dennis rodman and big ron 

nazare beach in portugal 


alba de tormes, spain 


Madrid, Spain 


Lourdes, France 


the effiel tower 


trevoli fountain 


florence, italy 


okay pizza 

my un-so-pleasant side would like to lash out so here goes.

aHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! i really just want to blow something up and make a big kaboom. this is what happens when you stay calm for too long. so i can't stand stupidity and ignorance. sure i may do something stupid sometimes but at least i am not ignorant about it. anyways, i am pissed at USC. i know orientation is important but really, that whole week is just a social affair. so really, ugh!

next i hate fees. i am to blame as well, so gosh sheila! but really, to make changes it doesn't take an hour so what the hell expedia! here's my advice, after being a faithful customer, I am hesitant to use EXPEDIA in the future. so this is what you do, go straight to the source because even though it may cost you a few dollars more, you won't have to deal with the incompetence of outsourcing. what is the use of talking to someone that you can barely understand.

another thing......ahhhhh.....just so pissed...today better be better. i made brownies. but still the baking did not soothe my fury. so i better read something and get lost in the fantasy of it all.

another thing....i resigned from my job. i am relieve. too many emotions and feelings up to come within the next month.....

still have to post my thoughts about my trip, in due time i will do some posting.

blogging usually helps, so you'll be reading many thoughts throughout the day perhaps.

ROARRR ROARR ROAROOORR
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh

:(

I am so tired. I am at work. I really just want to go back to sleep. I will post later if I am not too tired.

soo tired. i have these bags under me eyes, i can't wait to sleep. i feel like the days are soo long cause they are and i wake up so early. plus the sun doesn't set till like after 10 pm. the spanish, they are crazy with their ciestas. okay, time to prepare myself for a LONG bus ride.

listening to james blunt in salamaca, spain.

today was fun, crossed spain from portugal. saw some cathedrals, saw a human heart perserved as well as a left arm, then did some shopping. heading to madrid tomorrow. hopefully, i will behave so my wallet will be happy.

ahhh.....so sleepy. 2 more nights in spain...

oh, i think sophia is losing in fooze ball, again my dad....interesting. hmmm.....something may have just bit me.. how random am I.

I feel pressed with time, that is why i am probably blahhhh...hmmm another thing there are plenty of wandering dogs, so my ears have to be sharp.

okay, time to sign off.

till next time my fans, hahaha.

went to the beach today, that was fun. the waves were pretty big. also got me a patch. one day they will all be exposed. tomorrow it is off to spain.

ciao bello!

so i am in fatima right about now and i am so tired. all i want to do is sleep and that´s after my shower. the flight was so long but not as long as the rest of my family. they are still stuck in memphis. just want to say hello to you all. fatima is small and quaint, much like how i imagine spain will be.

thoughts of you.

hi

two weeks i'll be away
whisked in a foreign land
wondering the streets
staring at some glorious sights
i'll keep you in my thoughts

chasing cars - snow patrol

i am feeling kinda stressed all of the sudden. it's hot in my room. i cooked earlier......random thoughts....got to slow it down....water...ahhhhh..

so let's think out loud. to do....call and get a refill for Rx. Call and see if those lazy asses reimbursed me. check on financial aid. research italy. and swim. perhaps. my knee is acting up. ROAR!!!

i also FEEL FAT. ROARRRRR!!!!!!!! its the complex carbohydrates....why????

omg, i am hurting so bad right now. my head hurts....my quads are burning....i need to sleep. i think i over did it today. and it continues.

from this past weekend.....

the baby turned 21 

and why i am up so late....
Happy June! 

and the best bite....

mini cakes 

isn't she cute? 

life seems so surreal sometimes. i just looked at my bros fotolog and he posted a pic of the medical center he works at. so strange to think he's living a life off in houston. but i guess that's what happens when we get older. we move on and have lives of our own. it's kinda scary. i guess i am still holding onto home. at times, i think i can just get up and move away. but i think that is just a fantacized thought. maybe one day. but i like being close to the womb. have i become too comfortable with life, i think to myself? yes, no.....hmmmmm.....

even deep thoughts, onto sometime garlic-eeee. I made some delicious garlic rice and now I am radiating in the glorious scent. it's lovely. yet so ...ummm.....yes....HAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH...heheheheh.

listening to some counting crows.....

