as i was writing to my gals, i thought i would share this with the rest of you

"as i munch on sugared walnuts, i write this to thee(s):
so now that i have both hands, this will go much faster. so i am on the verge of having my period and my stomach has expanded to 3 months of pregnancy. or at least that is what i would imagine it too feel like.

why do we have to instill of this pressure and become a mass of water and fluids. for it is a horrible punishment that we must endure because of the occurence at the garden of eden. why then must we feel like a beached whale. for it is not until days that we are able to spout this bottled-up fluid. alas, why me? why us? okay there is my rant for the day."

i am so beyond pisssed right now. serious if you put someone on hold got more than 20 minutes then there is DEFINITELY something wrong. I just really want to hit, kill, stab, something right now. I just wanna scream and ram into something and cause a big bang, or blow something up. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Boy are they going to hear it now, i was just going to let it go, but now my buttons have been pushed!

i can hear so much better now, wow. new goal 13% BF.

goal 15% BF

so i helped skin a cat today. it was one of the more unpleasant thing i have done. the smell wasn't at all pleasant, reminded me of gluteraldehyde, i bet you it was. i am pretty sure of it now. so we'll see what happens thursday.

anyone wanna teach me how to play the piano?


education tip of the day:

bones stop growing in length at about age 25, although they may continue to thicken. so if you are under 25, you can still grow. i have at least an inch or so.

for those of you that know me, you know that i love pachelbel's canon. and today i bought Pachelbel's Greatest Hit: The Ultimate Canon. Right now i am copying it onto my computer, and later i am going to upload it on my mini. if i get the chance to.

so i often ask myself, why? why am i taking this class? i can't stomach dissections, what am i going to do. you just see ill expression coming outta my face. i better not eat anything. oh what a tangle web i weave.

i am sitting here trying to study but i am just so distracted. i am so tired. after having breakfast at ihop, i was so utterly TIRED. i ended up taking an alomst 3 hour nap. woke up didn't do much. the one thing i accomplished though was going to church. okay, let's hope i get this music stuff done.

Face Transformer 

Listening to moby.....

so i am living of very few hours of sleep and i am really tired. exams for this week have concluded. but still have so much more stuff to do. but i took some time to goof off. i think this is the first night that i didn't study, i think. i have been stressed lately, i suppose. cause my think is really so sporadic, and i just an jumping bouncing around everywhere. it could be all the pain relievers i been comsuming. anyways.....let's not get into that now. i might consider going to see the doctor next week, if time allows. so nice that i can just close my eyes and type away without having to look at the screen. allows me to rest my pair.

anyways, i also saw SCRUBS tonight. i just really think that is like the funniest shows and makes me want to be a doctor. so yeah, frank showed me this site and it transforms your face to etc. above.....it's a mucha painting, the original and a magna. interesting huh? okay, eyes are retiring.

Welcome to Anatomy 101.

This is your instructor Sheila. Today, I am going to tell you about the integumentary system. What is this system? It is the most important system because it is comprised of hair, nails, skin, and various glands, muscles and nerves. It regulates body temperature, blood reservoir, protection from the external environment, excrection and absorption, synthesis of Vit D, and cutaneous sensations. The skin is composed of two layers: the epidermis and the dermis. There is also a subcutaneous layer (aka the hypodermis) that is comprised of areolar and adipose tissue. This serves as a storage for fat and contains large blood vessels that supply the skin.

The epidermis is a keritinized stratified squamous epithelium that can be classified in 4 catergories.
1) Keratinocytes: arranged in 4-5 layers. produces keratin and lamellar granules, which releases a waterproofing sealant.
2) Melanocytes: produces melanin which contributes to skin color and absorbs damaging UV light.
3) Langerhan cells: participate in the immune response mounted again microbes that invade the skin and are easily damaged byt UV light.
4) Merkel cells: located in the deepest layer of the epidermis; functions in sensation of touch.

There are several distinct layers in the keratinovytes in the various stages of development in the epidermis. From the deepest to the superficial:
1) Stratum Basale: composed of Langerhan cell, Melanocytes, and Merkel cells. composed of single cuboidal or columnar keratinocytes, some of hich are stm cecll that undergo cell division to cotinually produce new keratinocytes.
2) Stratum Spinosum: superficial to the stratum basale. 8-10 layers of polyhedral keratinocytes fit closely together, flattened. this arrangement provides strength and flexibility to the skin. Projections are composed of Langerhan cell and Melanocytes.
3) Stratum Granulosm: This marks the transition of the deep layer from the superficial layer. Here you will notice a pronounced staining of the granules of a protein called keratohyalin which converts tonofilaments to keratin. Is located at the middle of the epidermis, 3-5 layers of flattened keratinocytes that are undergoing apoptosis.
4) Stratum Lucidum (Note: this only is present in thick skin): 3-5 layers of clear, flat, dead keratinocytes that contain large amounts of keratin and thickened plasma membranes.
5) Stratum Corneum: 25-30 layers of dead keratinocytes. These cells are continuously shedding and are replaced by cells from deer strata.

