Tuesday, September 28, 2004

bad gas. so conditioner. it works wonders. thank you!
i just hate it when i can't study. i am just staring at my book aimlessly. i need to concentrate. concentrate.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

BEACHED WHALE. why me?
blog blog blog. so yesterday, i went to hollywood and etc with my dad and uncle.

the day started off with me waking up and taking my car in to get serviced. i was expecting a rental car cause that's what the person who i made the appointment with told me. but there was no rental car so i was pretty peeved. dumb ass wonderies toyota. i might never go there again. the day before i took my car in for an oil change cause i knew it needed one. so i take it in and they tell me that my transmission needs maintance and that i need new rear breaks, windshield wipers plus an ail filter. oh my gosh. there's needs to be a buyer beware sign. oh well, so i take it in cause i figure it is hitting the 100,000 mark soon, so why not. and so at the end of the say i came out with 558$ or service being done. thanks to my parents i have a car that is safe and runs efficiently. i love how it doesn't make that eeeeeee eeeeee sound when you are braking.

so in between all that i wait almost an hour for my dad to pick me up and then i go and work out to blow off some steam and fat. oh yeah....stupid greg....i want my rental car. short stubby man! okay, enough venting on that end. so my dad, uncle and i head off to the glendale galleria and shop. there was a stupid security guard that was like you can't take pictures, it's not allow. so you know what.....here's what i say to him........dumb ass i'll take whatever picture i like. and that is what i did. after that we went over to my mom's store and took a picture of her. i guess she wanted my uncle to see where she worked at. i met the store director. he seemed pretty nice. moving on, we head over to hollywood. first hitting up thai town.

we ate at kruang tedd. they were setting up their 10 year anniversary. usually i enjoy the pad thai there, but it just wasn't that good this time around. i was kinda sad. and the appetizer was last. it took forever to come and our waitress was pretty rude. she really didn't deserve the 15%-18% tip. so i don't know if i will go there again. however lunch was cheaper so that was a plus.

after, we head over to the thai dessert place. i never get disappointed there. they are always so nice. my dad liked it too, he wanted to try a bunch of stuff. it was cute. but i have to control him or else he'll buy the whole store. while waiting, i spoke with a gentleman that wondered what kasava was. my dad really loves it so he had to have some so i was attempting to explain what it was, but alas, i wasn't sure myself. but it is almost like sweet potato. so apparently, taht person taught i was on summer vacation. passing off as a high school graduate. passing off even as a college graduate/student. it is flattering to look so young. i really don't mind. i think i may have been older that him.

so then we headed off to the kodark theater/mann chinese theater. it was hot and touristy. there's was a masked of zorro who was like 'beautiful lady' can i take a picture with you. so i was like ok. then he was asking for tips. that is obsured. 1) you want to take a picture with me. 2) why do i have to tip you. 3) if anything you should tip me and not pout about it. 4) why don't you get a REAL job. JACKASS. I hate those kinds of people.

we finally ended the day with picking up my car.

okay, back to naruto.

oh yeah. i got a new job. i am excited. i didn't continue with my other one because i felt like i was getting chemical poisoning. health= more important than money. remember that!

Saturday, September 18, 2004

at home in arcadia and chilling in my queen size bed while using my bros labtop. it is nice. but the thing with a labtop is that it can get hot. i don't particularly like that. but oh well. i plan to get a powerbook in the near future. other plans get an slr and also a new cell phone. see these are just technological advances that i would like to have. in addition, the current car of my choice is an m3 so perhaps i will begin to save up for that. but i am not sure yet.

so today was my last day at work. it was my first entry level job right outta college. i was there for about a year and 2 months. i am now moving on to something else. when it rains it pours. ramon was right cause i almost got 3 offers, really i had two really tough companies that made offeres to me. it was really just so hard. i wish i could have done both. phil gave me some good advice. he asked me....do you want to be a big fish in a small pond or a small fish in a big pond. i am glad i have made my decision. i can sleep better at nights. coming back to the road not taken. of course, we will never know. it is just something that we will have to take as it is.

i am fortunate to have such an experience that has instilled my confidence level to a new height. monday i open up another chapter in my life. let's hope it's a good one. cheers to that!

aside from my good fortune lately, i am sadden to say something unnecessary. overall, that company i worked for was great. great people. xcept for one individual. on my last day at work, this individual who we will call RR sends me an email. before i disclose the email let me begin with the story of how i met RR. one day i was walking along the hallways to inject to and from my cycles because at work i have to walk a lot from one sterilizer to another or from injection point to sterilizer. so i guess RR would see me around and one day i guess thinking that he refered to me as a pig in spanish but meant something else. i of course was oblivious to all this because when i am running two or three machines i am pretty busy because i have to focus on what needs to be taken care of. WORK FIRST OF COURSE. i don't have time to mess up or chit chat. so naturally, i am in constant motion. but of course i am always polite and smile.

so then another incident. i was in the lunch room taking a break and RR comes and speaks to me. telling me about an email he sent and something about a girls' behavior. so of course i listen cause i am a good listen. and once in a while i will make a comment when my opinion is asked. and thus. i give it. of course it is a reserved comment, because that's how i am. it is just how i was raised. i would rather be that than a whore. come to think of it this RR sometimes forwards racist email. next incident that i can remember is halloween where i asked him, so any plans for halloween cause it's polite to make small chat sometimes especially when you run across them in the halls. and he tells me oh he is going to be good and not whore around. and i was like okay. shouldn't have asked. you can now see why i don't make small chat sometimes. cause you just get info you don't need to know. i can only assume that i make him nervous; thus him saying things that he normally would not.

