listening to X&Y Coldplay

so have you ever wondered why you are in the field you are in? as i sit here studying about human anatomy, i think about all the other options i had set before me when deciding a major in college. why did i choose this field. why am i learning about the anatomical system? why not literature, business or law? i wonder. then there's always the road not taken. ahhh....but many ways in which we can view life.

i constantly question this path i am in, what does that mean. i should just stuck it up and stick with it. but if you think about it, why should i? i really am still confused about why i am where i am. i guess i just have to accept it. learning is fun so i don't know why i am complaining. i guess i am just thinking about all the other things (resources) that i want to expose myself too. i think the weather is changing. i wish i got more done today. oh well, tomorrow is another day, now ain't it. better get to bed, cause i am getting hungry.

oh yeah, after my run today, it felt cool. it was somewhat windy. well, sleepy time, alas.

oh yes, life and it's revelations.......so many things i want, yet so afraid to take those baby steps. i wish......life could be so simple. i guess it can be. but then there was that apple and that snake and now we are sinners. so let us now all repent and pray for rainbows.

last things....well, i will save it for another time.

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75% Honolulu

70% Denver

65% Austin

65% Seattle

60% Atlanta

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

Brunch at Brockton Villa 

I began my saturday with having brunch with close friends over at The Brockton Villa Restuarant over at La Jolla. Thanks Sondhaya! I had a very interested dish....effs ipenema. it had an interested sauce that seemed thai inspired with the fusion of tomoto sauce and coconut. it was wuite electic.

later that evening, we headed out to Air Conditioned.


me and cindy at air conditioned 

for your viewing pleasures, here at some pictures cindy took. cindy's pics

and here there are some new posted pics here. highlights.....rockreation, brockton villa and air conditioned and more

deep fried chickens, these suckers take a while to cook, plus, massaging them was just strange.  


my mom, me and julianne 


just posted some back logged pictures. the chicken is from my sister's bon voyage party. she is at lund now. and the other is from my brother's birthday, but the baby stole his thunder cause who can resist babies.

feeling bored and sleepy. feel like i am wasting away here.

the long awaited gallery of pictures that i have ever so been lagging on

today may perhaps be the best day of the year. the weather was perfect. my walk was so pleasant.

the verve pipe - colorful

its been so long since i heard that song. brings back memories. i finally uploaded some pictures. okay, so all my pictures. all i have to do now is upload them for viewing. and back them up.

gosh i ate so much i feel like such a pig. am so sad that my computer, desktop that is crapped out on me. that's why i had to get laptop. if i wasn't typing on it now, i would be quite bored.

so i am writting my declaration and then going to shower, pack, organize some stuff and am really glad that i just have a half day tomorrow. i will be out like super early. between 10:30-11. depending on when i get in. so yeah, what else. i need to do all these erroneous things. it quite bugs. i feel kinda pressured when in reality i am really not.

so let me go off on a tangent here. everyone is having a baby girl this year or something. babies are so cute but no way in hell i will have one in the near future. cause 1st of all, i am way to young to even think about that. though, i like to play with them. so long as i am not responsible for them. that is just a way scary though. and marriage. that is like the talk of work, ever since i started working. that is also way too soon to grasp. i am at my prime. and that is a thought that is set in the future off somewhere. i am in a committed relationship, however, but that has always been the case for me. i seem to find myself in these situations one way or another. However, i have always wonder, what if i never committed, would i be a totally different person? to answer that, yes, i think i would be more successful, but not as personable. interesting way of thinking about things.

so let's see what else.......i am not really getting old, although, i say it all the time. but for reals, time is breezing by. i remember as a high schooler, i had all these expectations and a planned out future. what was i thinking?

so every since i started college i have been on my own. it is kinda nice but it didn't hit me until now, how much i did not think about it.

so someone once told me that i have the gift. aren't you all curious to know what that gift is. i guess those of you that know me, know what it is, but then again, i like to think i have many gifts. it just depends which part of my personality you have met.

everyone mets some part of me. put all those people together and you get a complete version of what i am. too bad, no knows the real Sheila. This rants expresses little bits here and there, but never the complete picture. because what fin would that be if it was that easy.