What is keratinization? As cells move from one epidermal layer to another, they accumulate more keratin. So the whole process in which cells from the deep stratum basale moves to the superficial layer, the cells are becoming keratinized and die.

Dermis is the other layer that your skin is made of. That's where all the good stuff like support comes into play. This is techinically the second layer of your skin. It is composed mainly of connective tissue unlike it's other half the epidermis (which is composed of epithelium tissue). So collagen fibers and elastic fibers and few cells like fibroblasts, macrophages and adipocytes would be found in the dermis.

There are two regions that the dermis is sectioned into. There the papillary region and the reticular region.
1) Papillary Region is only made up of one-fifth of the dermis. It contains the dermal papillae, corpuscles of touch, and free nerve endings; not to mentioni areolar connective tissue containing fine elastic fibers. Of course, this is the superficial portion of the dermis.
2) Reticular Region is made up of dense irregular connective tissue containing bundles of collagen and some coarse elastic fibers. The spaces betwwn fibers are occupies by a few adipose cells, hair follicles, nerves, sebaceous (oil) glands, and sudorigerous (sweat) glands. In sum, the reticular region provides the skin with strength and extensibility.

so i am back. and now there will be no more unwanted automated comments. i added a feature, but it isn't much. you'll see. i will test it out to.

so gosh, i wish i had a better memory. i wish i knew more. so now, no time for wishing and time to take action.

blog blog blog.....so this is me. pre-pratical. i am just using this time to chil out and calm my nerves. trying to see what there is to do online, but there really isn't much. so taking classes and working is really cutting in on my "sheila sleep time" and other relaxation boring spurts in my life. nonetheless, i could be having more fun. instead i chose a life of enlightening education. so for reals, i have no idea how i am going to do the dissection, cause everytime i look into the ventral cut of a dead dissected animal, i get sick to whatever comes to mine. how am i going to overcome this. SHOTS??? that might cause a gastric-reflux sorta thing, so i am going to have to rethink that idea. okay, i am going to shower, hopefully that kills sometime. when i get home, if time alloted, i will watch some tv and study for my next exam. YUPPIE!

i am back, lucky readers. you guys are really getting a treat. so anyways, after hours of taking notes, i have finally finished, that is until the weekend, then it begins again. yeah, it's crazy. anyways, so for the rest of the week it is just STUDY, STUDY, STUDY!!!! oh my stomach hurts. but yeah, that is until thursday, then it's SLEEP, SLEEP, SlEEP! This weekend should be pretty relaxing though. Read some chapters to get ahead and do all the music homework. It really is just a sick cycle. It was nice, when I really had nothing to do. that was the best. cause i would come home, work out and eat, then sleep. occassionally go out. but yeah, no time for any of that now. kinda sucks, people must think i really have gone in haitus. which is kinda true. then there are those lucky few who actually do get to see me.

so yeah, this weekend. i can't wait. i am probably going to study anyways, cause i am such a NERD. yes, U stop mocking me. It is so strange, everyone including their mother's is calling me a NERD. oh well, better than not being one, if you know what I mean......this is where i am vague cause i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. anyway......i listening to moby again and it has been so long. I really like some of his stuff. i am really into the not having words in songs. cause it is just so relaxing to the instrumental art, even it is technologically enhanced. so yeah......i say that a lot huh? well, i guess. that is my saying. but check this out, another ol' school lingo......i am going to the mall this weekend. it has been ages. i am not going to buy anything cause i have been charging up grands of my CC. so yeah, totally gotta resist whatever temptation may pass my way.

its all this school, health...it is the major bulk of my expenses it sucks ass. okay, i am going to get back to histology for i must distinguish a simple squamous from a stratified squamous, not to mention a pseudostratified ciliated epithelium from a transitional epithelium. On top of all that, can you believe i have to know its function and location. That's not even the end of it. there's still the bones of the skeleton; axial and appendicular.

