptop. if i wasn't typing on it now, i would be quite bored.

so i am writting my declaration and then going to shower, pack, organize some stuff and am really glad that i just have a half day tomorrow. i will be out like super early. between 10:30-11. depending on when i get in. so yeah, what else. i need to do all these erroneous things. it quite bugs. i feel kinda pressured when in reality i am really not.

so let me go off on a tangent here. everyone is having a baby girl this year or something. babies are so cute but no way in hell i will have one in the near future. cause 1st of all, i am way to young to even think about that. though, i like to play with them. so long as i am not responsible for them. that is just a way scary though. and marriage. that is like the talk of work, ever since i started working. that is also way too soon to grasp. i am at my prime. and that is a thought that is set in the future off somewhere. i am in a committed relationship, however, but that has always been the case for me. i seem to find myself in these situations one way or another. However, i have always wonder, what if i never committed, would i be a totally different person? to answer that, yes, i think i would be more successful, but not as personable. interesting way of thinking about things.

so let's see what else.......i am not really getting old, although, i say it all the time. but for reals, time is breezing by. i remember as a high schooler, i had all these expectations and a planned out future. what was i thinking?

so every since i started college i have been on my own. it is kinda nice but it didn't hit me until now, how much i did not think about it.

so someone once told me that i have the gift. aren't you all curious to know what that gift is. i guess those of you that know me, know what it is, but then again, i like to think i have many gifts. it just depends which part of my personality you have met.

everyone mets some part of me. put all those people together and you get a complete version of what i am. too bad, no knows the real Sheila. This rants expresses little bits here and there, but never the complete picture. because what fin would that be if it was that easy.

so i haven't ranted like this in ages. i really need a vacation. soon, because it is long overdue. well that is all the chatting for now. on my next entry, perhaps i will just post some long overdue pictures. but perhaps not. HAHAHA

listening to drive - ziggy marley

so i just had dinner, it was quite tasty and full of nutricious food groups. i gotta stop eating plums though cause the skin really burns me. and yeah, maybe it wasn't juicy enough. today....tuesday. wasn't too bad but i just can't wait for this week to end. i am taking a half day off on friday complements of my blood. i am going to venture to the jnj store to get my cousin tons of floss, let's hope. gosh, if they don't have any, i will be really disappointed cause that is the fuel that is making me take that half day. oh well, i guess also to stare at the baby. i just love watching her, it is so plesant. not a care in the world. it is so great to be innnocent and be child like cause you don't have to face reality.

i went through my quarter life crisis earlier on. i know that soundsd dumb and all, but just you wait. right now i am still in transition, but i am comfortable. i guess it is cause i know i am still young and am waiting for direction. i do have one, but i keep that a secret. i have so many hopes and aspiration that i get confused. i have been shopping a lot lately. but hopeful, that urge has passed.

i laid out today and almost fell asleep. it was just so comforting laying out there. when i woke, i almost rose topless, i forgot i unhooked my top. thank god i remember. that would have been embarassing.

i wonder if i bronzed up a bit. slave to love - elan atlas

so i guess that's it for now. wait......i saw charlie and the chocolate factory, it was pretty good, i guess. however.....the small creature would have been cooler if they had be different and not all the same. also, a couple of critiques. also saw, hustle and flow. that wasn't bad. aside from the begining scenes. and finally wedding crashers. everyone said it was funny. it was, i'll give it that. but i notice VV plays the same role in all his movies. hmmmm..... was entertained nonetheless.

next movie....2046...batman begins (i know), and also, this came out a while a go, but howl's moving castle is a good watch.

so i picked up my glasses today. finally. they took forever. and to think, once again i am still disappointed. the cut still isn't how it should be. it is not even close to perfect. i've had many pairs done before and i can tell you this isn't quality work. it will suffice for now. but i vow never to get glasses done there once again. the torture is just too much. you think they would get it done right the second time. but no. it is had mild imperfections. it is just so annoying. yeah, that option should be FIRED. so i am cruel, or am i just speaking the truth. anyways, this pair should last me for a while hoping that my vision has finally stabilized. plus next time i will probably have to get some new frames, cause they handled mine so badly. so ask me and i'll tell you where not to get it done. serious, i should have just gone to lenscrafters or target. i have learned a valuable lesson. close is not the best. i am stepping out of this circle. HELLO world.
on another note. yesterday i cleaned the house until forever. i am hoping these ants go away and i hope my blasted roommates clean up. yeah, you hear me.....clean up. bry saved me by being my chalk supplier. so hopefully his medicine kills my problems. okie, time to go beautify myself. and stop being so grumpy. oh yeah, my left hand arms is hurting my crazy. is it arthitis?

