hey my wonderful fans. i am in lund, sweden right now and am headed back home tomorrow. aren't you all glad. it's been fun the pass week and wished i can stay longer so i can see more. but alas i must return home. so i must say that its excellent in sum. well, off i to to prepare.

ASP Holiday Luncheon 2005 

so, let's vote....which one whould i keep? suggestions, comments are welcomed. 


listening to jason and jane......

i am dead tired. probably going to sleep early tonight cause i am exhausted and can't study anymore. better rest up so I can study all day tomorrow. i feel something creeping up my throat.. boo....good nights rest will probably help. so yeah, today was really productive. happy about that. now just need to engrain all this histology in my head.

can't wait till i am all done, at the same time, it's also kinda sad. i am such a nerd. oh well. so yeah, i have these thoughts in my head that linger, what does it all mean....it's just so hard to break it down. i guess that's what i get for being so sporadic. oh well, one day it will slow down and i will be able to just interpret it piece by piece. right now life is just breezing by and there isn't a second to stop and take a breathe...kinda sad huh.....gosh, is this what it will be like from now on....i hope time.

when we were long, time just seemed so long, no it is just flying by so far. is it all about height and span? i do wonder. okay....this was a great stress reliever. also, so much that goes in my head never really get to come out. one day i can see me just screaming my lungs off. a cliff to echoes my woes or whoopies.

delicious donuts...yummmm.....how i long for one now......hmmm.....what kind.......maybe a sugar twist.....yummm.

awkkkkkk...no time to blog, goofed off to much this weekend. gotta get serious now. boo.

listening to jason and jane

hello world.....so i am in the midst of making some simple spaghetti sauce. that's what i'll be in eating for a while. i wonder how long it will last. so this week, i have bee really productive. only have one last listening test to take for my music class. and two exams left. so i wanna see if i can prep for it all on thursday, but i don't want to over work myself. i want to do well of course. so this week has been so strange. the week started off kinda depressing, but its picked up since. i have been having these horrid headaches though, but am able to control them. and my eyes burn like crazy. i don't know why? contacts....can't be..or could it. anyways, next week is another week with a potential of 2 exams. i will probably stay up late tonight. perhaps i can finish my note taking and leaving me with 2 chapters tomorrow and sunday. tomorrow is a shopping/return day. what to keep and what to return, still waiting on some shoes, i hope they come soon and a jacket on monday.

so i been reminiscent of late. that could be the cause of the pains of my temples, or the change in weather perhaps. so i have all these thoughts and they are fluttering, it's almost like a bottleneck and i just can't sort them. so i guess i am confused. i really have been like so out there lately. i only listen to half of the conversations i engaged in and sometimes i just don't listen. and just nod. if they only knew. my selective attention is really narrowing. hmmm.....after exams all should be better. this week, work really was a blur.

i gotta clean my room, i can't walk around anymore. that is probably what i will do next. and i am really becoming forgetful. i already forgot my intention for a new years resolution.

another thing.....i feel fat today. i need to shed like 5-10 lbs. let's see what happens during this holiday season. i plan to go up north after my trip from what was i thinking. it is going to be so cold. i will manage with a bottle of sherry by my side. hahaha....i better see if you can vegas it. hahaha.....hehehehe

okay, time to stop ranting and start acting. last thing...why do the weekends just fly by?

listening to colplay - fix you

so its sunday, the last day of this thanksgiving holiday. i woke up with the strangest most settling yet unsettling though. i had all these dreams combined into one. perhaps it was too much for me. what does it all mean. some aspects were blunt, yet others were so inconcivable. its best for me just to forget it, i suppose. i don't like to dwell on dreams too much. i feel as though......

so this has been an unproductive stuying weekend. i wanted to get ahead, but alas, things kept coming. on the bright side, i got all my flight plans taken care of, just have to worry about hotels, and blaise is taking care of that. also need to get one train ticket. for the most part of my trip, i'll be flying. can't wait. i wonder if i got everything. i gotta start getting more organized. so much to do, so much to think about. what to do first. today, will be my study day and tomorrow. on my lunchs i will run errands and go to the mall. then there's all the baking. ahhhhhh...... breathing......breathing....okay, time to get cracking. wish me luck.

my tenative wish list:

asics running shoes
cell phone (samsung T809)
snowboarding boots (size 7 in black or dark color)
north face boarding pants (liberation)
New SIGNATURE GALLERY POUCH in brown (http://www.coach.com/aspx/content/product.aspx?product_no=7827&category_id=68)
money

so i am listening to shattered - remy zero.....it's quite relaxing. i wish i had a better version though. this one is strange.

so omg....i went on a killer shopping spree today. ahhhh....i am so poor. what am i going to do. i am buying things left and right. and with my trip fast approaching i really gotta get a handle on it. so i think i am going to spain next year. it's going to be fun. if not there's hawaii. i was actually going to hold off on spain, but hey, how can i refuse, mother insists. and mommy knows best.

so i bought a killer amount of good. and black friday is coming up, what am i going to do. this trip is really setting me back. hostel it shall be. cause that's what i am going to be able to afford. what did i do? i did get my mommy her xmas present though, so i am glad. i will probably get sean's this weekend. and my dad probably in europe. i don't know what to get him? hmmm....he is easy to shop for, sorta. and my sister, i got that last week.and as for myself, well i am buying all my gifts now. hehehe.... i got me a tote. hehehe.

