i am so bored. i watched two movies today. i am sleepy now, maybe it is time for me to rest my eyes. i didn't do much today. i woke up earlier than expected. twice my mother's morning shower has woken me up. booo! i tried to get out of the house, but alas, i only worked out and went to church. oh yeah CVS twice to get lady fingers with sophia after church. i am kinda hungry, but i already brushed. thirsty, but been drinking too much tea lately. It stains your teeth ya know.

okay, let me just post some pics.

IDEA...ding, here's a tribute to 2006.....

My break is nearing its end. boo hoo hoo. So some realization and updates about my life. Now that i am bad in school life is different. First of all I live at home now. After being away for 7 years, it was definitely a re-adjustment living at home again. Of course, things are different now. I am much older, but not that much.

I have gotten use to the living adjustment. The price of freedom isn't cheap. I have to deal with my annoying parents, but hey, they feed and house me so I shouldn't complain all that much. It is an expensive price though. They don't bother me as much and leave me alone to study. They always make me dinner so that save me time and money. My dad makes me a home cook meal everyday, so that's pretty spoiling, plus cause I don't like take out.

I escape from my house to maintain my sanity and it has been working out for me. I am moving out of my house and into the guest house. So that will make things better because I will have more privacy and a pretty sweet deal. Now my friends can come visit me! Yes, Lysette crash is you need to cause that drive is a killer. I'll be able to bake again because the stove in there works. I have a bedroom, though that closet is tiny, a bathroom, kitchen and living room. I hope Blaise cleans up the patio before he leaves.

New year's is coming up and I haven't got any resolutions. Oh well. So this is going to be a long blog I realize. Going on, I spend Christmas at Vegas.

The adventure started off at Mammoth where I snowboard and had some delicious breading at Eric Schat's. We had some great snow. Benedict even dabbled to try the sport. We had a great time. I did so many runs, it helped that I was just playing in the green circles for I was watching benedict and at the same time it benefited me. What a symbiotic relationship. Yes, I know....you are thinking, NERD. and I said. bleh!

Sophia wasn't doing well at all during the whole trip; she was pucking and pooing left and right. I wasn't too pleasant for her, and she couldn't eat anything. She had the STOMACH FLU. Poor Sophia, what didn't help was the lack of hot water, so she couldn't readily clean her nasty poooing butthole. I felt bad for her. We had to boil water the provincial way. What was also annoying was how the lack of hot water elevated to the annoyance of the family knocking at me for it. Apparently, the water heater was broken and wasn't fix during our stay up there, so we had ice cold freezing water that was nearly impossible to function with. But alas, I hung in there like a survivor and Blaise even shower in it. It wasn't going to kill me. But others though otherwise. But hey, my motto is, I ain't going to let that ruin my trip cause I see it as things could be worst off. But I hear ya Sophia, you were already worst off.

We ventured off to Vegas, the drive there took a toll on Sophia. Read my brother's blog about it. He details it well. Upon our arrivial at Vegas, we stayed at the Tuscany Resort and Casino. It is not your high rise hotel. I like it there better, and would stay there again. Less smoky. Sophia's condition didn't get any better so we took her to the ER and they hooked her up to an IV. The next day we went to a RAIN concert. He's a korean R&B pop star. The show was fun, I like watching dancing and that sort of stuff. Of course, I couldn't understand what he was saying, but I would interpret sometimes. Some of which I found odd and disturbing, but then realize that it had the same idea with hoes in american.

When I came back, I went to Disneyland. That was fun. So here are more slideshow postings of it. Oh yeah, I updated my pictures too. Hopefully, I update my external today and work out. My goals for today.

My Disney adventure. There were so many people there. It was still fun though. They deck the halls during the holidays, with all the jazz of lights and all. Here's a mini slideshow from my day at disneyland.

I know this is kinda early, but hey better than late, eh? Since I won't have computer access, I am posting it now. Happy Birthday Frank!!! And now the play by play. The birthday cake pre lighting.

And now it's all lite up, uh huh huh! Pretty, huh?

Chomp Chomp!!! Yam Yam!!! I hope you had a fun celebration! It's rolling and you are loving it, I bet. Just how you like it, with extensions. It must be your dream come true, hehehe.