listening to 50 first dates soundtrack.

and to all my fans, i will post my pictures soon. i know i have been crazy lagging. i will get to it soon enough, like next weekend. don't scream....breathe.

so, i love my laptop. this hibernate feature is the best. i was about to blog, but went in hiatus. i went to church. as if i had just gone awall. i have to go out again soon because to more shopping. there has been many shopping o late. and more to happen. i will be back later. it is time for a pseugo cyber fashion show.

so i saw tyra banks today at the santa anita mall. they were doing something for television, i think. maybe you will see me on tv, but probably not. so what else. i met up with cindy today, it was nice, haven't seen her in a while. always good to see a familiar face. we ate at claim jumpers. it was great. i haven't been there in a while. so it was refreshing. i had planned a more actvity day, but i am glad the way it turned out. what else. maybe tomorrow, i will be more active. like go to la. but it is so hot that i just want to stay put.

so, ummm...i am going to reformat my computer. so it runs faster. i have all this not so needed programs.

today was most relaxing. i went to the mall, as i said earlier and saw some cute baby clothes. i got two cute lil dresses. :)

hi blogger. so i am just so annoyed, mad, pissed, hundreds of emotions bursting out. i really can't take this streak of bad luck anymore. i just want to SCREAM or chop someone's head off. my head is really about to burst. i can hear it ticking. and all i want to do is SCREAM AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I can't take this anymore. someone help. anyone. i am about to blow up in flames. my blood is boiling. i can't stand. i need to go to a shooting range or something to blow off all this STEAM. ROARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what has trigger all this anger is the VERY VERY poor job on my eyeglasses. i am so pissed. these are 300 dollar frames. don't you dare mess them up. HELLO!!!!!!!! they are my prized pair. i am so pissed at the construction of these lenses. they make me crossed eyed and give me a headache. the lenses aren't polish and could possible scratch my cornea. where's the line of quality here. tomorrow i am definitely going to call them up and complain. I am very disastify. i just want to return them and get it over with. i should have going to a better place. cause i alignment is completely giving my right side a pain. I am also annoyed cause they weren't even fitted. disappointed in a service. so tomorrow, i better call and give them a piece of my mind. i was so happy to have finally done it, only to get a grade F piece of crap quality. seriously, ,please inspect the quality of your work before you present the product because that is going to reflect on you. and even though you are convinient. i am rethinking going back to you. i am dizzy now, i think it is mostly the glasses. i am giving them a test run, and so far i give it a d minus.

many other things have gone wrong and i am just waiting for a streak of good luck. please luck charms shine my way.

i am so tired, so i think i will go to sleep soon. i am oh so lazy and have much to rant about. good thing i am so tired that i can't expose these secrets. okay, i will retire soon, but oh my, i am oh so hungry.

aburgine

Happy Mother's Day! 

For Mother's Day, I made my mom a cake. It's Devil's Strawberrry Cream. It seemed to be a hit. I'd say, it's my favorite flavor. This week I have another task ahead of me. I am making a wedding cake cause I am getting married. You must be wondering, why am I making my own cake. Well, it is better that way. Haha, I'm just kidding. But I am making that two layer wedding cake. It will be a challenge because I never iced like that before.

I also met up with carol and we ate at baccali. it was good! I really enjoyed my filet! thanks again carol!

can't sleep......so now i know how phil feels. perhaps lack of sleep is a result of anticipation and anger? yeah?

okay.....i feel somewhat stressed. i really have so much to do and think about but can't help but just blow it off. i mean seriously....sometimes i feel like i need to get on track. its so odd cause a year ago i felt like i was in limbo. and not to long ago i was comfy and felt like i had accomplished something. but now i am retracting back to limbo. quite sucky. i feel like i need my life to just settle down and stop riding on this roller coaster.