BLAHHH.....pray for me...thanks!

listening to "Ethereal" by Amethystium

so why is it that when we heard "certain" songs, it makes us feel a certain way? is it the way the music was composed? or does it remind us of something familiar and with the familiarity comes emotion? is that what it could? Did the composer have something in mind? to juxatapose something? that is a question that can have a variety of response. anyways, just thought that I would bring that up.

okay, I am off to shower. maybe that will make my headache go away. let's hope. either that or the advil will kick in anytime now.

Another day has come to pass us by. I wasted about an hour just playing around on the comp. I am tired. My headache has somewhat subsided. I will probably just wake up 8 hours later. But once again, doubts of thoughts is passing me by. I am so iffy about the future and what it holds for me. I constantly pray to find some sort of understanding. Some path to be led to. Some path to choose and make my own. However, it is just so difficult with many options present before me. Many people will ask me "what is in your future?" and usually, I will give them some bs answer to get them off my back. But seriously, there is really no hassle. It's only me that is questioning myself. So I think to myself, what do the cards hold for me?

This is what I really want to do. I want to be a voice artist. You know cartoon or anime, voices of animation. I think that would be the MOST awesome job in the world. Now, how will I accomplish this? In the mean time, I have to think of other things to do. I tried denstisty, but that path is not going as smoothly, so I thought maybe dental hygiene, and now I thinking maybe a masters in Biomedical Sciences, But wait, I don't wanna do that. Thats like kinda what I doing now, but not as hard. So here's goes, off to become a voice artist. YEAHHHH!!!!!

i have the biggest headache in the world. i think i am getting sick. i fine myself sleeping a lot. and i am sleepy again. and i feel hot in the head. what does that mean. i am becoming really delirious. maybe i am thirsty. i think i totally need to relax my brain. can't wait to work out tomorrow and relief some stress. gosh, yeah, totally need to run. i would like to run, now and get some air, yes, air that is what i need. yes, so something like that work out and shower then eat then just study. okay, back to reading about the facial bones and how there are 14 of them, only one of which can move, that would be the mandibular bone, isn't it great, it allows us to eat those yummy lauo potato chips. what else, oh yeah, bones are great, we have about 206 bones in our body, let's start with, or let's now. yeah, ANATOMY 101 here we come.

ciao, someone, get me some gelato.....ciao bella, what was it again?

okay, so whoever you are posting comment with SUCH links, please stop. The appreciation is not welcomed. SORRY to be so blunt, but i hope you can understand why. this is not an advertisement for such interest. thank you, but no thanks. only serious comments are welcome, or at least one i am actually interested in reading. links of whatever are of no interest to me or my kind readers.

cupcakes......YUM 

ever felt so lazy that you just don't wanna go and get what you need? so i need my book which is in my book bag, oh let's say.....3 ft away. but i just want to sit here and have someone get it for me. but alas, i better just go and do it myself. time to do some online class stuff. off i go. enjoy the cupcakes for now.

listening to X&Y Coldplay

so have you ever wondered why you are in the field you are in? as i sit here studying about human anatomy, i think about all the other options i had set before me when deciding a major in college. why did i choose this field. why am i learning about the anatomical system? why not literature, business or law? i wonder. then there's always the road not taken. ahhh....but many ways in which we can view life.

i constantly question this path i am in, what does that mean. i should just stuck it up and stick with it. but if you think about it, why should i? i really am still confused about why i am where i am. i guess i just have to accept it. learning is fun so i don't know why i am complaining. i guess i am just thinking about all the other things (resources) that i want to expose myself too. i think the weather is changing. i wish i got more done today. oh well, tomorrow is another day, now ain't it. better get to bed, cause i am getting hungry.

oh yeah, after my run today, it felt cool. it was somewhat windy. well, sleepy time, alas.

oh yes, life and it's revelations.......so many things i want, yet so afraid to take those baby steps. i wish......life could be so simple. i guess it can be. but then there was that apple and that snake and now we are sinners. so let us now all repent and pray for rainbows.

last things....well, i will save it for another time.

American Cities That Best Fit You:

75% Honolulu

70% Denver

65% Austin

65% Seattle

60% Atlanta

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

Brunch at Brockton Villa 

I began my saturday with having brunch with close friends over at The Brockton Villa Restuarant over at La Jolla. Thanks Sondhaya! I had a very interested dish....effs ipenema. it had an interested sauce that seemed thai inspired with the fusion of tomoto sauce and coconut. it was wuite electic.

later that evening, we headed out to Air Conditioned.


me and cindy at air conditioned 

for your viewing pleasures, here at some pictures cindy took. cindy's pics

and here there are some new posted pics here. highlights.....rockreation, brockton villa and air conditioned and more