Let me be FRANK, Happy Birthday!!!!!

taking 20, so it's my last final and i am really tired and spent. i have been studying since saturday and i am just so sick of chemistry / aids / medicinal chemistry. i hope the test is easily cause i am so tired to studying. i can't wait to be bored, it's going to be grand. i been working hard since august, so i feel it's a well deserved break. wish me luck tomorrow. i should be a free woman no later than 10AM. YUPPIE. i just need to keep it up and score another A. I can do it!!!!! GO ME!

the week has finally come. The dreaded finals week is here. i hope i gets As on all my exams. that will make my christmas. so i just need to keep up my end and study. i really can't wait till this week is done with. it's going to be GREAT after! relaxation and hanging out with friends. my first winter break where i feel like i truly deserve this break. i wish it was longer though, but we can't have it our way all the time.

As relaxation in preparation for my finals week, I went out to old town yesterday and had dinner at Mi Piace. I've never been there before so it was nice to try something new. We had started of with some calamari and parmeasean bread. Both were quite tasteful. And the entrees were tastely as well as the desserts. It was nice to have a lovely dinner. the best way to start of my week of horror. i am sure it won't be so bad. Thanks for dinner! It was delightful! :)

Now it begins, the fantastic world of Radiology.

I can't wait to go to Disneyland!!!!!!
Commentator: "So Sheila, now that you've survive your first trimester of school, what are you going to do?"
Sheila: "I'm going to DISNEYLAND!!!"

the week has finally come. The dreaded finals week is here. i hope i gets As on all my exams. that will make my christmas. so i just need to keep up my end and study. i really can't wait till this week is done with. it's going to be GREAT after! relaxation and hanging out with friends. my first winter break where i feel like i truly deserve this break. i wish it was longer though, but we can't have it our way all the time.

As relaxation in preparation for my finals week, I went out to old town yesterday and had dinner at Mi Piace. I've never been there before so it was nice to try something new. We had started of with some calamari and parmeasean bread. Both were quite tasteful. And the entrees were tastely as well as the desserts. It was nice to have a lovely dinner. the best way to start of my week of horror. i am sure it won't be so bad. Thanks for dinner! It was delightful! :)

Now it begins, the fantastic world of Radiology.

I can't wait to go to Disneyland!!!!!!
Commentator: "So Sheila, now that you've survive your first trimester of school, what are you going to do?"
Sheila: "I'm going to DISNEYLAND!!!"

i am cold and hungry. but i don't know what to eat. it's kinda late and cold, maybe i should just go to sleep. i have two quizzes tomorrow. my last day of instruction. i can 't wait. i feel like i been in school so long. I am just so glad it's almost time for winter break. next week are finals plus one day. i really can't wait to chill and take care of all the odds and ends. it's going to be great and productive. i am sleepy. that's what happens when i have to study for a quiz or two. tomorrow is an early day. so i am going to try and sleep early tonight. i better pack a lunch, i have a longer than usual friday. maybe i can make an bagelwich with egg. yum...i can't wait. i better pack snacks too, to keep my glucose blood level happy. okay, time to read about the second molar and primary dentition.

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the holidays are here! and that means holiday cookies. last year i whipped up these goodies. this year i don't have a stove. what does that mean? probably won't be making as much, but i'll try. i am going to make, perhaps, the button cookies, the hazelnut shortbread, and hmmmm....maybe russian tea cake. of course, blondies and the zoombies are favorites. maybe even some thumb prints. i'll have to see with what time allots me. but for now, it's porfolios and such. yummm....cupcakes, better yet, CAKE. off to workout and make crepes. Happy Thanksgiving!!!!! What are you thankful for?

remember that surprise i was telling you about. well here's are you hints. the one i gave you were. YAHOO! what do you use it for? what per say account is it linked to?

hint 2: it is related to this picture i posted.

It's that time again. christmas is coming and thanksgiving is just around the corner. tis the season for gifts and giving.

this year...i don't know what i want , i just know i have a lot to be thankful for. for the past few years, i haven't really yearned for anything.

I am fairly satisfied with life. but there is something that i perhaps subconciously year for. what that may be, i don't know or do it. see it's subconcious, so that be the answer to that. I have a skewed perception about christmas. i don't really dwell too much into it. i really just enjoy being in the holiday spirit, and i love the days off.