i have goals, but the wheels aren't turning for them. i don't exactly know what i want to do with my life and i am tire of a quick fix. i have ideas but that's just it...there are so many of them that it really gets me dizzy.

it's already may and still i feel like time is going 10 times to fast.

life is so complicated. i make it sound so simply but sometimes i wonder if it is all just a lie. i don't want to sound negative but if i was always positive then i wouldn't be balanced now would i?

i need to really prioritize my life. i need to make investments that will pay off. but i am afraid taking risk. that's why sometimes its just so great to read a book and get lost in it.

i think i am a very patience person, but lately......i haven't been practicing it. i need to rework that.

something a bit deeper......death.......i am curious what is life after death. since i am of a religious nature.....i am taught to see life after death as joining jesus in his world. and yes i do believe in that. so why am i curious about death. probably because i am human and will sin because of the incident at the garden of eden. yes......some progress. it really helps to think and type outloud sometime.

so yeah.....i think as of now i am going to keep that chair and today i am going to checkout some powerbooks and ipods.

ciao for now bella

on my walk back from the gym, i discovered this to my dismay. 


it is so HUGE! 

so isn't that like a really huge vehicle. how does one get in and out of it? doesn't seem to pratical to me. it's definitely has presence. but man...how many lanes does it take up. i was so surprise to see it on my street. i was really WOWED by it.

so i bought an armchair......so many other things i could have bought instead of it, like a camera, an ipod photo, a labtop......hmmmmm...... oh well, i'll get those in due time. i am going to enjoy my new buy. it's comfy....i can't wait. i wonder if it is too big....hmmmm.....

so yesterday i donated blood. it was a spur of the moment choice. however, i thought about it earlier that week. so i had just finished my work and decided to go check it out and decided why not? i headed there and was just about to walk away, but i turned back. so i was quite antsy......but i did it. the lady was nice. the iron test was pretty painful. i had just passed the iron test. a second more and they would have rejected me. so it took me like 10-15 mins, but i wish they had taken the needle away cause after a while it started to hurt. it was my first time. and it wasn't so bad.

now i am in san diego. just had breakfast from le peeps. it was okay. i am getting really particular when it comes to food. cause the belgium waffle was just okay. last night i had sushi and that was just okay too. hmmm.....what to do now? i think i may just catch up on my anime.

a thought.....you don't really know someone. you may think you do....but in reality.....you never really know them....i mean really know them. i can honestly say that no one really know who i am. they only know a part of me. why is that? i think that's true for everyone though. we have mutiple worlds and when they collide is it confusion or something else?

with or without you?

everlasting dream.......

another day.....oh so ROUND. i feel oh so ROUND. blasted. i just showered and i would feel refreshed, but i just feel FAT. i am quite sleepy....that's what the shower does to me. oh the screen is begining to look blurry......so i shall leave you with this thought.....that is......at least for now.....GALAXY QUEST.

SO TIRED....i was at work until FOREVER. literally. the only good part was that i got to catch up with the boys. its funny cause at the begining of the day it doesn't seem like much, but things don't always go as planned. oh well. came home and detoured for some candy and made cookies. kinda disappointing cause they didn't turn out as i had hoped. however the two BIG cookies i made were a smash.

oh yeah, finally made that strawberry malt of mine. it was DELICIOUS. okie dokie. bedtime.

What a horrible Tuesday! so here goes the inevitable. my day starts out pretty RAW. i get up and get ready for work. i head out the door. on my drive, i start to feel my allergy attacks. it gives me the chills thinking about it. so i get to work, and i feel itchy all over. I was DYING. i really couldn't move. i was going insane. i hate it when the weather changes. it absolutely KILLS me. so i pop a claritin. i went home to take a cold shower. that helped. however, my drive back was killing me. i bet ya people were thinking...'what the hell is wrong with her'. so i made it home. and after my cold shower.....i put all this numbing stuff on. i was about to call in sick, but i forced myself to go back to work. it was painful, but i hung in there. i made it through the day, the claritin worked wonders and all that numbing stuff i applied.