so i haven't ranted like this in ages. i really need a vacation. soon, because it is long overdue. well that is all the chatting for now. on my next entry, perhaps i will just post some long overdue pictures. but perhaps not. HAHAHA

listening to drive - ziggy marley

so i just had dinner, it was quite tasty and full of nutricious food groups. i gotta stop eating plums though cause the skin really burns me. and yeah, maybe it wasn't juicy enough. today....tuesday. wasn't too bad but i just can't wait for this week to end. i am taking a half day off on friday complements of my blood. i am going to venture to the jnj store to get my cousin tons of floss, let's hope. gosh, if they don't have any, i will be really disappointed cause that is the fuel that is making me take that half day. oh well, i guess also to stare at the baby. i just love watching her, it is so plesant. not a care in the world. it is so great to be innnocent and be child like cause you don't have to face reality.

i went through my quarter life crisis earlier on. i know that soundsd dumb and all, but just you wait. right now i am still in transition, but i am comfortable. i guess it is cause i know i am still young and am waiting for direction. i do have one, but i keep that a secret. i have so many hopes and aspiration that i get confused. i have been shopping a lot lately. but hopeful, that urge has passed.

i laid out today and almost fell asleep. it was just so comforting laying out there. when i woke, i almost rose topless, i forgot i unhooked my top. thank god i remember. that would have been embarassing.

i wonder if i bronzed up a bit. slave to love - elan atlas

so i guess that's it for now. wait......i saw charlie and the chocolate factory, it was pretty good, i guess. however.....the small creature would have been cooler if they had be different and not all the same. also, a couple of critiques. also saw, hustle and flow. that wasn't bad. aside from the begining scenes. and finally wedding crashers. everyone said it was funny. it was, i'll give it that. but i notice VV plays the same role in all his movies. hmmmm..... was entertained nonetheless.

next movie....2046...batman begins (i know), and also, this came out a while a go, but howl's moving castle is a good watch.

so i picked up my glasses today. finally. they took forever. and to think, once again i am still disappointed. the cut still isn't how it should be. it is not even close to perfect. i've had many pairs done before and i can tell you this isn't quality work. it will suffice for now. but i vow never to get glasses done there once again. the torture is just too much. you think they would get it done right the second time. but no. it is had mild imperfections. it is just so annoying. yeah, that option should be FIRED. so i am cruel, or am i just speaking the truth. anyways, this pair should last me for a while hoping that my vision has finally stabilized. plus next time i will probably have to get some new frames, cause they handled mine so badly. so ask me and i'll tell you where not to get it done. serious, i should have just gone to lenscrafters or target. i have learned a valuable lesson. close is not the best. i am stepping out of this circle. HELLO world.
on another note. yesterday i cleaned the house until forever. i am hoping these ants go away and i hope my blasted roommates clean up. yeah, you hear me.....clean up. bry saved me by being my chalk supplier. so hopefully his medicine kills my problems. okie, time to go beautify myself. and stop being so grumpy. oh yeah, my left hand arms is hurting my crazy. is it arthitis?

listening to 50 first dates soundtrack.

and to all my fans, i will post my pictures soon. i know i have been crazy lagging. i will get to it soon enough, like next weekend. don't scream....breathe.

so, i love my laptop. this hibernate feature is the best. i was about to blog, but went in hiatus. i went to church. as if i had just gone awall. i have to go out again soon because to more shopping. there has been many shopping o late. and more to happen. i will be back later. it is time for a pseugo cyber fashion show.

so i saw tyra banks today at the santa anita mall. they were doing something for television, i think. maybe you will see me on tv, but probably not. so what else. i met up with cindy today, it was nice, haven't seen her in a while. always good to see a familiar face. we ate at claim jumpers. it was great. i haven't been there in a while. so it was refreshing. i had planned a more actvity day, but i am glad the way it turned out. what else. maybe tomorrow, i will be more active. like go to la. but it is so hot that i just want to stay put.

so, ummm...i am going to reformat my computer. so it runs faster. i have all this not so needed programs.

