I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
and I've been secretly falling apart
I see
To me you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me but you just
can't see. You turn every head but you don't
see me.

i am such a nice sister. why? let me tell you! I washed my baby sis's down blanket. it's so huge. and I am air DRYING it in my room. so it's like all downy. YOU HEAR' lil girl.

one other thing. cheese and chocolate. bad combo. at least in the case I was suffering through earlier.

okay, going to finalize my grand speech. i am tired of rehearsing it.

it's monday, a most interesting monday. it wasn't a casual monday. even though I went to work, i also went to Disneyland California Adventure. IT WAS FUN! I love the pics, they are too funny. i am pretty tired now, and better chop chop. For tomorrow is another day. today was fun, thanks guys!!!

so i been in arcadia, and yes..... anyways, i was about to blog, my mommy came in and said i have too many clothes and her HAIR distracted me from my happy thoughts. see i just dyed her hair and it was a tad bit MESSY and i just know that when she comes from washing all that DYE off she will be like.."AHHHH...SHEILA....what did you do.....there are all these BLACK marks." then she continues to complain....."Ainako....para sira oula na ako" So yeah, it's all killer black and I spiked it like dino style, it's awesome and I should totally take a picture.

so looks like no disney today, which is good cause i am tired and lazy. my ass really doesn't want to go anywhere. might go sometime this week, anyone interested, i got an extra ticket.

ohh....i really should get back to work that way i can play or sleep. i'll be BACK!

pretty bored. all i did yesterday was sleep. it was one nap after the other. i could do nothing but sleep. i was pretty close to being glued onto my bed. i would like to do the same thing today, but i will probably get dragged out. oh but my ass hurts so. CRAMPS!!!!! oh why me. i want to lay on my tummy, but it is hard to type that way. i really need to do some really work, but my body says NO! Maybe next weekend, i will be more productive. I am going to try to attempt to finish my speech. it shouldn't be so bad. That way when i get back to irvine I can just print it out and practice to my heart's content. And do all my bills and desk work.

let's see. i had many opportunities to think while laying here in my bed. Oh why me...why this horrible pain in the gut....noooooo.....blasted. that must mean it's nap time. why eve.....why?

i wonder....do I complain a lot? I don't want to be one of those annoying complainers that always complain. cause i know they can be annoying.

So i was planning a second vacation to Asia, but i don't know if I should. hmmmmmmm??? I already am going to Europe in June, so hmmmm.....was thinking maybe Hawaii in august, but then the ticket i have goes all the way to Asia, so it would be a waste if I didn't swing all the way. maybe i will stop over in hawaii for some days, but that might be to much $$$...so maybe not.....

okay, i better do something productive, like nap.

it all makes sense now.

awake so early. how crappy. it's saturday too. total boo. so this is why I am up so early, it's cause I drank so many pots of tea last night. and this morning I just have to go pee all the time. it woke me up, and I am at home so when my mom wakes up she comes into see if i am awake too. i think she made juice this morning, but i am not sure cause i didn't hear any grinding.

so plans for today, feeling kinda bummed and lazy. really too lazy to go out and be merry. too lazy to go to the happiest place in the world. but maybe. maybe my mood will pick up in a couple.

i should work on my speech but i am not in the mood. i really just want to mope around all day. i want to sleep, i am tired. maybe i will eat something and then nap till lunch time.

so sleepy, but can't wuite sleep. so exhausted, i haven't a clue why. all this typing is making me tired. ZZZZzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz

i am so tired!!! I think i am getting sick. I been coughing, and its dry, i hate it. i been drinking lots of water, but still no help. So here's my day for ya.

I woke up went to work. was going to donate but the people weren't ready. couldn't donate later on in the day so it didn't happen. I will do it next week then, or at least try to. sat in traffic. it was killer, even though i was a passenger. went to a family party. i was so tired, i had to put on my shades so i could hide my tiredness. now i am sleepy. so goodnight.

gotta get some rest, i am so tired. i baked. haven't for a while. i finally tried this new thing, that i knew wouldn't turn out. i guess i should have tested it out first. i needed a shaper. so it didn't turn out like i planned. i made due. i just have no idea how to transport these babies.

tomorrow i am suppose to donate, we'll see if it is in the cards for me. bedtime. what a random blog.

i was just thinking....nevermind. bedtime.

perfect time of day

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
yeah
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming
you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
yeah

...sigh....

nara.....e.s. posthumus

silence.....

i am almost done with my loaf.....ohhh....why....i feel all round like a rollie pollie. carbs, what a killer. been hungry these days, makes up for my lack of hunger. but alas.....think i'll get me some truffles, i want something sweet now.

so may is almost here. time is flying by. this blog seems like it will end up scattered. so i stumbled upon some good news today, which made my day. tomorrow is another day...bagel day for that matter.

plan for this evening. shower cause i worked out, gosh it felt so good, i love taking a breathe of air after working out. it's a grand feeling. then an attempt to research and write up an outline.