I am so tired. This weekend was so packed with things to do. so friday, i worked late. still got a chance to see harry potter the goblet of fire though. couldn't believe all the people that went out to go see it. wow. that's all i have to say. then the next day, i studied all day till night time. i got a good amount done and went to church. so i was able to go out and play that evening. but i had to pass on the bbq. night time, we went out to auburgine where mark farina was playing. it was some good mixing. here are some pics and samples. enjoy. Auburgine

Also, just a preview below of some pics. saw a PYSO concert. it was good, i think the best among the three i've seen this year. those youths are really talented. kudos to them.. my hat off to them! okay...time to hit the hay. pat on the back for me...updates...usually i am a notorious lagger. i been good lately.


happy birthday! 


auburgine 


mark farina 


unaware or aware...both 

so tired. i am going to crash pretty soon. i baked away all night long. and now i just want to rest. so tired. what was i thinking. anyways, i posted pics of what i have made. laters.


turtle....devil's food cake with strawberries n cream topped with mocha icing 


Devil's food cake  


treats.....yum.....i will never go hungry again 

i feel something coming on. my head is hot, it aches and i feel feverish. oh no. water is not helping. what could it be. rest may help.

turtle turtle 

hanging out at air conditioned on a friday night 


me, sean, cindy and brian lounging at the pit 


gotcha! 

in a nutshell, this was my weekend....so went to Air Conditioned this past friday...check out the pics. then met up with the girls for some thai food for lunch. saw the legend of zorro, and did some homework....ate at olive garden...and now it's monday....booo....can't wait for the weekend.

cone/cupcakes anyone? 

I am so forever tired. this has like been the LONGEST week ever. I am so worn out. all i want to do is SLEEP. I get to sleep in tomorrow cause i switched shifts. so yeah, sleep in. gym, bank, work, that is the plan. so tired. I still have to finish cleaning the shower. and yeah....i made cone cakes. what do ya think? the fortune few will get to try this new creation. i am still not set on the whole idea. an ice cream topping would be the ultimate trimming.

okay better take care of my stuff, so i can sleep. why am i so tired? am i fighting a sickness. i need a massage.

so decided to come out of my cave and play for halloween. went to IVAR down in hollywood. it was fun. i posted some pics. enjoy.


Ivar 


what are we? 


school girl and boy ;) 


Takeshi Kaga
 


cute huh? 

Good Morning all......it's a nice day out today, too bad i won't get to go out and play in the sun. i love days like these where the sun just shines down on you. and just that touch of breeze. i wonder if it cold outside? anyways, i am going to be stuck in my room for the next couple of hours, so for now, i shall read to my hearts content. ciao bella.

listening to......happy halloween

so i am just so exhausted, i want to get a chapter in tonight at least, and so excited that i get to sleep in tomorrow.

today was an okay day.....however, i feel so outta it. my initial motive was to go to target and some knee highs. i did. however, i took a detour. i went to J.J Bakery and got my favorite munchies and since there was a 99, i got some bread. it's big and yummy. next week it will be breakfast. I also decided to get some mango fruit bars, too bad, they didn't have any coconut. i was think red bean, but i remember not liking it so much. so as I was leaving 99, i almost got into an accident. good thing i did not. on these occassions, I see it as my guardian angel protecting me and my mom's prayers. so i also spotted some decent gas and filled up. finally i made it to target, but I almost got into an accident again. this time the lady did not see me and almost crushed me. that was WAY scary. i did not see my life flash b4 my eyes. i was just like WOAH. it scared me. target made things better though and what was even better was I found some found while i was there. it was great, i stepped on it and in my mine I was like "MINE." usually I try to see who owns it, but it was just there and by default, it became mine. How grand, it paid for my legging, YEAH!!!!!! that made my day, aside from this lovely new song.....i can't remember who the group was... a little help. But i feel like i have heard it before, I just can't make it out.

listening to jason and jane....

so i really want to bake up a storm. i was so hungry today and nothing would satiate my hunger. nothing......maybe i am craving truffles, could that be it? or maybe that hershey's extra creamy raisin and almond nugget. i should just totally run out and get some. so yeah back to baking up a storm, i haven't figured out what i am going to make. ideas that come to mind...maybe a cheese corn type muffin or cake. devil's good cake...oh, idea....yes...i think i just may have it....or let me see.....cupcakes/cone cakes.....hmmmm......that might just be what i have been craving. my baked goods.

the blower's daughter.......

why? why must i consume chocolate? it's funny, pre sheila eating it is, like, yeah, totally, post sheila....i feel sick, okay no more crunch fun size bar. i am going to just stick to my gourmet truffles. those are always satisfying, especially godiva.