so this is how i spent my saturday, at the park enjoying some deep fried goods. There's Sophia getting it down with the turkey.

sophia with some turkey goodness 

and now for some deep fried turkey.

deep fried turkey, yum! 


with sophia and lysette 


2 


the babies 

Here's a link to more pictures of the Turkey Fest

today, my sister vacummed my car and her van. now our interiors are clean. see the pic. she can totally fit in my trunk.


sophia vacumming my trunk 

Y?

you're pretty awesome!

lately, i have been tired. why? hmmm.....this week that all changes. i am going to take control. work out have been lacking. so i need to take it up a notch. my usually daily workouts minus weekends have been slashed. cause i'd rather take an afternoon nap. so swimming and running. no more excuses. i will start by precoring for 30 minus followed by abs. that should give me a good start this week. plus point, i weighed myself this morning and dropped 4-5 lbs. weight...so insignificant.

anyways, need to get my cardiovascular system pumping like it use to especially since i'll be traveling soon.

yesterday, we celebrated mother's day. my mom loved her gift...what can i say i have a knack for these things. we ate at red lobster.....it was ehh....probably won't go there anymore though cause the food made me hella tired. i passed out for 2 plus hours. and it was so hard to get up.

after dinner, i met up with cindy, it was good to catch up and see a familiar face. while at bin bin, also ran into debbie and jimmy. I haven't seen jimmy in so long and debbie since val's wedding. it was nice to see them. funny thing too, i was like i never see anyone when i go back home. and then BAM. It was a pleasant surprise. maybe i'll see more people today. probably not though.

what to do.....workout, shop...head back to irvine. i am going to take father shoe shopping i think. yesterday we went and i scored some shoes it was great. i got a pair of sneakers and loafers. i really don't need them, but i do. haha. i am going to play with them in a little while. HAHAHAHA.

off i go to be unLAZY. yes, you heard me.....UNLAZY.

At Mai Tai celebrating Marcela's Birthday 


jen and bill 


she's gonna love this :P 

Thanks Jen for driving. You're super! Here's the link to the pics from Mai Tai

We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like a someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same

We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Hey, look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end

Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down

Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same

listening to aqualung

too many cookies....too much water.....y?

ohhhh.....well, it's not so bad now. it's been two hours so i think the cookies are all digested. ohh so tired. trying to finish my homework for class. all this busy work. total BOO!

i rinsed with some salt and lukewarm water. it's one of those mommy tales. works pretty well cause my throat was killing me all day today. that's why i been drinking so much water.

oh yeah, so i was working out this morning and omg, i was literally dying on the elliptical. i was aching. so i had to bike it. which wasn't so bad. think i am going to pick up playinig tennis again. i might be kinda rusty thought. but probably hit the courts sometime this week. can't wait to hit those powerhouse aces.

oh yeah....so i haven't grocery shopped in so long. i really need to buy some milk so i can make those chessy corn muffins. also, i cooked today, cause i had time. i made hash brown, and do they take forever to crisp.

all these random thoughts, that's me. work wasn't so bad, it was productive.

I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
and I've been secretly falling apart
I see
To me you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me but you just
can't see. You turn every head but you don't
see me.

i am such a nice sister. why? let me tell you! I washed my baby sis's down blanket. it's so huge. and I am air DRYING it in my room. so it's like all downy. YOU HEAR' lil girl.

one other thing. cheese and chocolate. bad combo. at least in the case I was suffering through earlier.

okay, going to finalize my grand speech. i am tired of rehearsing it.

it's monday, a most interesting monday. it wasn't a casual monday. even though I went to work, i also went to Disneyland California Adventure. IT WAS FUN! I love the pics, they are too funny. i am pretty tired now, and better chop chop. For tomorrow is another day. today was fun, thanks guys!!!

so i been in arcadia, and yes..... anyways, i was about to blog, my mommy came in and said i have too many clothes and her HAIR distracted me from my happy thoughts. see i just dyed her hair and it was a tad bit MESSY and i just know that when she comes from washing all that DYE off she will be like.."AHHHH...SHEILA....what did you do.....there are all these BLACK marks." then she continues to complain....."Ainako....para sira oula na ako" So yeah, it's all killer black and I spiked it like dino style, it's awesome and I should totally take a picture.

