at home in arcadia and chilling in my queen size bed while using my bros labtop. it is nice. but the thing with a labtop is that it can get hot. i don't particularly like that. but oh well. i plan to get a powerbook in the near future. other plans get an slr and also a new cell phone. see these are just technological advances that i would like to have. in addition, the current car of my choice is an m3 so perhaps i will begin to save up for that. but i am not sure yet.

so today was my last day at work. it was my first entry level job right outta college. i was there for about a year and 2 months. i am now moving on to something else. when it rains it pours. ramon was right cause i almost got 3 offers, really i had two really tough companies that made offeres to me. it was really just so hard. i wish i could have done both. phil gave me some good advice. he asked me....do you want to be a big fish in a small pond or a small fish in a big pond. i am glad i have made my decision. i can sleep better at nights. coming back to the road not taken. of course, we will never know. it is just something that we will have to take as it is.

i am fortunate to have such an experience that has instilled my confidence level to a new height. monday i open up another chapter in my life. let's hope it's a good one. cheers to that!

aside from my good fortune lately, i am sadden to say something unnecessary. overall, that company i worked for was great. great people. xcept for one individual. on my last day at work, this individual who we will call RR sends me an email. before i disclose the email let me begin with the story of how i met RR. one day i was walking along the hallways to inject to and from my cycles because at work i have to walk a lot from one sterilizer to another or from injection point to sterilizer. so i guess RR would see me around and one day i guess thinking that he refered to me as a pig in spanish but meant something else. i of course was oblivious to all this because when i am running two or three machines i am pretty busy because i have to focus on what needs to be taken care of. WORK FIRST OF COURSE. i don't have time to mess up or chit chat. so naturally, i am in constant motion. but of course i am always polite and smile.

so then another incident. i was in the lunch room taking a break and RR comes and speaks to me. telling me about an email he sent and something about a girls' behavior. so of course i listen cause i am a good listen. and once in a while i will make a comment when my opinion is asked. and thus. i give it. of course it is a reserved comment, because that's how i am. it is just how i was raised. i would rather be that than a whore. come to think of it this RR sometimes forwards racist email. next incident that i can remember is halloween where i asked him, so any plans for halloween cause it's polite to make small chat sometimes especially when you run across them in the halls. and he tells me oh he is going to be good and not whore around. and i was like okay. shouldn't have asked. you can now see why i don't make small chat sometimes. cause you just get info you don't need to know. i can only assume that i make him nervous; thus him saying things that he normally would not.

to continue on. another encounter was when i was about to put in a cycle. so i was in a bit of a rush and really did not have time to chit chat. and so RR goes i had a dream about you and i was like ...ok.....(thinking that it was very odd and inappropriate coming from him especially the way he brought it up). so he tells me that he couldn't sleep and busts out the taro cards. tells me there was something about my eyes that captivated him. (gross!!!!) really this isn't something that is appropriate for a work conversation. so he tells me that in the cards that he sees i am going on a trip, which i was and that i was unsure about it. i thought that was creepy cause it made him sound stalkerish. also he mentioned something about my baking, and yeah.. can you say STALKER. then he send me this email saying that he was going away cause he needs to find the bigger bucks and that he should stop talking to me. we don't even talk. really that is. psycho huh? so i was like, okay, politely send him a farewell email and wish him on his way.

oddly when i came back from my vacation he was still there. so i was suprised. he must have been really embarrassed. so i felt really awkward then cause well wouldn't you?

then two days ago, he gives me a cd and says i heard from the grapevine that you are leaving. and gives me a cd. and i was like ok. that was really odd. and i was like, what is this for. he says, i think you will like it. i think i know you're taste. i think not. i am not that easy to read. and says he will write an email tomorrow. and this is where i begin with the email bit that i thought was unnecessary. maybe i should post it on here. kinda too long though.

FIRST of the asshole RR begins by nicknaming me as a crazy cat. hello ass, i have a name. i hate it when people try to give me nicknames when they don't even know me. you don't have the right to be so friendly with me when you are not my friend. when you refer to me as a bitch. i will go on about that later on.

weird thing is how did he get my hotmail account address. it's cc to my hotmail and i don't know why. of course i never want him to use it. i don't want to receive dumb junkmail from him or email telling me how to change. cause ONE i do not need to change. and what right have you to tell me that. YOU DON'T KNOW ME. then RR goes on to say that i am dumb for choosing hotmail as my domain cause it is a public address and i am like...loser.......it's an email adress. don't judge me on email addresses. you are asking to be treated like scum when you say something like that to me.

then the weirdo RR comes up with these insinuation that he begged for my friendship. this is unheard of. continues to say especially and i quote ... "a thing for sure is that i never beg for friendship; specially from girls (I always had the enemy nearby) and I don't care if they are easy to the eyes or perhaps better looking, but i do care if they are cool. which is exactly my predicament and reason for this e-mail, because you are very, very nice when not in that f....bitchy mood. besides it was decided not to stop and talk to you just so to not let people gossip about it and make it a big deal out of it, with so many harrassment laws made by "meauuuu" politicians influences by ugly women it becomes an issue."


so what hell the is that suppose to mean. first of say it to my face and not hide behind an email. friendship...what friendship. i don't work with you. you just pass by my occassionally. what i can't walk around the office. i need to move from lab to lab to conduct my task. harrassment...you know what you have harrassed me. maybe i should report you. people like you don't deserve to be around people like me cause you just harrass us and make judgements that are not called for.

RR goes on to say that he wished he could have known me better and that he wished he could have guided me to what is right and wrong, etc. HELL NO. i don't want to learn anything from you. you are diseased because you have just insulted how my parents have raised me. RR you don't know me. you don't know about my life. my parents did a great job raising me and i am happy the way i turned out. i have morals unlike most kids these days. i know right from wrong. and i know i was a hell of a lot more discipline that your average teenager/college student. and you probably. i can't help it if i was raised in a nurturing environment. my parents worked hard to provide me with an environment that encouraged me to pursuit the best the i can be. and you calling me out for this? i think that is dispicable.

now he is being a hypocrite by saying that i don't need to change, but that i need to modify my personality. same thing asshole. i'll quote something RR said in bold and big lettered: "Do not ever change. Do instead modify the over layer(s) of your personality. I felt hurt and little;And if it wasn't for a female friend of mind that advised me and the accomplishments obtained at your young age which I respect, I would've spanked the bitch out of you."

if that wasn't sexually harrassment, then what is. comments please. okay i think i have written a lot. sorry if there are typos. the cursor likes to move around.