I HURT!!!! I am in absolute PAIN. Help me.

1. my head hurts. it POUNDS!!!!
2. my necks aches.
3. my wings hurts.
4. my left oblique hurts like no other. it HURTS so much. SAVE me.
5. I just want to crack every bone to relieve some air pressure.
6. My knee hurts too.
7. I have the urge to vomit.
8. I must be sick.

I had my speech today. It could have been better. Nice to get it out of the way. While in class, this car did a hit and run on my unattended parked car. So there's this black scratch on my rear bummer. When I was walking to my car, I was like, what is it. The sucker that hit me did not leave me a note. But someone did. A good samaritan left me a note of what happened with the license plate, car make and color. I was like, wow! There are good people out there. It's true what they say treat others as you would treat yourselves. So I can get my bummer fixed. yuppie. Thank you guardian angel!!! you are the BEST!!!!


I have an interview to prepare for so that's what i'll be doing tonight, perhaps. probably though. last night, i got a lot of rest, but still, i feel like crap. so tonight, i am going to clean, maybe, probably not.

i don't want to work this weekend again. i am spent from spending all my time in lab. i want to watch she's the man. so sue me. any takers. probably will just get it ripped though. heeeheee.

been meaning to watch zoolander cause i just need something to laugh at and be merry and eat my popcorn, so maybe tonight, probably not thought.

must get over these aches and pains. the tylenol with codeine isn't helping. i am going to see what else I have that is stronger. for some of them i forget what it is for. bobooo...

sorry for all this complaining, next entry will be better. promise.

so tired! even though, i had a day off today, it was no day off. work up early, like around 8 and then did my morning of doing nothing till 8:30....then showered and headed to dr. appt #1. after which i headed back to arcadia to dr appt#2. in between i was able to go to REI and return something. then headed to sierra madre. there i got some good tips and almost got a somewhat prospective job offer. but sadly, at the same time my car or the wind beat me up. so check this out....i was getting into my car, when all of a sudden out of nowhere my head bounces from one door to the other. i was like, what the hell just happened. it totally dumb founded. then i was like, OUch! So then i was like, hmmmm.....and had ice on my head on and off the whole day. it still rattles a bit. hope it doesn't bruise, but it's already red.

So i have lunch with my sister and mom. that was nice. we had japanese food and got complementary desserts. after that, it was busy busy busy. dropped my sister off at the doctor's. went to invest a CD. getting a good rate. ask me if you're interested. picked momma and sis, and went to the JnJ store. then to Costco, and finally home. chilled with my family, and then ran errand with my sister. it was so funny watching her run. HAHAHA. it was showering lightly.

headed back to irvine and here i am now. gosh, my head hurts. POO!

feeling proud of myself. i finished my speech, and i paid my bills. almost. now just need to get those taxes done.

it's sunday afternoon and I am here at working, slaving away... alas....I have about 8 cycles to run on the BIER before I can go home. I hope it runs smoothly, otherwise I will be here until I run out of samples.

Just took a cereal break, that's why I am here, blogging to you. I figure I better eat something or else I'll be cranky to myself. Yesterday, I only brought an orange, thinking I wouldn't be here that long. But I was and I was dying. I suppose I shed some unwanted fat or wanted muscle.

I brought in the cd player to keep my company and it helps. I'm glad I don't have work tomorrow, but really it was no long weekend for me cause I was here all weekend long. it wasn't so bad, but definitely could have been doing better things. I hope the week will go smoothly. I don't plan on working next weekend. I am going to chill instead. that is away from here.

The cereal made me full and I am ready to tackle those cycles. Yes.....

oh yeah, before work, I treated myself to the mall. I didn't expect to buy anything big, but I ended up getting my mom a watch, I hope she likes it. It's for Mother's Day. I know, I am way early. Think I might give it to her tomorrow. I wonder if she'll like it. It's quite nice. I guess I'll see.

Also, since, I'll be getting my teeth cleaning tomorrow, I love those! I might grab a bit to each with my mom and sister. wonder where.....