at work, the day was mediocre. however, jorge struck again. the day before i had made a request for a personal day. it's personal, what right does one have over my personal day. it is allowed and what authority does one have a say in it. I HATE PEOPLE trying to MONOPOLIZE my time. I feel they do not have the right. I am not down with ALL THIS BULL SHIT. My TIME is my time, and if i choose to sit on my ass and do nothing, i will do that. today, i have gained a new perspective. i have new eyes on and a new outlook. so here's the thing, no one has the right to tell me what health practioner to see. cause one, hey, jackass, it's my body and blood not yours. if i want to go there, then i will. you should not question something like that. it is my CHOICE, or am i not to have one of those. thanks for your opinion, but NO THANKS. you really know a way to ruin some pleasures that WE have in life. but hey, just remember who works for you. ya that's right....

another thing....you should learn to respect other people's feelings. how do you expect people to work for you if you do not treat them like people. that's right, like people. we are not robots. and another thing, RELAX, take a chill pill. cause you know what...you don't set too good an example. how do you expect to shine is no one respects you. cause you know what, i bet there are plenty of people who aren't too fond of you. and you know what....i getting there. i try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, but you're really testing that. so much more to RANT about, but i am trying to keep it civil. haven't you learned from you previous experience?

i understand where you are coming from, in some twisted way, i just don't agree with you. but as always, you WIN and that is not fair. but, i will take a stand with LUCAS and one day.......


so i cleaned today, but my desk is still a mess and i still have to organize some crap. i am such a rat pack, i gotta just throw eveything away. worked out, made dinner. doing laundry. feel pretty productive. off i go to fold clothes.

so everyone, guess what? I am moving. i have finally decided to MOVE. move away from my bubble. i am moving to the bay area. i was recently offered a position and i have decided to accept. it'll be good. a new change of environment for me. it will do me some good. perhaps i will mature even more. anyways, going to head out soon. so wish me luck. thanks!!!!!!

so today at work....it was fun. yesterday bryan brought donuts. they were so DELICIOUS. it so hit the spot. but being a PIGGY. i had 3 donuts. so alas, i worked out for an hour to burn it off. i was like, okay, 1 donut to go. just a little bit more. but yeah, to my point, so the empty box was left there.....to my delight i took this opportunity to trick some people. on the outside of the box, i wrote "DONUTS! YUM! look insde" and inside, i left a post-it note saying, "haha...aprils fools!" that was so evil of me, but it was a delight. hehehehe. one of the many highlights of my day.

p.s. you've just been fooled. haha.....april fools.

I was on face analyzer this weekend for a lack of better things to do. and found this amusing. however inconsistent. oh well.....still amusing.  


hmmmm..... 

I had a pretty eventful weekend. but it's tuesday so it would be so lame to talk about it. and i am lazy. i, however, had some pretty AMAZING cheese. it was/is SO DELICIOUS that i cannot stop taking about it. okay....

as my usually...had slept for 12 hrs. bery refreshing. woke up, learned how to make tartines and donuts. worked out...linger....went to LUNA restuarant and lounge. went to sleep. went to church. worked out. went to body worlds 2. went to dinner. and monday came around. in all that i discovered the face analyzer.

now i am going to do something productive: SLEEP.

in light of my boredom

Your Seduction Style: The Dandy

You're a non-traditionalist, not limited by gender roles or expectations. Your sexuality is more fluid than that - and you defy labels or categories. It's hard to pin you down, and that's what's fascinating about you. You have the psychology of both a male and a female, and you can relate to anyone.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Belong in 1969

1969 If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion! And chances are, you're currently in love. You have a strong physical response to love... And you are great at committing (As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

What's Your Love Style?

Morning....man, i feel kinda quezzy......kit kats in the morning.....not a good idea.....

i thought about working out today....hmmmm....yeah, i am going to, but hmmmmm.......i'll pass.....my head aches, so tomorrow......a nice swim would be pleasant though....so maybe that....i hope the pool is clean though. i really can't go if it is dirty....however swimming in the ocean that's another snafu.

so much....to do...so little time. i sleep so much......i mean SOOOO much. i love the weekends. i just go home and sleep. so relaxing. i need to do my taxes. whatelse? hmmm....that's top priority, since the due date is coming up. i really just need to press a button cause i already entered all the info. oh yeah....i am going shopping today....looking for some comfy jeans......i need to clean out my closet too....i need to do laundry, i have done it for a month now. i can probably go for maybe two more weeks, but i will try to do it this week. it's starting to crawl outta my basket.