so looks like no disney today, which is good cause i am tired and lazy. my ass really doesn't want to go anywhere. might go sometime this week, anyone interested, i got an extra ticket.

ohh....i really should get back to work that way i can play or sleep. i'll be BACK!

pretty bored. all i did yesterday was sleep. it was one nap after the other. i could do nothing but sleep. i was pretty close to being glued onto my bed. i would like to do the same thing today, but i will probably get dragged out. oh but my ass hurts so. CRAMPS!!!!! oh why me. i want to lay on my tummy, but it is hard to type that way. i really need to do some really work, but my body says NO! Maybe next weekend, i will be more productive. I am going to try to attempt to finish my speech. it shouldn't be so bad. That way when i get back to irvine I can just print it out and practice to my heart's content. And do all my bills and desk work.

let's see. i had many opportunities to think while laying here in my bed. Oh why me...why this horrible pain in the gut....noooooo.....blasted. that must mean it's nap time. why eve.....why?

i wonder....do I complain a lot? I don't want to be one of those annoying complainers that always complain. cause i know they can be annoying.

So i was planning a second vacation to Asia, but i don't know if I should. hmmmmmmm??? I already am going to Europe in June, so hmmmm.....was thinking maybe Hawaii in august, but then the ticket i have goes all the way to Asia, so it would be a waste if I didn't swing all the way. maybe i will stop over in hawaii for some days, but that might be to much $$$...so maybe not.....

okay, i better do something productive, like nap.

it all makes sense now.

awake so early. how crappy. it's saturday too. total boo. so this is why I am up so early, it's cause I drank so many pots of tea last night. and this morning I just have to go pee all the time. it woke me up, and I am at home so when my mom wakes up she comes into see if i am awake too. i think she made juice this morning, but i am not sure cause i didn't hear any grinding.

so plans for today, feeling kinda bummed and lazy. really too lazy to go out and be merry. too lazy to go to the happiest place in the world. but maybe. maybe my mood will pick up in a couple.

i should work on my speech but i am not in the mood. i really just want to mope around all day. i want to sleep, i am tired. maybe i will eat something and then nap till lunch time.

so sleepy, but can't wuite sleep. so exhausted, i haven't a clue why. all this typing is making me tired. ZZZZzzzzzZZZZZzzzzzz

i am so tired!!! I think i am getting sick. I been coughing, and its dry, i hate it. i been drinking lots of water, but still no help. So here's my day for ya.

I woke up went to work. was going to donate but the people weren't ready. couldn't donate later on in the day so it didn't happen. I will do it next week then, or at least try to. sat in traffic. it was killer, even though i was a passenger. went to a family party. i was so tired, i had to put on my shades so i could hide my tiredness. now i am sleepy. so goodnight.

gotta get some rest, i am so tired. i baked. haven't for a while. i finally tried this new thing, that i knew wouldn't turn out. i guess i should have tested it out first. i needed a shaper. so it didn't turn out like i planned. i made due. i just have no idea how to transport these babies.

tomorrow i am suppose to donate, we'll see if it is in the cards for me. bedtime. what a random blog.

i was just thinking....nevermind. bedtime.

perfect time of day

Everybody wants to be loved
every once in a while
we all need someone to hold on to
just like a helpless child
yeah
can you whisper in my ear
let me know it's alright
it's been a long time coming
down this road
and now i know
what i've been waiting for
and like a lonley highway
i'm trying to get home
ooo loves been a long time coming
you can look for a lifetime
you can love for a day
you can think you got everything but
everything is nothing when you throw it away
yeah

...sigh....

nara.....e.s. posthumus

silence.....

i am almost done with my loaf.....ohhh....why....i feel all round like a rollie pollie. carbs, what a killer. been hungry these days, makes up for my lack of hunger. but alas.....think i'll get me some truffles, i want something sweet now.

so may is almost here. time is flying by. this blog seems like it will end up scattered. so i stumbled upon some good news today, which made my day. tomorrow is another day...bagel day for that matter.

plan for this evening. shower cause i worked out, gosh it felt so good, i love taking a breathe of air after working out. it's a grand feeling. then an attempt to research and write up an outline.

Anathello 


Format plus Anathello 


kinda blurry but do you see it? yes, i am talking to you.  

so yesterday, I went to a concert at The Glass House to go see the Format. There were some other cool bands there too. Above I posted some pics and here is a link to some more, CLICK HERE

In a couple of hours, i'll be on a plane to vegas.