today was most relaxing. i went to the mall, as i said earlier and saw some cute baby clothes. i got two cute lil dresses. :)

hi blogger. so i am just so annoyed, mad, pissed, hundreds of emotions bursting out. i really can't take this streak of bad luck anymore. i just want to SCREAM or chop someone's head off. my head is really about to burst. i can hear it ticking. and all i want to do is SCREAM AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I can't take this anymore. someone help. anyone. i am about to blow up in flames. my blood is boiling. i can't stand. i need to go to a shooting range or something to blow off all this STEAM. ROARRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what has trigger all this anger is the VERY VERY poor job on my eyeglasses. i am so pissed. these are 300 dollar frames. don't you dare mess them up. HELLO!!!!!!!! they are my prized pair. i am so pissed at the construction of these lenses. they make me crossed eyed and give me a headache. the lenses aren't polish and could possible scratch my cornea. where's the line of quality here. tomorrow i am definitely going to call them up and complain. I am very disastify. i just want to return them and get it over with. i should have going to a better place. cause i alignment is completely giving my right side a pain. I am also annoyed cause they weren't even fitted. disappointed in a service. so tomorrow, i better call and give them a piece of my mind. i was so happy to have finally done it, only to get a grade F piece of crap quality. seriously, ,please inspect the quality of your work before you present the product because that is going to reflect on you. and even though you are convinient. i am rethinking going back to you. i am dizzy now, i think it is mostly the glasses. i am giving them a test run, and so far i give it a d minus.

many other things have gone wrong and i am just waiting for a streak of good luck. please luck charms shine my way.

i am so tired, so i think i will go to sleep soon. i am oh so lazy and have much to rant about. good thing i am so tired that i can't expose these secrets. okay, i will retire soon, but oh my, i am oh so hungry.

aburgine

Happy Mother's Day! 

For Mother's Day, I made my mom a cake. It's Devil's Strawberrry Cream. It seemed to be a hit. I'd say, it's my favorite flavor. This week I have another task ahead of me. I am making a wedding cake cause I am getting married. You must be wondering, why am I making my own cake. Well, it is better that way. Haha, I'm just kidding. But I am making that two layer wedding cake. It will be a challenge because I never iced like that before.

I also met up with carol and we ate at baccali. it was good! I really enjoyed my filet! thanks again carol!

can't sleep......so now i know how phil feels. perhaps lack of sleep is a result of anticipation and anger? yeah?

okay.....i feel somewhat stressed. i really have so much to do and think about but can't help but just blow it off. i mean seriously....sometimes i feel like i need to get on track. its so odd cause a year ago i felt like i was in limbo. and not to long ago i was comfy and felt like i had accomplished something. but now i am retracting back to limbo. quite sucky. i feel like i need my life to just settle down and stop riding on this roller coaster.

i have goals, but the wheels aren't turning for them. i don't exactly know what i want to do with my life and i am tire of a quick fix. i have ideas but that's just it...there are so many of them that it really gets me dizzy.

it's already may and still i feel like time is going 10 times to fast.

life is so complicated. i make it sound so simply but sometimes i wonder if it is all just a lie. i don't want to sound negative but if i was always positive then i wouldn't be balanced now would i?

i need to really prioritize my life. i need to make investments that will pay off. but i am afraid taking risk. that's why sometimes its just so great to read a book and get lost in it.

i think i am a very patience person, but lately......i haven't been practicing it. i need to rework that.

something a bit deeper......death.......i am curious what is life after death. since i am of a religious nature.....i am taught to see life after death as joining jesus in his world. and yes i do believe in that. so why am i curious about death. probably because i am human and will sin because of the incident at the garden of eden. yes......some progress. it really helps to think and type outloud sometime.

so yeah.....i think as of now i am going to keep that chair and today i am going to checkout some powerbooks and ipods.

ciao for now bella

on my walk back from the gym, i discovered this to my dismay. 


it is so HUGE! 

so isn't that like a really huge vehicle. how does one get in and out of it? doesn't seem to pratical to me. it's definitely has presence. but man...how many lanes does it take up. i was so surprise to see it on my street. i was really WOWED by it.