the highlight of this week will be my butterscotch monster bars. i can't wait to make them. they are quite rich. this time i will add the walnuts cause i have some. i kept forgettting to bring them.

been thinking about getting a costco membership. i suppose it could be useful. oh yeah, at sam's club you can print digital pictures for 17 cents, that's cheap. that's another thing i need to get on, printing my pictures. i suppose i could also get a digital printed, but that's so troublesome, and my bro has one. but at some oneline company they have a promo to print for 99 cents, so maybe i will get on that too.

tonight i've got family dinner, it's my uncle's birthday. chinese food.......i can only eat so much of that, i am not really hungry though.....maybe later. okay, time to start doing random things. oh yeah.......a must see and must get is Chinese Odyssey 2002.

ROAR......i am so thirsty, but alas, i am so lazy and do not want to go run outside to my car to get a bottle of water. ROARRRR.........i had some cranberry juice, it was light and nasty. i am sticking to apple's and eve. you can't go wrong there. okay, i will get that bottle after all. cause .......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......i am still thirsty. sometimes i think i drink way too much water.

so today, i had dim sum at hop li, just had their grand opening yesterday. it was pretty good. would definitely go there again. thanks for the treat linda!!! i liked your 2nd favorite....in fact i am tasting it now. hahahaha.

after dim sum, i took my parents to SAS, their FAVORITE shoe store. they had fun and so did i. i kept trying on all these shoes...pretty comfy. my mom got this pretty BAD ASS pair.

i am feeling tired now.....i think it's the vietnamese food kicking in, it's making me sleepy. snooze....snooze.....snooze.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

crazyhorse 

just had some yummy spaghetti. that was pretty much the bulk of what i ate this week. hmmm...what to have next week. it's friday, yummy! after work, i headed over to the gym. however, i was so tired that i only biked for 20 minutes. i attempted the elliptical, but that was a lost cause. do i came home and stretched and worked on my abs. buts alas, it was all half assed. i took a shower and just crashed. now i am all full and want to head back to bed. going to head back to arcadia soon. i better get a packing.

last night headed to D&B and checked out crazyhorse. totally had no idea they had dancing there. but yeah.....in honor of st. patrick's day, green beer was being served. it looked strange. like gue....anyways, good times.

Lightness....


i am having trouble breathing. maybe cause i choked earlier. my back kinda hurts too. and my left side. it is actually VERY painful. i wonder why? awk...it hurts. it's weird. yet not unusual. what else? this past weekend i was pretty busy. let me see, went home to arcadia, slept for 11.5 hours. so pleasant. then went to a 3-year-old's party. then had dinner with friends. then check out a bar in brea. fun times. i liked the crowd there. also, worked 9 hours today, quite exhausted. i think i will go to sleep soon for my next 9 hour day, really 10. but i think it'll be more lax. cause i did most of the work today, so hopefully, i'll get out in 8 :) time for bed.

Am I really?

Congradulations you are Jem!


Which Character from Jem and the Holograms Are You?
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so let's see, it is tuesday already. gosh...and on top of that, it's march already, so much to do. i need to make a to do list or something.

this past weekend, i went to a potluck/birthday party. over at the hill of monteray park. the view was pretty jazzy. seee....

LA at a distance. just beautiful, ain't it.  

i am so tired. i want to go back to sleep again. i just ate. and now i am a zoombie. my stomach erts. ouch! so tired. i went to sleep at 10 last night. then work up at 8:30. had breakfast and went back to sleep. then work up at 12:30. had lunch and soon i will sleep again.

CAST YOUR VOTES!!!
below are two pairs of boots. which one do you think I should keep?


KENNETH COLE 


ALDO 

I had a lovely nap today. i was so sleep after work, i had my cake, checked email and crashed. i woke up refreshed. :)

Then I met up with Deb and we had dinner at Viva de France. It's charming there. :)

Devil's Food with Strawberries n Cream 

This past weekend I made a cake. You can see it in the above pictures. But you won't be able to taste it. That is, for the except few. It turned out well and the reviews were inviting. Don't know what i'll make next, maybe nothing. just kidding. i am sure i'll think of something.