so i was quite annoyed when i came home. SOMEONE, i know who jacked the rest of my milk. what is up with that. sure it expires today and I was going to use it, but to my disregard, it was gone before i could get to it. it's not like this is the first time either. so milk stealer, please stop taking what is not yours. get it your DAMN self, or ask. then i will say NO! jackaSS, that's right. hahahah....i am so evil, i know. hahahha....okay...whatevers. i am just going to have to start labeling, what a pain. still T-eeedddd. it will pass in a few, till something else pisses me off.

so i have noticed, all this time i have thought/seen myself as a patient person, but really have come realize how very immpatient i have become. so yeah.....what happened?

so i saw another concert at the irvine barclay theatre, it was nice to be around campus and the university center, it brings back memories.

okay, off to write my sense away.

still listening to lifehouse.....

so i just ate a crunch bar. it is not settling well, my system really can't handle all this sugar. it totally makes me just want to bounce off the walls, it was on my desk, so i gave into temptation. i am going to finish my reading tonight, so i can just review all the rest of the material. so tomorrow i am going to the barclay. never been there before so it will be wuite nice. just got to find somewhere to park. today was a pretty decent day.

what day is it? tuesday.....not such a bad tuesday. okay, i better get to reading, so i can get some decent amount of rest.

listening to lifehouse.....

omg, i hurt so much, i haven't worked out on the bike in ages. my quads and all lower half of my body is in pain. i truly don't know how this happened. my knee is killing me like crazy, why? great...that means i gotta get back on them advil pills, boo.....i will wait to see if it passes before i got on them. gosh, i must sound like a druggie. when i am clearly not one. so lately, i have been starring at a computer screen, and it has come to a point, where i am totally zoning out. i seriously can run the BIER without thinking, isn't that scary? cause i totally zone out sometimes but an unconciously running it.

so something has been bothering me lately. i feel so irresponsible and there isn't enough time in the day. there is so much i want to accomplish, but it becomes impossible to carry it all out in my waking hours. i feel so torn sometimes cause i feel like i am letting people down. i wish i could be in two places at once. i have this constant conflict with myself, where i want to be available to everyone and it just so hard to choose. should i sacrifice what i want. i haven't totally grasp the treat yourself first concept. it is so complicated yet so trivial, ahhh....i don't know what i am trying to get at. i'll watch some tv instead. oh yeah, slight solution......fall back, i gain an hour....maybe that will help? no?

listening to moby........

so i just ate some leftovers. they were taste and topped it off with some ice cream. that's the best. now i am going to read about vessels, you know those things that circulate in our cardiovaacular system. this coming week is going to be so busy. i hope it all works out. my throat erts, ouch, oh no.

so i notice my memory is relapsing cause i gotta think, did that just happen? strange, i dunno.....booo.....okay, whatelse.......i was going to reveal something super cool, but like it eludes me now. oh well....hahaha....maybe another time. what is it about me these days that just make me seem like i am just so out of it. i feel so aloof, yet so not. oh gosh....not that again. this blog probably made no sense at all and was the most confusing thing you ever read, or not. hmmmm....how truly vague i am.


so yesterday, when i ate at cheesecake, I had such a delicious meal, it was sOOOO good. It just made me want to melt. YUM!

listening to damien rice......

my stomach hurts, it hurts, so today, i had a pig's heart in the palm of my hand. it was fun playing with it.

jason and jane.....maybe i will listen to that tomorrow when i am stuck in the BIER Vessel.

also thinking about the new lifehouse cd. i may get it.

i think i am terribly hungry....i feel the hunger pains....


so earlier today.....well, later....whatever....so what is the craziest thing i have done......hmmm......wow...it just hit me....okay, laters.....funny.....i always end up answer my questions when i think out loud. hehhe

ouch! i burnt my tongue yet again. this time it really hurts. booo..... as i was studying, i got hungry so i decided to opt for some vegetable soup with rice. i really need to wait a while begin talking those first few sips.

where does the time go? i got outta class early, but still i feel like i have lost so much time studying. i went to the supermarket. that really sucked up all my time. it is a stress reliever i guess. it's my safe place. i love it there. it's just so nice to go walking down the aisle. it is comparable to josh harnett's bus in 40 days and 40 nights. i have food though, so it was really worth it, cause i need brain food. i didn't get a chance to make my soup, i will leave that for tomorrow. i hope to get way more done. my head is hurting again. perhaps, it is just time to rest my brain. but did you know that sheeps have tiny ass brains, that's right they do. i think i will review that b4 bed. hopefully it is not too brainy. so i think i relieved one stress knot. gosh, i can tell i am stressed, but do i really know what is causing it. i can feel it in my heart, it is going to explode. maybe i need to take anxiety pills instead?

what do you guys think? should i white it out?

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my brazillian name, interesting how there is an gluteus maximus icon, which i'll have you know originates from the dorsal illum, sacrum and coccyx. it then inserts into the gluteal tuberosity of the femur and iliotibial tract. it is a complex powerful thigh extensor and laterally rotates and abducts the thigh.

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and here is what my madam name would be

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Luscious Luv

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though you might enjoy this. is it a sign? a calling almost? must be. wow.

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i also found this interesting.

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this is funny, so i'll share it with you.

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