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

random thought just popped to mind. i'm feeling like a cynic (did I spell that right? oh well) lately. why is that, hmmm? whatevers. so cynic sorta rhythms with syndicate.....like in cowboy beebop. and then i was like, i like wating movies and tv shows cause it's like taking a break from my thought. i been thinking more than watching. it's fun to just absorb yourself into reality tv or whatever. it tells my brain/thoughts breathe. tonight i am going to watch what i like about you cause its the season finale. this weekend my goal is to get things done. might do the eating a cafe or something. well see. haven't done that in a while. its fun, i think.

went swimming today and saw my old housemate. nice to see a familiar face. so yeah....(thinking....) processing thoughts. thoughts are interesting, it is what makes us unique. isn't interesting how you can see a person thinking, like the wheels turning....and you wonder what is going on in their mind. i like the mystery or maybe I am naive, but oh so curious.

want a doughnut all of a sudden. better eat.. salad or popcorn.....i'll go with the salad, it's about dinner time.

turkey...who knew... my dad would be proud.

With understanding comes forgiveness and peace of mind follows.

I usually don't like to post things like this cause its a given if you know me.


Your words they make just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
And the words just disappear
Cuz it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said
So i speak to you in riddles
Cuz my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
Cuz i can't take anymore of this
I wanna come apart
And did myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
Cuz it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said
I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for intention
That i always try to hide
Cuz i talk to you like children
Though i don't know how i feel
But i know i'll do the right thing
If the right thing is in fear
Cuz its always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said

Anyways, I am trying to write/prepare my speech, but I have this insane whatever of nonsense.....i think there's too much on my mind, so i can't concentrate on thinking up a catchy intro led alone a theme. whatevers......i just hope some brilliance comes my way soon so I can process away. I decided to blog as a way to get the ball rolling, but perhaps that was not the best idea. been feeling so scattered brained lately. there are so many other things I want to do rather than write this extemperoraneous speech.

I am sitting in my lovely one person chair centralized in my room. I have all this cluster and it is driving me crazy. i need to get so many things outta the way. like I need to finally get going and do my taxes. that's like money wasting away. I ain't going to collect interest on it if I don't file.

Come to realize this might be a long blog. so beware. Been thinking a lot lately, about and here's a tangent. i just got a phone call and here's to sum....

My topic is on slavery in the modern world. You're probably thinking...slavery....wasn't that emancipated? Well, sure it was, but now slavery has taken a new form. As a result of globalization, it has reached new heights. There is no immediate solution to this problem...maybe there never will...but for now. we can expose ourselves to the issue and over time...just maybe....things will change....a little bit can go a long way.....

so yeah, that' helps.....i love these blogger things.

another thing.....i have this journal....that keeps me sane too....

collide - howie day

sins have prices. i am paying them now. my back aches. ohhh.....i hate these body aches.

so i speak to you in riddles.....


anyways, i was just talking to my old roommate and i realize as i sit in my room at 64 degrees, it's like being in chicago. so why am i still cold at work. it's like i am a penguin.....totally.

How, Where, When?

How, and When? When and Where? How and Where? And where will we touch again....How, When and When will will touch again.....How and where?

These simples words make up a song.....amazing.

So just lyrics popped into my head at work yesterday.....thought i'd shared them. can you guess where it's from?

I'm not the sort of person
Who falls
In and quickly out of love
But to you I gave my affection
Right from the start

begin........

so my head hurts.....i dunno why.....probably water there lack off. it is cold too....i am going to the gym soon, so i hope my head clears. it rained a little this morning. my backs aches....i hate is when i sleep on one side too long and not rotate.

speech went well.....and doughnuts were decent. think i'll bring the rest to work.....or eat them all cause i am a fatty. haha.....

so yeah.....don't you hate it when you can't remember something. maybe that is the source of my headache. yesterday my house mate and I have been having meaningful convo...really is interesting to hear another perspective of the aspects of life and the future. kinda like puts you in check of where you really are in life. also, spoke with a friend of mine that I haven't really talked to in ages. it was nice. that's another thing i am going to add in this lenting season.....talk and meet up with friends that I haven't talked to in ages.

a year or two ago, i have been in limbo....of recent, okay like even further back....i have found direction in life and know where i want to go and what i want to do.....its great to have that touch of peace. it's a touch cause i haven't acquired it yet, but am working on it.

so yeah....there is one other thing that is bothering me and i really should face it head on, but maybe i just want to absorb the now.......

might go to buffalo in april. it'll be nice, might take a day off, we'll see....

okay, i better get ready to start my day.....hope it is relaxing and not so jumble. oh yeah another thing.....background leads to futures.....life is all about progression, is it not?