Luna Park Los Angeles 

This past weekend, I decided to hit up this place I read about on MSN. Early this year I read about 10 things that "you" have to do before winter ends. And Luna Park was one of them. The suggestion was hot chocolate. I decided to think "out of the box" and have dinner there. It's influence comes from the Luna Park in San Francisco. It's got crimson-colored walls which gives it an added romantic auora, yet also a cozy gathering with friends. The mojitos were pretty good. and the food, i must say...i can't complain. and from me, that's a big compliment. all in all, it was a grand experience. i would defintely go there again, to try their desserts. Afterwards, we decided that we'd go to a korean bar. but it was only 7:30 so, we'd only looks like alcholics. instead we attempted to watch a movie in westwood, but that didn't work out. so we chilled at the coffee bean instead. then hit up cafe toe bang. i liked it there it was so cozy and cute. that's my first korean bar experience and soju. good times. ;) you know who you are. hehehe. alrighties.....till next time.

cold....

thinking about napping. kinda tired, actually really tired. last night i didn't get my full eight cause i went out. i also had a so-called nightmare. it was about food. but i'll spare the details cause i am too lazy to explain. in fact i am speechless. perhaps, i will rest after all. however, i really do need to read. snooze.....

so much to do. so little time. i am pretty tired. it has been so hard to get up these days. for a 60% chance of rain, today is a really nice day. i was going to cycle but i think i need to rest. my back muscles are contracting and it hurts like CRAZY. headaches constantly pounding at me. i am taking advil. lots of it, but it isn't really helping all that much, i'll wait and see what happens tomorrow, if it doesn't get better, i am going to start taking tylenol with codane. it has been pretty bad lately. as i type the pain increases, perhaps, i should stop.

today was a medio day. i managed to do most of my work, except notebook. we even had a discussion about that today. here's my input, i didn't say too much cause i was dying from my pains. plus, i had more work to get done. now my boss isn't the nicest lady and i have finally come to realize that. she is pretty demanding and expects a lot. i don't mind that so much, but i think she could be more understanding about what we do. sure she is busy herself, but she has to realize that WE are not robots. she expects us to do 10 things at once without error. of course that is not possible. when you want someone to do multiple things, it wouldn't be up to par. isn't that right? multi-tasking is my specialty, but you have to give me a 1% error. i think that is only fair. aside from that, i work hard and i am feeling under appreciated. so what's that tell you. do you think i'll work hard for you if you're going to treat me like shit. of course not. nonetheless, i still work hard cause it is who i am. and if you find me sitting for 2 mins, that's cause that's the first time i got to take a breather.

i love this blogger, it let's me vent and express what i am thinking before i blow up.

i just had a little snack. perfect to put me in a mellow mood. i might nap, but first a shower, then maybe dinner, no nap and head to bed early. i have a feeling it will rain tomorrow. well that is it for now, at least.

life through my eyes 

listening to death cab for cutie - transaltanticism

i am hesitating....i should go shower and then eat dinner, but i have decided to just sit here and type before my time is consumed by doing nothing. i think there is something missing in my life. do i just fill in the voids to lie to myself. i often wonder. the mind is a powerful weapon. why? because if i tell myself something and emphasize it, it becomes "law." at least in my mind. so what's the way around it. first impressions are important, however....do they have a lasting impression. if so does that not null my previous comment. i could just be blahhing. or maybe i need more advil.

so apparently, i've been oding on them aspirin. taking way too much. i will need to take some advil. linda bought me some. She is so sweet. Thanks again, Linda.

i feel like i have to throw up or something. i am wearing this cute care bear band aid. i totally jinges myself cause yesterday i was like, i wanna use it. and today, i got cut. i think i am getting sick, trying to fight it though.

so i get derailed a lot. i think i think way too much for my own good. seious, i am always thinking, my mind is only on pause when i am watching tv. i guess i need a good dosage of that one in a while. also when i am reading.

things i really need to get done is clean my desk, read about my savings plan. ahhhh...so much to do, where does the time go. a confession, while i am at it...so lately....i have many things on my mind, and would like to express them, but haven't found a neutral opinion to convey it to. is it really necessary though. and with time, i will get distracted. i gotta write this thought down before it passes. humbug....it is running...from me.

so i wish i had some steak, maybe i'll ask my sister if she wants to get some. but where?