I love making wishes, but in the end i am just grateful for what i am blessed with. The past few birthdays i've forgotten about the whole birthday wish. i think it's because i was truly satisfied with life. I did a 180 on my life, so we'll see when next year comes around how hopeful i am . nonetheless.......i will end here. for the whole picture blur.

so i wanted to get away from studying, so i moved my blog over to the new version and i started using the calendar feature on goggle.

i have this problem. whenever i have exams, i am ant-sy and don't want to study. but i should. ugghh....bleh. so i need me a massage. i am hurting. is it the new top i put on my bed, or is it the lack of need i say more. hmmmm....nonetheless. sound like a massage is in order. could it be my pillow or the lack of water. i really just want the weekend to come. i need it and its only monday. what does that say. i guess its cause next week there are three days of school. then it's 2 days off. i will sleep and study. that's the plan. i have like so much writting to do.

i am just glad i have finished the reading for 2 of my thousand class. ahhh...i am so random, i miss going up north and just getting away for a week or so. i am suppose to go to mammoth, perhaps that will be relaxing, but what i really want to do is take a mini retreat from familiar surroundings and just sleep all day long and stretch and watch tv, whine and be a baby.

okay, time is up. i am going to study, alas..

closing with....these are the days of our lives, we should enjoy them to the fullest. there is this song that all of a sudden popped in my mind....it goes....i had a lover, who loved me.....blaahhh..blahhh....right from the start and to you ......can't remember the rest of the words.. who sings it?

my stomach hurts. my legs ache. BOO! I've taken 3 advils, and a tylenol. BOO. ohh, pain, go away, and don't come back another day. trying to do my study questions, watch tv, pain, and do my lab. that is the plan for the evening. wonder if in a gracey practice session. hmmmm...tired. we'll see, the night is still young. going to try get to school at 8:30, maybe catch a presession. don't think they'll be a quiz in perio tomorrow. but who knows. okay, study time. i need something soothing for my belly, hmmm......i know, yea you guesses it. off i go.

i was craving chocolate, particularly a twix bar, but we didn't habe any at home. to make due, i ate 2 kit kats and a reeses. i overdid it and now i feel sick. slight head pain on the right temporal. booo. time to study. so tired though. oh well. hauling through!

i hate living at home. i am constantly angry. i need to move out. it is making my back freaking tense and giving me agina.

gummi bears. i need to work out today. maybe, hahaha. round and round I go. I was studying, and all of a sudden, I wanted french fries. will i curb my hunger for it tomorrow. mostly, NO. Booo...what to do this weekend. It's a good break. I think I am going to get those profolios out of the way, YES! I get out early Friday, so i hope to be productive. Also, I am excited cause I am going to the mission farmer's market, and get me some garlic potatoes, I can't wait!!!!! Anybody want to come with me? Yum yum!

:(

DRAINED!!!!!! i am so tired of everything right now. it's never ending and i feel like i am drowning. there's always so much to do and not enough time to do it all. i feel like i am falling behind. today is such a sad depressing day. i just want to crawl under a rock and hide. or run away. i need to climb one of those big mountains and just scream.

i had a perio exam today and it was so tricky. i hate tricky questions. it's like it's IT or NOT. who cares about the frills. I mean really. ROAR!!!!!!!! one question had like 20 subquestions. that's not cool. I am pissed off! AHHHHHHH!!!!!! and now i have yet another exam to study for and that's going to be tricky too. ROARRRR!!!! stop creating these wrinkles. they are NOT flattering. i am going to destress. i am going to take my typhadont apart. hope it doesn't stress me out. hahaha....i should do it after i study. oh well. let's test my knowledge.

i wanna go to mammoth, or lake tahoe. somewhere fun. someone save me and take me to a far away land, where i can vast in the snow and drink hot cocoa.

i am awake again from my nap and behind schedule. so i better brush up, it's so me. when i have exams i just want to sleep. when i have nothing, i am wired for hours. alas, it's just one of those uncontrollable things. can't wait till friday. then i can relax and start studying for radiology. mark my words, i will conquer you.

is it the grape juice, or is it me. i'd like to think it's the grape juice. or was it the beans from my dinner. that quickly though. that's one fast action going on the GI tract.

i've done it again. i just ate and now i am all tired. ready for a nap. i am laying slightly in bed. but i need to study. my side ache though, so is it fatness setting in or is it just aches and pain. let's hope for the 2nd. i think i need a massage. ouchie!

maybe it's the cold weather too setting in with the rain and all. i guess a little cushion would help. no......must think disneyland.

