Wednesday, July 31, 2002

so messy......


If you haven't noticed, I been changing template. I've tried at least 4 or 5 today. I can't seem to decide which to use. In any case I will probably end up changing template every so often. My room is so messy. SERIOUSLY, I can't stand having a messy room. It stresses me out and make me fell icky. I so need to clean up. I can't wait to move. It's gonna be great cause I'll have my own room and I can lights candles all around and get a kick ass shelf from IKEA. The new catalog is coming out, infact tomorrow. I can't wait to see the new stuff they come out with. I want a new bed and a new desk as well. I want a smaller desk like my sister's. Maybe i'll steal hers and give mine to her. HEHEHE. anyways, that is just a thought.

I look left, I look right, and gosh--it's a mess! uggh.....okay that does it right after this I am going to CLEAN. So earlier today I was making a sandwich for Chris and myself. That kitchen is so dirty, I absolutely can't stand it. The foil on the stove really needed to be changed. I was cooking eggs and all of a sudden the stove started FLAMING. My first reaction was, "DAMN this kitchen is so dirty, ughh." So the flame quickly died away. Minutes later, the flame grew, and what went through my mind was, "hmmm....should I scream for help?" I decided not to because I figured that I can conquer the fire. Which I did. I blew it out.

For all you fruit lovers out there, cheap grapes at Albertson's, 67 cents per lb. What a steal of a deal. I bought two bags. already finshed one, and going onto the next one.

So today in my kaplan class, we were doing perceptual ability. Man when I was taking pre-subject test, I was so sucking at it. but after class, where I learned some tricks, it doesn't seem as turf. nonetheless I need to practice like MAD. that's what i will be doing for the rest of the summer as well as looking for another job.

Everytime I take one of the subject test for my DATs, I ask myself, is this what I really want? well, i better stop yapping and start studying.

Happy Birthday.....


today is my younger brother's birthday. he's 19 now. Happy Birthday Bonzi! oh yea, you still owe muah some cash. like my new template, boy?
new template....


testing to see if the new template pops up.
ahhhhhhhhh.....

ahhhh... no more summer school, yeahhhh!!!! I took my final, it was ok, i am pretty sure i passed the class. hopefully, i get an A, not an A- or a B+. Anyways, so I took my test, then i went to work. I didn't go in for a week, so I expected some what of a mess, but it was more than I expected. So I was there for a while, and in fact i have work again tomorrow. that's ok, I'll go to school with Chris and work while he is taking his finals. anyways, now time to concentrate on my DATs.
taking a break......

after today i can finally relax. I still need to study massive chapters though and my notes. that will probably take me 2 hours. but I think i'll start early so i won't have to rush it, studying that is. anyways, I have to work today. I don't really want to because i just kinda want to relax. Then I have kaplan. that's going to burn me out. we are learning perceptual. where we visualize things. anyways, i am making dinner later today, salmon, with mashed potatos. I think i may add some vegetable as well. i'm thinking asparagus. but asparagus makes pee smell funny. okay, i better study.

Tuesday, July 30, 2002

A short Entry......

I have finally calmed down from my blog fiasco. So I am once again ready to entertain you. Well, actually hold that thought for a day. I have a final tomorrow. Hence, the short entry. I still have 2 and a quart chapters to go. then maybe i'll take in a movie and review. anyways, i will finally update my website in due time. I have a plan that will make viewing pictures more entertaining and easy. look forward to it.

Saturday, July 27, 2002

hello, i am at san deigo right now showing cindy this little feature.

Friday, July 26, 2002

Monday, July 15, 2002

Scrambling......


Okay, I am a bit jumbled right now. Stressing with another midterm coming up. I know I shouldn't worry too much about it, but still. So tonight I also start learning in my Kaplan class. I am worried that I won't like the class and get nothing from it. Worried if dentistry is really the thing for me, and if all this money is just going to waste. I just want to run around pulling my hair in a panic screaming, like in the cartoons.

My table is a mess, and even that stresses me. I need to have things neat and orderly in order to stay clam, but then again doesn't anyone? So that's what i will do after this.

I emailed the people from blogger asking them with my archives which are acting all funny. Like when you click on the (07/07/2002 - 07/13/2002) link it goes to page not found. anyways that's one thing that is bugging me.