gosh, it is already my bedtime. i was going to rant but honestly lately i have been way to tired. i think i am getting/am sick, but just won't give into it. cause i constantly have o drink water. the back/neck has taken a turn for the worst cause it is really painful for me to function without medication. i am constantly popping pills. without it, i would be in bed all day. my neck is so stiff that i am so dying.

today is valentine's day. yuppie. i am so behind on my emails and paper work. i gota catch up. before i get bogged down. i think i will sleep soon cause i need to get a lot of rest. however, let me leave you with one note. today, after my shower, i tried out my new lotion from Johnson and Johnson, it is the milk lotion one. i feel like a baby now. it smells refreshing too. i also have the lavender bedtime one for when i get fussy.

sean and i had brunch at the cheesecake factory this past sunday. gosh, when you add a "the" it makes me sound so "you know." oh well. the giant belguim waffle was pretty grand. didn't go with my mojito though, but it did with the loxs. hehehe. so yeah, mojitos make me tired for some odd reason.

also saw hitch. that's a perfect first date/date movie. why? it's perfect for people who are just at the first trimeseter of dating cause the movie has a lot of follow up topics that you could talk about that won't make bringing the topic up odd.

whatelse, i took my mom and relatives shopping this past weekend. i ended up getting some things, totally unplanned. i got a vest from lacoste....so expensive. and boots from kenneth cole. they are interesting. my mommy was going to buy my vest for me, but i felt bad, it was nice of her to offer though. it is nice to have a job. she didn't even complain about me buying it. yuppie.

okay, now it is truly bed time. good night sheila.

D&B with Linda and Carol 

Hanging out at D&B was fun. Haven't been out in a while so it was fun to socialize with friends and co-workers.

it's saturday and i am to take my relatives shopping at cabazon. the past three weeks have been pretty busy. oddly, i have been quite speechless lately. does that mean there's more internal monologues going on in my head? perhaps, maybe i just need water, dehydration?

the hallmark holiday is coming up. hope i get candy, sorta treat. let's see if it is presented before me.

i am so tired. my back/neck/knee has been killing me lately. i hope it gets better soon. i am hungry so i think i'll hunt for something to eat.

i was reading my sister's xanga and found this. for an innocent catholic girl, i am amused when i see devil horns. why is that?  

saturday night....cindy and i indulged ourselves with some sushi and drinks.  

this past weekend was refreshing. i met up with my of my pals from uci. i haven't seen him in so long. he just came back from asia. we decided to grab some yogurt from 21 flavors down at old town pasedena. it was nice getting together and catching up. later that evening, i met up with cindy and we grab something to eat at one of the new restuarants over at the santa anita mall. then later we checked out D&B. we had an interesting time there, eh?

today, i started work at my old new company. orientation was great. overall, i had a blast today, met some new people too. and good to see old friends again. just wanted to thank everyone.

just shower....was almost refreshing....but then as i come outta the shower i find that the HEATER is on. I hate it when the HEATER is on cause it cost me $$$....that i would rather use elsewhere. that is probably the most annoying thing about having roommates. i wish they would ask before turning it on. so perhaps, i will just turn it off. the thing about my central heater is that it DRIES out my contacts. and it is so hot now. it's like asshole, put on a sweater or something. and what gets me more is when i am not home i wonder how often they use it. it may be a bit selfish for me to think that way, but they are selfish too. even though if they may have good sentiments....it is ultimately selfish. if you hadn't notice i am cautious about my HARD EARNED money. however, i will splurge on the people i care about and whatnot. so i guess in sum, what does that say....you figure it out. ;) HAHA

going to go make lunch now for tomorrow, am too lazy to iron tonight. i feel bitter cause of the above.

currently listening to ayumi hamasaki- heartplace. i just finished watching house of flying daggers. i enjoyed it. Takeshi Kaneshiro is such a hottie. however, though it was a love story, i still wanted more. i felt like it wasn't complete. The cinematography though was pretty nice. one scene was just too gory though.

my sides are aching, i did my obliques and i feel them. ouchie. i am pretty hungry, but don't really got anything to eat. maybe an enlish muffin. that should hold me over.

my tummy erts. i think that second glass of tangerine juice 'fresh squeezed' was a bad idea. hopefully, the badness will pass.

i am at home right now cause i had a dentist appointment. i had 4 fillings done. gosh, it took more than two hours, that's tough. i was all numb and drooling and really couldn't feel anything. extremely numb. the numbness has pretty much worn off. the doctor did a pretty good job. kudos.