i am kinda sad. i am getting old. i've hit the quart-life. then i think, have i accomplished what i wanted to? then i think, i should just live it up and not think about it. but that's impossible. oh well, perhaps, i am in my minute of solitude. okay, it's over, time to be happy again. maybe it's cause i have to wake up earlier tomorrow. or maybe it is something else. i probably just need to buy myself something pretty to band aid it. okay, more on these thoughts later on. time to sleep, have an early tomorrow. too bad i have clinic, hope it is productive.

i am pretty exhausted and just really tired of studying. but why can't i stop looking over my notes. one last run through, and another round tomorrow. gosh, i am hungry. i must resist. well, maybe some hot water. that might make me sleepy though. i am such a baby sometimes.

oh i hope i ace my exams tomorrow. the never ending cycle. i can't wait until winter break, better yet, no, i was going to say thanksgiving, but then i realized that i will probably be studying.

oh yeah, so to relieve stress, i try to take a day off and just relax. blah....i am going to chill, ROAR, no i must study.....what is it with my self battles. ROAR! this is why i don't like test. they were made to cause wrinkles and make us age more. because sure you prep for it and over prepare and well, it pays off i guess when you're like, that wasn't so bad.

and what's up with me using the word "LIKE"? it must be cause i am back at home and surrounded by morons. my professor made an anecdote about it in class. he was saying as he was walking around campus, he over heard a girl talking on the phone saying "and he liked called me." He was saying well, he didn't like call you, he did call you. out whole class busted out laughing. i don't think, or at least hope i don't use it like that.

okay, enough blabber and jib-jab.

onward and beyond.

i am cold, and i have this killer headache. please go away so i can study. i am so exhausted. i guess. after tomorrow i can relax again. i am happy about that. just need to get through tonight. then it start again next week. can't wait till wednesday.

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so it's late, i really should go to sleep, but i am just not there yet. soon though, i feel it. i have exams coming up again. it's a never ending ordeal. I am just glad I have gone over all this material. it's a matter of going all over my review preparation. i am quite proud of it. anyways, that is what i will doing tomorrow. Going over some fantastic histology. and then some clinic stuff. oh what fun.

so now that i am living at home, i live another life as i was before. I never really noticed the change until now. I am no longer working. I am back at school. I study all the time with my 8 classes keeping me on my toes. There is always something for me to do and I am never at that point where I have nothing to do. I try to get ahead or at least be on top of things. I think I am doing pretty well. I really need to work on radiology though. i feel like i need to try harder in that class. so next exam, i am going to ACE that sucker.

My dad lately keeps giving me these little speeches and i really just laugh them off. another thing, now that i am back living at home, my parents are setting rules. I mean really, I think i am old enough to make my own decisions. And really, I know what is right and wrong. I am not stupid. I have a lot of common sense and it's like if they don't see that then they really don't understand or know me at all. they alawys harp on other people, when in reality are they really much better?

I am trying to be a better person and not judge cause i see everyone doing it everysay and its sad. Maybe that's why I am so reserved and keep thoughts to myself. I don't want to offend anyone and I don't want to pass judgement on them. Another thing i realize, I never really though I was a push over, but in restrospect, I am. I am going to try and change that.

on another note, the bonfire I threw was successful. so i am happy about that. it's getting cold, I better do try and sleep.

in closing, moving back home has shed some light on how i use to see things and how i see them now. for example, when I was off on my own, what I thought I wanted isn't what I want anymore? So then I think, was it timing or the influences around me? I think its what i am witnessing now, it is shedding new light on what I assume ignored before, but now i see why i questioned it in the begining. So perhaps a gut instinct is always right. or is it? to answer, i think it nothing is ever set in stone. life is all about change and evolving. slowly, the caterpillars becomes the butterfly.

this is going to be a long blog. so bear with me. the past two weeks have been pretty crazy. i been stressed. but now that all ends. at least that specific kind of stress. so i had my probing comp today and i did good. i am glad because i had to put up and work with an unfortunate person. she really was incompetant and didn't come prepared and ready to work. on top of that she didn't manage time wisely and was just really not performing like someone who is suppose to be giving it their all. i will say she got better over time, but still there is a lot of improvement that could be worked on. She really upsets me because i felt like she was using me. and there was absolutely no professionalism on her behalf. She lacks confidence and really just needs to know her stuff. or just fake it until you make it. you gotta show that you know it. or else, you won't get anywhere in life.

in addition, i felt like she put me in many situations that could have been avoided. it is a rule that you don't work without a faculty member present, she insisted that it was okay. putting me in that situation was wrong. because she can screw me over by being a complicated patient. so i felt like i had to do what she wanted or else. so she is very unethical. another thing she doesn't manage her time to get her work done. she claims we did not learn it, but i did, and i was in class and so were you, so did you just not listen or something.