This past week, a saw a fair amount of movies. Lucky Number Slevin was pretty good. The Benchwarmers was okay, there's this one pretty funny scene aside from the others.

Next week, I gotta start working on my speech, BOOOO!!!!!! I need a topic. hmmmm....

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

eridt
yepels
pnayhup
focdunse
sexduahet
divitnecad

it's sunday morning, 20 to 9. I hadn't planned on waking till like 10, but alas, my biological clock or my UTS told to wake up, so here I am. My headaches, especially around my occipital lobe, which is now trancending down my neck and hitting my spinal cord. So now I can't sleep. BLASTED. My 8 hours plus has been shot. I told my mom about my pressing migranes. Usually they stay for a week and go away. She told me to get an MRI done. I am still shopping for a doctor. I have one in Arcadia, but that is so far. Plus, he is kinda hard to understand. The one I have right now is too drug happy if you know what I mean. So if you know a good doctor in the OC, let me know.

Today, my schedule has opened up. I am going to work, maybe lay out if time allows. Maybe even go to the mall. I need to pick up a wireless bra cause apparently, I have some called contochrondrotis, which is basically my ribs being irritated by the wire on my support. What's up with that? So hopefully, I get one so I can breathe properly, and not have a weird left pain.

Yesterday......was a fun day. I woke up and read some. Had dim sum with my family. Afterwards, my mom made plans for me to take out my relatives. That was unexpected. But since I was there already, I figure, why not. So my sister and I ended up taking them Victoria Gardens and Ontario Mllls. My cousin and his wife are visiting from the PI. They have 3 children. I shouldn't have a favorite, but I do. They have 2 girls and a boy. The older one is quite and more timid. The sandwich is the social butterfly. And the youngest is both shy and talkative. They are so cute, but not as cute as before. I saw them about two years ago and they were super cute. They are still cute though. So to my point. It was fun playing with the kids today. But also very exhausting. so I have a new cuteness meter. They are still cute even at 5.

Victoria Gardens was pretty nice, it's like an oldtown pasedena in the middle of nowhere. It's like a set in a movie. I was pretty impressed. Ontario Mills is ontario mills. I bought some shoes cause my sister did. I really don't need them, but oh well. They will replace my all stars I suppose.

So back to the kids. Shyena is so cute. She was attached to my hip most of the time. I hadn't realize how hard it was to have a kid walking in front of you. I was totally working the inner thighs. I learned something today, almost felt like Holden. Children are so innocent, they haven't a care for the world. They don't care what other people thing, and they are just carefree souls. A free spirit. We should never let the inner child in ourselves go.

feeling better. in fact, i am feeling like a vampire. i am wearing my retainers and they feel weird. i can feel my sharp canines.

Lately, I been having some pretty bad migranes. They are the worst because when they come, they like to stay for a little while. Maybe, just maybe me hitting my head twice within a two week span aggrevated it. So lesson is I have to be more careful. This week I have been totally off. If this keeps up, I am totally going to get interventioned. And well, that just doesn't sound pleasant.

I was thinking that maybe I should fill up those persriptions. But medication is bad for you. That is why I hesitate, plus I can only have so many nasal sprays. So that makes me think that I need to find a new doctor that isn't so drug happy. She really loves to use up her perscription pads.

Tonight, I am probably not going to be productive, but I will try. Tomorrow is friday, I can't wait. Because I don't have to work this weekend. Which is great, even though I didn't last week. I might pop in though, cause I don't want to work next weekend, but who knows we might catch up during the week.

So as I type, my head is pounding, is it the light, the smell, the sounds, what is it, ROARRRR.......sleep I shall, better yet, I will just shower it will relax me I think, plus its cold, so maybe I'll return.

my to do list:

work out
get the VCR to work
do my action plan
do my taxes

listening to transatlanticism. i wonder what the word really means. i was going to do my speech homework, but alas i have no idea how to work the VCR. Masa hooked up all this crazy stuff to it. blasted. anyways, just laying in bed now.

my head kinda hurts, probably a result of dehydration.

so i saw she's the man. It was great. So funny, my sister and I laughed so much. i would recommend watching it.

so yeah....

I HURT!!!! I am in absolute PAIN. Help me.