to continue on. another encounter was when i was about to put in a cycle. so i was in a bit of a rush and really did not have time to chit chat. and so RR goes i had a dream about you and i was like ...ok.....(thinking that it was very odd and inappropriate coming from him especially the way he brought it up). so he tells me that he couldn't sleep and busts out the taro cards. tells me there was something about my eyes that captivated him. (gross!!!!) really this isn't something that is appropriate for a work conversation. so he tells me that in the cards that he sees i am going on a trip, which i was and that i was unsure about it. i thought that was creepy cause it made him sound stalkerish. also he mentioned something about my baking, and yeah.. can you say STALKER. then he send me this email saying that he was going away cause he needs to find the bigger bucks and that he should stop talking to me. we don't even talk. really that is. psycho huh? so i was like, okay, politely send him a farewell email and wish him on his way.

oddly when i came back from my vacation he was still there. so i was suprised. he must have been really embarrassed. so i felt really awkward then cause well wouldn't you?

then two days ago, he gives me a cd and says i heard from the grapevine that you are leaving. and gives me a cd. and i was like ok. that was really odd. and i was like, what is this for. he says, i think you will like it. i think i know you're taste. i think not. i am not that easy to read. and says he will write an email tomorrow. and this is where i begin with the email bit that i thought was unnecessary. maybe i should post it on here. kinda too long though.

FIRST of the asshole RR begins by nicknaming me as a crazy cat. hello ass, i have a name. i hate it when people try to give me nicknames when they don't even know me. you don't have the right to be so friendly with me when you are not my friend. when you refer to me as a bitch. i will go on about that later on.

weird thing is how did he get my hotmail account address. it's cc to my hotmail and i don't know why. of course i never want him to use it. i don't want to receive dumb junkmail from him or email telling me how to change. cause ONE i do not need to change. and what right have you to tell me that. YOU DON'T KNOW ME. then RR goes on to say that i am dumb for choosing hotmail as my domain cause it is a public address and i am like...loser.......it's an email adress. don't judge me on email addresses. you are asking to be treated like scum when you say something like that to me.

then the weirdo RR comes up with these insinuation that he begged for my friendship. this is unheard of. continues to say especially and i quote ... "a thing for sure is that i never beg for friendship; specially from girls (I always had the enemy nearby) and I don't care if they are easy to the eyes or perhaps better looking, but i do care if they are cool. which is exactly my predicament and reason for this e-mail, because you are very, very nice when not in that f....bitchy mood. besides it was decided not to stop and talk to you just so to not let people gossip about it and make it a big deal out of it, with so many harrassment laws made by "meauuuu" politicians influences by ugly women it becomes an issue."


so what hell the is that suppose to mean. first of say it to my face and not hide behind an email. friendship...what friendship. i don't work with you. you just pass by my occassionally. what i can't walk around the office. i need to move from lab to lab to conduct my task. harrassment...you know what you have harrassed me. maybe i should report you. people like you don't deserve to be around people like me cause you just harrass us and make judgements that are not called for.

RR goes on to say that he wished he could have known me better and that he wished he could have guided me to what is right and wrong, etc. HELL NO. i don't want to learn anything from you. you are diseased because you have just insulted how my parents have raised me. RR you don't know me. you don't know about my life. my parents did a great job raising me and i am happy the way i turned out. i have morals unlike most kids these days. i know right from wrong. and i know i was a hell of a lot more discipline that your average teenager/college student. and you probably. i can't help it if i was raised in a nurturing environment. my parents worked hard to provide me with an environment that encouraged me to pursuit the best the i can be. and you calling me out for this? i think that is dispicable.

now he is being a hypocrite by saying that i don't need to change, but that i need to modify my personality. same thing asshole. i'll quote something RR said in bold and big lettered: "Do not ever change. Do instead modify the over layer(s) of your personality. I felt hurt and little;And if it wasn't for a female friend of mind that advised me and the accomplishments obtained at your young age which I respect, I would've spanked the bitch out of you."

if that wasn't sexually harrassment, then what is. comments please. okay i think i have written a lot. sorry if there are typos. the cursor likes to move around.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

it has been a while. i am back, though i have not really gone anywhere. so a lot has happened lately. i quit my job and got a new one. i have been getting a lot of offers lately. it's nice. i went up north. that was nice too. i have lots to rant about but at the same time my writing is minimal cause i don't want to relieve too much. it's odd, these online journals only give you a glimpse of what i am thinking as oppose to a true journal. they are almost like clues. clues to what my mind is really thinking.

to be honest i am very reserved. i keep what i am thinking to myself and only say a little. though at times i can rant on and on. what does that mean? i don't know. i guess i am careful of others' feelings.

lately i have been down. why? perhaps cause it's the end of something i have been use to for the past year. or perhaps it is because i am entering something new. for the past year, i feel as though i have been in a state of limbo. in which there was litte stability in my life. now i have that stability, but still i am afraid of it. why? who knows. perhaps cause of the future. it is still unplanned. perhaps it is?

i hope that by next year i'll have all this figured out.

for time being i guess i'll just listen to this: transatlanticism