For reals, you better get your act together, and shape up. it's unfair for you to ask me what questions were on the test, it is not fair to everyone else who took the exam where they were suppose to. so whatelse?

she threatened me that if i didn't help her out on her probing, she would be complicated in my exam. that is not right. i really don't know what i should do about her. i have to take the same classes with her for the next two years. i better just keep my mouth shut. maybe she'll get her act together, if not, i am sorry for the next person that has to be her partner.

all i can say is that i am glad, i am done working with her. now i can loose this pulsating vein on my neck. the rest of the week is going to be great. time to do homework and start stuying for exams.

last thing, she was like, can you come early so i can practice? i didn't have class until 1 that day, so i was like, fine i'll meet you at 11. and there was no faculty member present. and she was like, i will go for you if you need me too. she did not and she flaked. F-her. lastly, infection-free environment is the utmost important thing. she was like, we can use the same set up for you. I was like F-no!!!! I don't want your stinky disease ass germs. Hell no am i sitting on that chair that you residued over. you've got some bacterial infection and i don't want any of that. so i told her, NO! you do that and YOU'LL FAIL. I am even skeptical about sitting in the chair she set up.

okay, enough of that. comments?

Thank you!

i can't stand incompetency! i mean get your act together. if you can't perform, then maybe you should try harder. i will not put up with this crap. my time is valuable and if you don't prep, then screw you. i am not going to let your negative aura affect me. if you don't have confidence, then grow some balls.

i am sick, i am tired. i need to do work though, but alas, all i want to do is sleep. poo!

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hello, so 2 down 8 more to go. alas, i have like 2 everyday this week. i am studying again in a wee bit. i just woke up from my nap. okay post and then study away.

A view from Diamond Head. It was a hike. The view was great those. something about blue skies and water and the city. It's spectacular. Wonder when my next venture will be. Nonetheless, i can't wait!

i was bored. or got distracted so to say.

imperfections are what makes perfection.

is it the sweet chili?

AWKKKKK!!!!! I want ice cream, blueberry ice cream, but it's already 9:30PM and i can't have any. I must resist if I want to lose 10 lbs so i can go to disneyland. WUAHHHHH! must fight the temptation. FIGHT! FIGHT ON!!!! poo who who who :(

it's so hard to study sometimes. i am missing something.

it was so nice to just lay by the beach and enjoy life. i miss those days.

i am feeling overwhelmed about the week to come. i have some sort of testing if not two on ever day. goodness. what did i get myself into, i think to myself sometimes. i've grown such an appreciation for everything in a past few weeks. okay back to the books. i can't wait for winter vacation. maybe i should find a seasonal job. what do you think?

the night is still young. this is what i hope to accomplish before my attempt at 8 hours of sleep. i want to turn in my lab report that isn't due until friday. but i really want to get that out of the way. i want to get my notes organized. and i want to read some for my classes.

i bought some bluebeery ice cream. i can't wait to have some tomorrow. i got distracted. i did a number of things in between the some and the blueberry. i am like that, like what? i get distracted and do a task then i go back to my original task. sometimes i am really scattered brained. is that a good thing? anyways, since i pretty much lost my train of blog. i am just going to post a picture to capture sometimes. either how i am feeling, or maybe just to take a vacation by looking at where i've been. maybe i'll even give it an artsy caption.