Anathello 


Format plus Anathello 


kinda blurry but do you see it? yes, i am talking to you.  

so yesterday, I went to a concert at The Glass House to go see the Format. There were some other cool bands there too. Above I posted some pics and here is a link to some more, CLICK HERE

In a couple of hours, i'll be on a plane to vegas.

This past week, a saw a fair amount of movies. Lucky Number Slevin was pretty good. The Benchwarmers was okay, there's this one pretty funny scene aside from the others.

Next week, I gotta start working on my speech, BOOOO!!!!!! I need a topic. hmmmm....

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

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it's sunday morning, 20 to 9. I hadn't planned on waking till like 10, but alas, my biological clock or my UTS told to wake up, so here I am. My headaches, especially around my occipital lobe, which is now trancending down my neck and hitting my spinal cord. So now I can't sleep. BLASTED. My 8 hours plus has been shot. I told my mom about my pressing migranes. Usually they stay for a week and go away. She told me to get an MRI done. I am still shopping for a doctor. I have one in Arcadia, but that is so far. Plus, he is kinda hard to understand. The one I have right now is too drug happy if you know what I mean. So if you know a good doctor in the OC, let me know.

Today, my schedule has opened up. I am going to work, maybe lay out if time allows. Maybe even go to the mall. I need to pick up a wireless bra cause apparently, I have some called contochrondrotis, which is basically my ribs being irritated by the wire on my support. What's up with that? So hopefully, I get one so I can breathe properly, and not have a weird left pain.

Yesterday......was a fun day. I woke up and read some. Had dim sum with my family. Afterwards, my mom made plans for me to take out my relatives. That was unexpected. But since I was there already, I figure, why not. So my sister and I ended up taking them Victoria Gardens and Ontario Mllls. My cousin and his wife are visiting from the PI. They have 3 children. I shouldn't have a favorite, but I do. They have 2 girls and a boy. The older one is quite and more timid. The sandwich is the social butterfly. And the youngest is both shy and talkative. They are so cute, but not as cute as before. I saw them about two years ago and they were super cute. They are still cute though. So to my point. It was fun playing with the kids today. But also very exhausting. so I have a new cuteness meter. They are still cute even at 5.

Victoria Gardens was pretty nice, it's like an oldtown pasedena in the middle of nowhere. It's like a set in a movie. I was pretty impressed. Ontario Mills is ontario mills. I bought some shoes cause my sister did. I really don't need them, but oh well. They will replace my all stars I suppose.

So back to the kids. Shyena is so cute. She was attached to my hip most of the time. I hadn't realize how hard it was to have a kid walking in front of you. I was totally working the inner thighs. I learned something today, almost felt like Holden. Children are so innocent, they haven't a care for the world. They don't care what other people thing, and they are just carefree souls. A free spirit. We should never let the inner child in ourselves go.

feeling better. in fact, i am feeling like a vampire. i am wearing my retainers and they feel weird. i can feel my sharp canines.

Lately, I been having some pretty bad migranes. They are the worst because when they come, they like to stay for a little while. Maybe, just maybe me hitting my head twice within a two week span aggrevated it. So lesson is I have to be more careful. This week I have been totally off. If this keeps up, I am totally going to get interventioned. And well, that just doesn't sound pleasant.

I was thinking that maybe I should fill up those persriptions. But medication is bad for you. That is why I hesitate, plus I can only have so many nasal sprays. So that makes me think that I need to find a new doctor that isn't so drug happy. She really loves to use up her perscription pads.

Tonight, I am probably not going to be productive, but I will try. Tomorrow is friday, I can't wait. Because I don't have to work this weekend. Which is great, even though I didn't last week. I might pop in though, cause I don't want to work next weekend, but who knows we might catch up during the week.

So as I type, my head is pounding, is it the light, the smell, the sounds, what is it, ROARRRR.......sleep I shall, better yet, I will just shower it will relax me I think, plus its cold, so maybe I'll return.

my to do list:

work out
get the VCR to work
do my action plan
do my taxes

listening to transatlanticism. i wonder what the word really means. i was going to do my speech homework, but alas i have no idea how to work the VCR. Masa hooked up all this crazy stuff to it. blasted. anyways, just laying in bed now.

my head kinda hurts, probably a result of dehydration.

so i saw she's the man. It was great. So funny, my sister and I laughed so much. i would recommend watching it.

so yeah....