it has been a while. i am back, though i have not really gone anywhere. so a lot has happened lately. i quit my job and got a new one. i have been getting a lot of offers lately. it's nice. i went up north. that was nice too. i have lots to rant about but at the same time my writing is minimal cause i don't want to relieve too much. it's odd, these online journals only give you a glimpse of what i am thinking as oppose to a true journal. they are almost like clues. clues to what my mind is really thinking.

to be honest i am very reserved. i keep what i am thinking to myself and only say a little. though at times i can rant on and on. what does that mean? i don't know. i guess i am careful of others' feelings.

lately i have been down. why? perhaps cause it's the end of something i have been use to for the past year. or perhaps it is because i am entering something new. for the past year, i feel as though i have been in a state of limbo. in which there was litte stability in my life. now i have that stability, but still i am afraid of it. why? who knows. perhaps cause of the future. it is still unplanned. perhaps it is?

i hope that by next year i'll have all this figured out.

for time being i guess i'll just listen to this: transatlanticism