At the Paradise Cove Luau as we watched the sun start to set. I love this depiction because it just seems so surreal as the sun shines down on various particles of the clouds to give an array of gleam. Watching the sunset, its so romantic. i'm a hopeless romantic if you haven't already noticed. an interesting thing i learned about hawaiian culture is the arrangment of where flowers go. ig i am not mistake if you have flowers on the right side, it means you are single and on the left it means you are not single. that was fascinating. but i guess not so much cause people wear wedding bands on the left hand. why the left and not the right?

yum yum

hurt - johnny cash

before i dive into hours of studying, tonight being teeth and mineralizaion.....i decided to go ahead and blog it up.

so its my 3rd week into school and gosh, i really have a full load. week one wasn't too bad cause i only had a GE class and orientation. Week 2 was like BAM, and now it's third week. i am just glad that i don't have class on friday. i have a pretty set schedule that revolves around a lot of quizzes. one of my classes is quizzed based, so that's pretty interesting. no final, but i hope i do well on these quizzes. anyways, i am pretty happy about what i am doing and i really like the USC environment, being back in school and all. but at the same time i am so drawn to wish that i could do whatever i wanted to. so i tell myself that's okay and i'll get through this and be free again making more money so i can live leisurely.

instead of driving, i have learned to use public transportation, it's actually quite nice to ride the rail cause i get to talk to people i would never talk to. and just in general, i am helping save the environment. i feel like time is just going to fly. there is so much to learn but not enough time in the day to learn it all or do what i want to. that's why i love the weekends. because i can study without going to class and still go out and have breakfast, lunch, or dinner.

if you haven't noticed already, this is going to be a very long BLOG. so this weekend was fun, i got to do so much and i got so much studying done. I went kayaking on Back Bay, then had dinner at the Orange County Mining Company. I pretty much just studied on sunday. And the same thing on monday, and ended the labor day weekend with some yummy carne asada and carnitas tacos. It was yummy.

So as i am riding home from school, i do a lot of thinking. about life, where i am, where i want to be. the people in life. reflecting on conversations i have, and so on. It's always somewhat melancholy cause there's something missing.
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this is an action shot. it was so fun driving up to north shore. and this was one of our stopping point. you can kayak here but we didn't get a chance to. next time.

chasing cars- snow patrolI like yellow flowers, particularly roses, a nice white peach color is pretty too.
this is from a while back from its from the death cab concert. i am behind on uploading pictures. maybe by christmas. or soon. haha

That's me in the beautiful island of Oahu. This is as I start out on a plus 5 mile walk to explore some place to eat.
This is a place where I had some donuts from hawaii. you know me and donuts. it was plus the hole.
these coconuts are huge.
climbing a big green mountain.
Paradise Cove Luau.

i am so tired. i have a most active 2 weeks. since resigning my job, i have been busier than ever. i been on the road a lot too, especially this past week, driving in a triangle. so anyways, i am almost done moving. I have but one real piece of furniture to move after tomorrow. and sunday the plan is to clean. i still got a list of things to take care of. alas. and i need to change my address asap.

aside from that here are some quick updates. I went to hawaii. upon my arrival on monday morning getting out of LAX around 6:30AM, i showered and left for my first day of orientation at USC. Ever since then, now being friday, I have driven all around. It's so tiring being on the road. My short commute to work, is nothing but short now. Now that orientation is over, I am excited to see what is too come. I learned CPR today and now I am CPR certified. That's pretty cool.

okay, tomorrow, I will try to post some pictures from HAWAII, but here's a preview.

I feel FAT!

These are my nieces. In the pink is Heather. The little cute one in the coral dress is Hilary. Doesn't she look precious. I picked out the little number she is wearing. That's the sight I saw when I came home. Cute huh? good way to enjoy the evening from a hard day's work.

I am like a _____ of ____. That means I want to be _________. My neck aches. Must have been from the baking or the way I slept. I made butterscotch bars today and chocolate chips cookies. Tomorrow I am going to bring them into work. And if people complain about how it is making them fat, then the hell with them. Those ungrateful piece of _____. Anyways, the tasty they are the more butter I put in them, hahaha. That's the only way to bake the proper way.

something about the word SUPER before an adjective makes me laugh, it just cracks me up. is it the way it is used or the context of the person saying it. or perhaps it's just super?

i am so hungry. all i want to do is EAT.

anyways, i was just thinking....about change, and even though people don't believe change is possible, i think otherwise. to survive, i think change is crucial. so we should all be open minded about change because really it's the wave of the future and it is the only way we can live the way we do.

Conserve, reserve, change.