Perhaps, I just need to relax, I am going into panic mode. Breathe Sheila, breathe. Okay, that was refreshing. Anyways, here's the thing, I think I am worrying too much about my future. What could be the cause of this?Hmmmm..... my psych class perhaps. The professor keeps emphasizing how we should really evaluate what our goals are, and now I am constantly contemplating just that. So the stress is on. For example, as much as I like my psych class, it also stresses me because it forces me to constantly think (that can't be good for anyone). You need to let your brain rest right. Neurologist might argue otherwise. So as I was saying, in class today, I was thinking, hmmm.....maybe I want to become a professor, or a therpaist. When I was younger, I wanted to become a psychiatrist. But then I changed my mind after talking to one (they had this carrer-program in my junior high where you go visit the profession of you interest). I was afraid that it would make me crazy. So I abandonned that idea. So it came up again to, but I concluded with the same conclusion as years before.

I could go on forever talking about psychology, but then I don't want to drop all this on you at once. Here are some issue that come to mind though....( thinking too fast...slow it down)...as children, when do we remember what it was like, meaning the memory of being a child, our childhood? They say the futher back you can remember that more intelligent you are. Something to talk about later.

Taking this class has made me realize that I really like psychology and has given me a new mission statement to write about this blog.

Lastly, I would like to tell you what really motivated me to write into this. I am going to free associate. So I wanted to see why people do so called online journals. Writing in this also relieves stress. Because everyone needs someone to talk to, it's in our nature. Talking to others allows us to expessive bottled up feelings. This blog is symbolic of that. I needed to relieve some stress, get something out of my chest, that was all bottled up. I needed to somehow re-evaluate what was going inside my head. And writing in this blog, does that for me. So you can say that is theraputic, a form of therapy. Anyways, writing in this also lets me express stuff that I wouldn't normally think or say.

Saturday, July 13, 2002

Curious......


Television. i don't watch it too often, especially during the school year. but it's summer time and i have more time (at least for now). So when i get a chance to, I watch a little here and there. Here are a couple of shows worth watching.

OFF CENTER
what's it about? it's about these three guys that are buddies. And well its about living in NY. at least i think it's in new york. So the cast..... cute british guy. he's got the whole accent, and well....accents, ya gotta love that, that is british, australian accents. funny asian guy....and that guy in american pie who boned stiffley's mom. you should watch it, it's on the WB, channel 5, thursday at 9pm, i think.

Smallville
i don't think i have to say much about this show. I'm like the only one, who hasn't seen it until recently. that's the good thing about the summer time, they show re-runs. So anyways, it's basically a teenager version of superman.

Sex in the City
Sara Jessica Paker and her group of ladies. Basically the show is about women and their sex lives and how they (women) are being like men (or sometime like that). Meaning, being a man and having sex, meaningless for some and others with meaning. 4 women. Carrie is a columnist, Charlotte is more innocent and traditional, Maranda is a lawyer, and Samatha is the slut, per say. I was curious to see why they win so many things and now I can see why. It's actually a good show. So the lesson here is, I was curious to see what all the talk was about (just like with the blog) and I looked into it and now I know.

On lighter things, my friend, Sondhaya, came to visit on thursday. She had to take care of some pressing matters at school. We did dinner, shoppng and more. Dinner at the cheesecake factory. Their mashed potato is absolutely delicious. When I go there, I try to get something with mashed potatoes. I had the grilled chicken medalion, it was pretty good. I like how they garnished it with bell peppers. Their cheesecake is also good. It's a bit creamy though. I can never finish a whole slice myself. Sometime I enjoy frozen cheesecake, I like how it melts in your mouth. like the ones they sell at Costco. I am always tempted to buy the onces they sell at traders joe, but i never do because i can't finish that whole cheesecake, it'll just go bad and that would just be a waste.

The next day, we ordered take-out from Claim Jumpers. I had the soup and 1/2 sandwich. Little jumpers chicken tenderlions, and chocolate walnut brownie. oink oink. It was really a lot of food. I ordered French Onion soup because I was curious to know why so many people like it. It wasn't too good. Perhaps it was just a bad first experience, but to be safe, i'll steer clear from french onion for a while. Sondhaya had a cheesebuger and her advise was "don't ever order a burger from claim jumpers." She also had a carrot cake, that was pretty good. As for the walnut brownie I ordered, it was so big. That's why i bought it. anyways, i took 3 bites. projected finishing time......one week.....it's sweet.