1. my head hurts. it POUNDS!!!!
2. my necks aches.
3. my wings hurts.
4. my left oblique hurts like no other. it HURTS so much. SAVE me.
5. I just want to crack every bone to relieve some air pressure.
6. My knee hurts too.
7. I have the urge to vomit.
8. I must be sick.

I had my speech today. It could have been better. Nice to get it out of the way. While in class, this car did a hit and run on my unattended parked car. So there's this black scratch on my rear bummer. When I was walking to my car, I was like, what is it. The sucker that hit me did not leave me a note. But someone did. A good samaritan left me a note of what happened with the license plate, car make and color. I was like, wow! There are good people out there. It's true what they say treat others as you would treat yourselves. So I can get my bummer fixed. yuppie. Thank you guardian angel!!! you are the BEST!!!!


I have an interview to prepare for so that's what i'll be doing tonight, perhaps. probably though. last night, i got a lot of rest, but still, i feel like crap. so tonight, i am going to clean, maybe, probably not.

i don't want to work this weekend again. i am spent from spending all my time in lab. i want to watch she's the man. so sue me. any takers. probably will just get it ripped though. heeeheee.

been meaning to watch zoolander cause i just need something to laugh at and be merry and eat my popcorn, so maybe tonight, probably not thought.

must get over these aches and pains. the tylenol with codeine isn't helping. i am going to see what else I have that is stronger. for some of them i forget what it is for. bobooo...

sorry for all this complaining, next entry will be better. promise.

so tired! even though, i had a day off today, it was no day off. work up early, like around 8 and then did my morning of doing nothing till 8:30....then showered and headed to dr. appt #1. after which i headed back to arcadia to dr appt#2. in between i was able to go to REI and return something. then headed to sierra madre. there i got some good tips and almost got a somewhat prospective job offer. but sadly, at the same time my car or the wind beat me up. so check this out....i was getting into my car, when all of a sudden out of nowhere my head bounces from one door to the other. i was like, what the hell just happened. it totally dumb founded. then i was like, OUch! So then i was like, hmmmm.....and had ice on my head on and off the whole day. it still rattles a bit. hope it doesn't bruise, but it's already red.

So i have lunch with my sister and mom. that was nice. we had japanese food and got complementary desserts. after that, it was busy busy busy. dropped my sister off at the doctor's. went to invest a CD. getting a good rate. ask me if you're interested. picked momma and sis, and went to the JnJ store. then to Costco, and finally home. chilled with my family, and then ran errand with my sister. it was so funny watching her run. HAHAHA. it was showering lightly.

headed back to irvine and here i am now. gosh, my head hurts. POO!

feeling proud of myself. i finished my speech, and i paid my bills. almost. now just need to get those taxes done.

it's sunday afternoon and I am here at working, slaving away... alas....I have about 8 cycles to run on the BIER before I can go home. I hope it runs smoothly, otherwise I will be here until I run out of samples.

Just took a cereal break, that's why I am here, blogging to you. I figure I better eat something or else I'll be cranky to myself. Yesterday, I only brought an orange, thinking I wouldn't be here that long. But I was and I was dying. I suppose I shed some unwanted fat or wanted muscle.

I brought in the cd player to keep my company and it helps. I'm glad I don't have work tomorrow, but really it was no long weekend for me cause I was here all weekend long. it wasn't so bad, but definitely could have been doing better things. I hope the week will go smoothly. I don't plan on working next weekend. I am going to chill instead. that is away from here.

The cereal made me full and I am ready to tackle those cycles. Yes.....

oh yeah, before work, I treated myself to the mall. I didn't expect to buy anything big, but I ended up getting my mom a watch, I hope she likes it. It's for Mother's Day. I know, I am way early. Think I might give it to her tomorrow. I wonder if she'll like it. It's quite nice. I guess I'll see.

Also, since, I'll be getting my teeth cleaning tomorrow, I love those! I might grab a bit to each with my mom and sister. wonder where.....