Be thoughtful and righteous.

i am feeling so heavy right about now. the colossal onion rings are kicking in. WHY? and two servings of tasty chips. WHY? perhaps i should have just gone with the TEXAS donuts. alas, next time I will try not to grease myself out. i just rolled around like a rollie pollie. and usually i love to do that, but i really did feel the rolls. oh no. i feel pretty sick right about now. I wonder if I gave all that food enough time to settle down so I could sleep.

the shows at the fair were good though. The acrobats were something and the clowns were entertaining. we had a grand time.

till next year perhaps, then you hear, you're mine, DONUT!

ohhhh, i am trying to wash all that deep fried stuff with water. alas, now comes the consequences. on another note, my muscle below my scapula are so sore. they are aching. it must be the new arm exercises I did.

sands in nazare. 

hello. i don't know how i am going to survive at home. there is so much yelling. i am so use to peace and quiet. maybe i should look for a place near SC. that way i won't lose my hearing and patience. this will test my sanity. what should i do? i hope they leave me alone. i really hate to be bother. its always, laundry, wash, church.

roarrrrrrr!!!!!!

that's me, in portugal eyeing the wine i suppose. gulp gulp gulp.

I just woke up not too long ago. My back hurts. It is better now though. I wonder if it is the bed I am sleeping on. I am sleeping in my new room. I have yet to move all my stuff and still need to get most of this stuff out of here. My sister will be doing that next week, ya hear, SOPHIA. don't forget the other closet cause I have lots of clothes. I will need both of them. I like this room because I like the white blinds. I think it will aid in my studies. Which reminds me, I need to register today. Blasted 9-5 schedule. I am going to be so busy, I am getting excited though, cause I love learning. Especially learning stuff that I am passionate about.

I am hunger, perhaps, I shall grab someting to eat and continue posting. I wonder if papa made some breakfast?

I'm back!

That's me at the beach way back in june when I had an outing with my cousins. It was a pretty cool day. Back then it wasn't hot enough, now its too HOT!

The sun sets to the east and rises to the west. It would be great to see the sun rise from the west, then set at the east. That would mean stating at the west side of the island then making my way to the east side and then settling there. But we are in the west coast and it sets so easily here. why?

Cause in my head there’s a greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
where they’re far more suited than here

I cannot guess what we'll discover
We turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels
But I know our filthy hands can wash one another’s
And not one speck will remain

I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
If the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

my eyes are dry. why...i am just glad it is cooling down, at least this evening.
anyways.....i've been really annoyed lately. when i got home from sd it was so hot. like killer hot. and i really just can't wait to move out. i cleaned the kitchen today so we'll see how long it stays clean. AND i'll tell you not LONG. cause when i came home expecting to come to my freshly cleaned kitchen, there was a trail of SEAWEED and I was like, ROARRRRRRR!!!!

anyways, i really just want to shoot something right now. maybe i'll sleep cause I feel RAGE coming and well, it is really not worth it. but AHHHHHH!!!!!!

I really just want to hit something or break something. anyways, a lot of things have been annoying and bothering me lately. like work. i really just can't wait to leave that place. i just need to breathe and enjoy my vacation.

Time is seriously standing still. i wish it would fly. tomorrow i have a doctor's appointment, i really don't want to go, but I have to. i will reward myself with sushi or greasy mexican food.

tomorrow is another day, another long day at work. BOOO.....I don't mind working 2nd shift so much, i just HATE how it is not by choice. that really pisses me off. It's like an expectation, so I am on strike and I refuse to work weekends, unless it falls on sunday. I am really bitter right now as you can tell. Whatevers, they can't fire me, I already QUIT. HAHAHAHA.

there isn't enough time in the day for me to do all that I want to do because I like to sleep so much.

Here's my list.
I need to get some stamps.
I need to prep all my school stuff.
I have to update my check book.
I need to start packing.
I need to pay bills.
I need to tell my land lady I am moving out.
I need to go to Jo-ann's to fix my bikini top.
I need to upload my pictures.
I need to back up my computer.
I need to get an External.
I need to get a new labtop.
I need to look into my financial aid.
I need .....
I need .....

Needing you.....

After much effort, I have uploaded my many pictures.

This link will take you to my european vacation 2006

And this link will take you to Ziba's Bash at Sutra

At Sutra 

Venturing at Coronado Island. It's pretty there. You get to cross over this crazy long bridge. This is the place where its in a bunch of those older movies when we were younger.

The sun is setting behind me. At least to the west, we set the midst of what we see as light through yonder window breaks.

This was from a couple of weeks back when I went to go see Matt Wertz in concert down at the epicenter. Had some sushi from sushi deli 2.