Today, I took a diagnostic test for my DATs. It was horrible, i forgot so much of the stuff I learned 1-2 years ago. That's what I just needed to push me to study. The perceptual also blew me away. And the reading comprehension, I am so rusty. I think I'll ask Chris to teach me a few tricks. As for the quantitative reasoning, also rusty. I haven't gotten my books yet, what a disppointment. I have a midterm coming up and a paper, I better get cacking on those.

Let me set a few goals for myself: (in no particular order)
1. read a book
2. study for DATs
3. sign up for DATs
4. look for a place to live
5. update website
6. study for midterm 2
7. work on paper

I think that's about it for now. So hopefully, i get to some of it. well that's it for now.

Monday, July 08, 2002

Turkey.....


Ever since Canada (family vacation - summer 2002), I have grown a likeness for turkey. I can't even remember when I first grew a dislike for it. I would never dare order a club sandwich with turkey. But i guess being in a different environment does something to my system. anyways, i bring this up because when i was in canada, i think we were in Banff, I ordered a Club Sandwich (with Turkey) from CJ's. It was very good and from then on i invited turkey into my limited meats. Now, if the sandwich was not to my liking, I would have stayed away from turkey forever. today, I made myself a delicious turkey sandwich. with provolone cheese, green peppers, lettuce, tomato, onions, and more. It was big.

Sunday, July 07, 2002

Boring Sunday......


What a boring day. nothing of much interest to say today. I attempted to do several things. I tried to update my homepage, but then i got bored of resizing all the pictures. So i dropped that. then i tried planning out my DAT study schedule, but then i got distracted and pick up my psych book and started reading. Interesting metaphor - - - "Lovers are like travelers on a journey trying to reach a common destination, and their relationship is the vehicle for this journey." What do you guys think? I don't really want to go into too much detail about it, but i just wanted to throw that out there.

Back in Irvine now, made some noodles with calamansi, nothing of extreme interest. so lately, i've been thinking of what i want to do with my life. I don't really want to do to more schooling after I graduate, but I realize i must if i ever want to make the big bucks. So i have decided that i will take the DATs, so now i am begining my journey to prepare for it.

I wouldn't mind being a chef, that sounds fun, making spectacular gourmets and elaborate desserts. just had to throw that out there as well.

Saturday, July 06, 2002

The Real World......


Waking up........7:35 am. (i know that's not early for some people, so no i'm not complaining.) so i had to take my car into the shop to get it fixed. when i got there, they were still close. just as they were about to open, i noticed the guy point towards another direction. i was like, what the...... "great balls of fire, i didn't know there was a line. " I was fired up cause i wanted to get my car back that day because i needed it and couldn't wait till monday (summer school). Good thing i made an appointment. haha, suckers. Estimated seven hundred dollars in repairs. my goodness...... So by the time i got back, i had planned to go back to sleep. but sadly, was not able to. I ended up watching The Real World for the next 8 hrs minus an hour for lunch. Apparently it was some marathon cause the final episode is coming up this coming tuesday at 10pm. So as I was watching The Real World, it hit me. Is this really how people act? fake and overly dramatic? Part of me thinks it's fake and it should be refered to as the Fake World. But then what do i know, I can't really relate to any of them.