ran errands with my sister today and we ended up staying at best buy for like an hour or so. she got two dvds. i was going to get a couple, but i think i'll wait on it.

i have work tomorrow. boo..... i am too tired and achy to go. i am really getting lazy. ever since my accident it hasn't been the day. i want to heal soon so i can go back to my routine. i have had to take so many things down a degree. i will cycle tomorrow though cause i need to. of course, a light work out cause when i put too much, i ache and well, we can't have that now. the void in my back is getting better, but my stiff neck is still tight. soon, it will get better, so i can do my arm regiment. perhaps. i really want to take up a yoga class. i think it will improve my knee issue.

i had a pretty satisfying meal for dinner, however some egg would have been pleasant. perhaps, i should make my lunch for tomorrow. but i may go out...so many not. i could always go home. since i live close by, or just read. that sounds pleasant.

i noticed that this entry was more blah...guess its cause i am tired and sleep. i almost felt asleep on the chair a couple of times. or perhaps, my mind is elsewhere.

it's a beautiful sunday afternoon, so glorious and sunny. the perfect day to go to the beach or just simply bathe by the pool. i am indoors however. still got my stiff neck and painful shoulder with a brush of headaches. i hope this week's 3x PT sessions cure this misfortune. aside from all that, i am pretty much just chillin and relaxing. which is great. i am going to attempt to make some mocha cheesecake brownie bars. let's hope they turn out great. this week is my last week at work. ending on a thursday. props, however wednesday would have been more grand. but you take them, as you can. i think instead of relaxing in sd, i might just get my car tuned up. starting at my new work place next week.

only in so cal can you have 40 degrees one week and 76 then next few days. life is grand. :)

lately, i haven't been much to speak. i think it is because i am not well, i can barely get a word out. so instead read this for time being, it is one of my fav things to read.

Dunkin Donuts

another time, i will explain why, if i get to it.

that's chiba bay. gosh....it's just so pretty.  


boracay island at the philippines. i spent a couple of days there during the summer of 2004. it was so nice and tropical. i loved it. aside from all them blood sucking bugs.  

i am so tired. my head aches. i think i am getting sick cause my throat hurts. i am broken. boo. so today i saw the orthopedic. VERY helpful. i am tired now, and ache. so i will go eat something and sleep.

during intermission at the pantages theater where my sister and i watched les miserables.  


i am wearing one of the gifts i received this year. its that brown jacket that i am wearing. my aunt and her family gave it to me. usually i am picky, but this year, i got some bomb ass gifts. i like how it is flashy, yet plain. kudos! 

today, i updated my address book. on tuesday, i had a near cell lost. so i was backing everything up. i am so pooed. i should just go to sleep. but let me update. haven't in so long. i have been busy the past couple of days. i officially resigned from my job today to take on another one. tomorrow, i have an orthopedic appointment. i was rear-ended on new year's eve and am now suffering from neck and back/arm pain. i think i will lay down now. oh yeah, i have erased my family doctor. he isn't any good. i am going to a new one that listens to my problems and TREATS them. jackass.

shopping on the 26th was horrible too. there are just some messed up people out there that should just stay home. so let me tell you how that day went. my sister and i started our day out at old town and that was fine. then we went to target. still smooth. and we headed over to the santa anita mall. and oh my god, there are just some really RUDE people there. there were probably monrovian. i don't know. and i hate to make that rash judgement. as i entered into the mall parking lot i spotted this old man and asked him if he was leaving. he kindly told us where he parked and which one his car was. what a nice man. so we followed him. and got his space. there was a black honda pilot which a cauasian couple and a white truck with hispanic people in it. there was clearly enough room for me to position myself to wait. and so the black pilot was ULTIMATELY RUDE because the FAT lady told me that what i was doing was not right and that they should have gotten my space. i was very kind and said, i'm sorry but we asked him and followed him. what was wrong with that. i hate people that think that way those people in the pilot were. however, i was going to let them have the space, but before i could the white truck backs up trying to steal my space. but they drove away cause they were blocking the car coming out. i mean how stupid are these people. the idiots i had to deal with. i think i got a dink from that black pilot. they will get what they did in the long run.

note: this is a repost. i will try to post again later.