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

random thought just popped to mind. i'm feeling like a cynic (did I spell that right? oh well) lately. why is that, hmmm? whatevers. so cynic sorta rhythms with syndicate.....like in cowboy beebop. and then i was like, i like wating movies and tv shows cause it's like taking a break from my thought. i been thinking more than watching. it's fun to just absorb yourself into reality tv or whatever. it tells my brain/thoughts breathe. tonight i am going to watch what i like about you cause its the season finale. this weekend my goal is to get things done. might do the eating a cafe or something. well see. haven't done that in a while. its fun, i think.

went swimming today and saw my old housemate. nice to see a familiar face. so yeah....(thinking....) processing thoughts. thoughts are interesting, it is what makes us unique. isn't interesting how you can see a person thinking, like the wheels turning....and you wonder what is going on in their mind. i like the mystery or maybe I am naive, but oh so curious.

want a doughnut all of a sudden. better eat.. salad or popcorn.....i'll go with the salad, it's about dinner time.

turkey...who knew... my dad would be proud.

With understanding comes forgiveness and peace of mind follows.

I usually don't like to post things like this cause its a given if you know me.


Your words they make just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
And the words just disappear
Cuz it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said
So i speak to you in riddles
Cuz my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
Cuz i can't take anymore of this
I wanna come apart
And did myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart
Cuz it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said
I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for intention
That i always try to hide
Cuz i talk to you like children
Though i don't know how i feel
But i know i'll do the right thing
If the right thing is in fear
Cuz its always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said

Anyways, I am trying to write/prepare my speech, but I have this insane whatever of nonsense.....i think there's too much on my mind, so i can't concentrate on thinking up a catchy intro led alone a theme. whatevers......i just hope some brilliance comes my way soon so I can process away. I decided to blog as a way to get the ball rolling, but perhaps that was not the best idea. been feeling so scattered brained lately. there are so many other things I want to do rather than write this extemperoraneous speech.

I am sitting in my lovely one person chair centralized in my room. I have all this cluster and it is driving me crazy. i need to get so many things outta the way. like I need to finally get going and do my taxes. that's like money wasting away. I ain't going to collect interest on it if I don't file.

Come to realize this might be a long blog. so beware. Been thinking a lot lately, about and here's a tangent. i just got a phone call and here's to sum....

My topic is on slavery in the modern world. You're probably thinking...slavery....wasn't that emancipated? Well, sure it was, but now slavery has taken a new form. As a result of globalization, it has reached new heights. There is no immediate solution to this problem...maybe there never will...but for now. we can expose ourselves to the issue and over time...just maybe....things will change....a little bit can go a long way.....

so yeah, that' helps.....i love these blogger things.

another thing.....i have this journal....that keeps me sane too....

collide - howie day

sins have prices. i am paying them now. my back aches. ohhh.....i hate these body aches.

so i speak to you in riddles.....


anyways, i was just talking to my old roommate and i realize as i sit in my room at 64 degrees, it's like being in chicago. so why am i still cold at work. it's like i am a penguin.....totally.

How, Where, When?

How, and When? When and Where? How and Where? And where will we touch again....How, When and When will will touch again.....How and where?

These simples words make up a song.....amazing.

So just lyrics popped into my head at work yesterday.....thought i'd shared them. can you guess where it's from?

I'm not the sort of person
Who falls
In and quickly out of love
But to you I gave my affection
Right from the start

begin........

so my head hurts.....i dunno why.....probably water there lack off. it is cold too....i am going to the gym soon, so i hope my head clears. it rained a little this morning. my backs aches....i hate is when i sleep on one side too long and not rotate.

speech went well.....and doughnuts were decent. think i'll bring the rest to work.....or eat them all cause i am a fatty. haha.....

so yeah.....don't you hate it when you can't remember something. maybe that is the source of my headache. yesterday my house mate and I have been having meaningful convo...really is interesting to hear another perspective of the aspects of life and the future. kinda like puts you in check of where you really are in life. also, spoke with a friend of mine that I haven't really talked to in ages. it was nice. that's another thing i am going to add in this lenting season.....talk and meet up with friends that I haven't talked to in ages.

a year or two ago, i have been in limbo....of recent, okay like even further back....i have found direction in life and know where i want to go and what i want to do.....its great to have that touch of peace. it's a touch cause i haven't acquired it yet, but am working on it.

so yeah....there is one other thing that is bothering me and i really should face it head on, but maybe i just want to absorb the now.......

might go to buffalo in april. it'll be nice, might take a day off, we'll see....

okay, i better get ready to start my day.....hope it is relaxing and not so jumble. oh yeah another thing.....background leads to futures.....life is all about progression, is it not?