Here's the cast. 4 females, 3 white girls and 1 black girl. 3 males, 2 white boys and 1 black male. (respectively)
Tonya: white chick number 1. she's had a hard childhood bumping around from one foster family to another. and was in debt for medical bills until recently. She's uptight. nothing really much to say about her, but that everyone in the show seem to dislike her.
Cara: white chick number 2. she's this short, used to be chubby, takes anti-depressant pills, sleeps-around (slut?), and has a envious, me, me, always craving attention personality on the side. When i was watching it, i didn't really have an opinion about Cara, until now. At the begining, i thought she was an okay gal, then i figured she was just a pleaser. she sided with anyone and is really envious of keri. i bet you she was secretly in love with kyle and was so jealous of keri because of the relationshiop they keri and kyle shared earlier in the season. she is insecure about herself and likes to be the center of attention and wants what she doesn't have. she seems fake to me.
Keri: She is secure about herself, has self-control, but at the same time cannot express herself totally to her peers. I like the realtionship Kyle and her shared, but at the same time, it's like, hmmmm........the issue of whether she and kyle should have been less touchy touchy in their relationship when Kyle had a girlfiend. So there's the issue of morality. But i won't dwell into that now. that issue will be for another day.
Aneesa: She's a lesbian that is trying to find herself. Also a nudist.
Chris: He's gay. I didn't really see much development about him.
Kyle: He's got some real issues. He has a girlfriend, Nicole, who he claims he loves, but is really attracted to Keri. And even admits to Keri that he likes her. So nicole dumps Kyle's ass after a while. And he gets it on with Keri, but stops, because he feels it is not right. (bastard) then gets all cozy with Cara.
Theo: Speaks his mind.

So after watching 7 hours of The Real World Chicago, I concluded that it is real and fake. It's real because in real life people are fake. not all though. mostly in the media. and The Real World truly exemplified this fakeness. The whole time i was watching it, I saw how fake Cara and Kyle can be. okay that's all i have to say about it. One last comment, The Real World New Orleans was the best among the rest.

Moving on......i know i shouldn't waste my time watching tv, but i just needed to veg out. okay, well, that's it for now, I better go and do my laundry. miss you dear.

Friday, July 05, 2002

Cowboy Bebop......


Well, today i really didn't do much. I went to my psych class and saw a pretty interesting movie. we learned about language and whether or not language can only be learned during the critical period. For humans, they say our critical period is between 4 yrs of age until 14 years of age. Apparently this true, so let me give you future parents some advice. (on a side not, i am at home in arcadia, sitting in Sophia's (my younger sister) leprecon desk. I feel like a giant sitting here, this table is too low, and this chair is too high.) Anyways, as I was saying, the best time to enrich a child is at the age of 4. Why? Because at this point, children have the fullest capacity to learn. They are young minds waiting to be molded into something great. That myth during the 50s about children learning two languages at once being harmful to them.... well, that's just bullshit. During this critical period is the window of opportunity for children to learn/expand on their language capabilities. To make my point clear, if you want your child to be a great musician, expose him/her to a musical instrument at four. If you want them to know more than one language, expose them to it at 4.

As I was saying earlier, I am home now. When I got here, my younger brother, Benedict, was watching Cowboy Bebop. He was on the last two episodes. I noticed something odd about it though. He was watching it in English. And well, what can i say, it's just not the same. It's not as good when you watch it in english. it just felt strange to me, and so un-Spike like. Cowboy Bebop is one of the best anime ever. I mean when i first started watching it, I was like, huh, it's the same plot over and over again. but then whaw.... it hit me. It's really well written and has extensive character development. Especially when Ed enter the picture. I really enjoy the songs too, they are really original. It definitely didn't cop out on anything.

Crash....smash...pop....buzzzzzz..........ugh. older brother, Blaise, is disrupting me as I write in this......constant question of "are you done yet?"......anyways....let me get back on track here. so as you can see being at home disturbs my creativity with so distractions. anyways, it has its pros and cons. See, i am never really bored with so many siblings around. except for when i am home alone.

It's been while, I went to the mall with Sophia today. She needed to get a gift for her friend, David, who is hosting a dinner. So we ended up picking something from Abercrombie. a red shirt, pretty plain on the front with a small A&F logo. What caught my attention was the writting on the back. It stated, "Bounty Hunter." Which in turn reminded me of Cowboy Bebop and then whether or not i should get it for chris. i decided not to because he might not like the logo on the front. i didn't buy anything for myself though , (pretty good for me, i'm a shop-a-holic)......i guess that's good.

ugh....i have to wake up so early tomorrow to take my car in to fix its little funks. well, that's it for now, see you in space cowboy.

Thursday, July 04, 2002

Lilo and Stitch......


So, today is the fourth of July. I'm not really much of a celebrater, so enough about that. Who knows I might have something interesting to say about it tomorrow. Anyways......yesterday I went to Downtown Disney (the place where I usually go to watch movies because its amc and because they have seats that recline and the arm rest are movable.) I saw that new disney movie, Lilo & Stitch. i'd have to say that's on the top of my list of Disney movies along with Beauty and the Beast. It was really cute and had tear jerking moments. Stitch was so adorable and Lilo too. It had humor and everything. Kids could relate to it and adults as well. but what i am trying to say is that it's a good movie for anyone. so you have to go see it if you haven't. I can't wait till the DVD comes out because I am going to buy it. hehehe.... on my list of dvds to get are ........ serendipity (enough though chris might take it from me), kate and leopold, i guess that's it for now.

So yesterday, Chris and I went shopping for dress shirts and ties (for his work). I picked out this awesome tie. why is it awesome? because it matched with all the dress shirts we picked out. plesant to the eye and it was the best one they had (in my opinion, of course). I can't wait till he wears it, then i can take a picture of him and post it on my blog, when i figure out how to do that stuff.

Recently, I have been watching a lot of asian flicks. I mean all of them a really good too. To name some:

Needing You with Andy Lau
Running out of time also with Any Lau
Green Snake with Maggie Cheung
Downtown Torpedoes wiith Takeshi Kaneshiro
Sleepless Town with Takeshi Kaneshiro
The Storm Raiders with Aaron Kwok and Ekin Cheng
Chinese Odyssey 2002 with Tony Leung and Faye Wong
anna magdalena with Takeshi Kaneshiro, Aaron Kwok, and Kelly Chen

The great thing about watching these singers, actors, and models is that they are so much more exciting. they do crazy stuns and have lots of good action scenes. at least compared to the american onces (some that is). When they sing and act, it seems more realistic and real. maybe its just me. my favorite(s) are Takeshi and Aaron. I can't wait to watch Tokyo Raiders with Kelly Chen, Ekin Cheng, and Tony Leung. I'd tell you what it is about but reading the back of the covers don't really tell you much about the movie. Anyways, if you have time, give them a look.

So what's the plan for today? I am going to clean. I really need to organize my things and throw out what i ablsolutely don't need. I'm like a pack-rat, or as Chris would say, "you are a pack-rat." okay i guess i better get started on that.

but before I do, I just wanted to tell you about that comic I was reading, I finished it and well, I don't know whether I should go for the trade paperback. I guess I won't since I am having doubts. oh yeah, another little issue, still can't decide whether Dentistry is what i want to do. gotta hurry up and decided. prep class or not? time is ticking.

Wednesday, July 03, 2002

The Beginning......


hi there,


well today is the day i begin on my journey to write in this as often as i can. what's up with me you ask? usually i'd just say, "nothing much, what about you?" but then i realize that i am just talking to myself. so what's up with me? well, i just took my first psych midterm. i don't want to jinks (hmmm....i probably spelled that wrong, i have a knack for that) myself, but i'd have to say i thought i ROCKED that test. I just hoped i filled in those bubbbles correctly.

so anyways, i am suppose to be looking for a new job, but i am so lazy. I really need to brush-up my resume. I should also update my homepage. I mean i have so much stuff to put on there. my pictures from my trip in canada with my family. but oh, there are so many pictures to post that i don't want to do all that work. REALLY, i am not that lazy. I guess you can say, i love to say how LAZY i am, but in reality, i am not all that lazy.

So I bought my first comic today. Chris, my boyfriend, loves COMICS, so every wednesday or thursday we go to the Comic Bookstore and check out what's new. Usually, i see nothing of interest to buy, but today, something caught my eye. The cover was so colorful. It amused me, and caught my interest. So i picked up and browsed through it (really though, i read it up until half way, then decided to purchase it after flipping to the cover a couple of times). It's called Strangers in Paradise by Terry Moore. I still have the rest of it to finish. If I like it all that much, i might get the trade paperbacks.

Geez, who knew I actually had something to say. well, that's me for you, i am unpredictable (or at least i'd like to think so). Most people would say i'm not, but wait until rag time comes around, i'll show you.

So, i better cut it short, don't want to give too much away. by the way, i'm giving this thing a shot, i heard stuff about this and wanted to see what it was all about.