so i bought an armchair......so many other things i could have bought instead of it, like a camera, an ipod photo, a labtop......hmmmmm...... oh well, i'll get those in due time. i am going to enjoy my new buy. it's comfy....i can't wait. i wonder if it is too big....hmmmm.....

so yesterday i donated blood. it was a spur of the moment choice. however, i thought about it earlier that week. so i had just finished my work and decided to go check it out and decided why not? i headed there and was just about to walk away, but i turned back. so i was quite antsy......but i did it. the lady was nice. the iron test was pretty painful. i had just passed the iron test. a second more and they would have rejected me. so it took me like 10-15 mins, but i wish they had taken the needle away cause after a while it started to hurt. it was my first time. and it wasn't so bad.

now i am in san diego. just had breakfast from le peeps. it was okay. i am getting really particular when it comes to food. cause the belgium waffle was just okay. last night i had sushi and that was just okay too. hmmm.....what to do now? i think i may just catch up on my anime.

a thought.....you don't really know someone. you may think you do....but in reality.....you never really know them....i mean really know them. i can honestly say that no one really know who i am. they only know a part of me. why is that? i think that's true for everyone though. we have mutiple worlds and when they collide is it confusion or something else?

with or without you?

everlasting dream.......

another day.....oh so ROUND. i feel oh so ROUND. blasted. i just showered and i would feel refreshed, but i just feel FAT. i am quite sleepy....that's what the shower does to me. oh the screen is begining to look blurry......so i shall leave you with this thought.....that is......at least for now.....GALAXY QUEST.

SO TIRED....i was at work until FOREVER. literally. the only good part was that i got to catch up with the boys. its funny cause at the begining of the day it doesn't seem like much, but things don't always go as planned. oh well. came home and detoured for some candy and made cookies. kinda disappointing cause they didn't turn out as i had hoped. however the two BIG cookies i made were a smash.

oh yeah, finally made that strawberry malt of mine. it was DELICIOUS. okie dokie. bedtime.

What a horrible Tuesday! so here goes the inevitable. my day starts out pretty RAW. i get up and get ready for work. i head out the door. on my drive, i start to feel my allergy attacks. it gives me the chills thinking about it. so i get to work, and i feel itchy all over. I was DYING. i really couldn't move. i was going insane. i hate it when the weather changes. it absolutely KILLS me. so i pop a claritin. i went home to take a cold shower. that helped. however, my drive back was killing me. i bet ya people were thinking...'what the hell is wrong with her'. so i made it home. and after my cold shower.....i put all this numbing stuff on. i was about to call in sick, but i forced myself to go back to work. it was painful, but i hung in there. i made it through the day, the claritin worked wonders and all that numbing stuff i applied.

at work, the day was mediocre. however, jorge struck again. the day before i had made a request for a personal day. it's personal, what right does one have over my personal day. it is allowed and what authority does one have a say in it. I HATE PEOPLE trying to MONOPOLIZE my time. I feel they do not have the right. I am not down with ALL THIS BULL SHIT. My TIME is my time, and if i choose to sit on my ass and do nothing, i will do that. today, i have gained a new perspective. i have new eyes on and a new outlook. so here's the thing, no one has the right to tell me what health practioner to see. cause one, hey, jackass, it's my body and blood not yours. if i want to go there, then i will. you should not question something like that. it is my CHOICE, or am i not to have one of those. thanks for your opinion, but NO THANKS. you really know a way to ruin some pleasures that WE have in life. but hey, just remember who works for you. ya that's right....

another thing....you should learn to respect other people's feelings. how do you expect people to work for you if you do not treat them like people. that's right, like people. we are not robots. and another thing, RELAX, take a chill pill. cause you know what...you don't set too good an example. how do you expect to shine is no one respects you. cause you know what, i bet there are plenty of people who aren't too fond of you. and you know what....i getting there. i try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, but you're really testing that. so much more to RANT about, but i am trying to keep it civil. haven't you learned from you previous experience?

i understand where you are coming from, in some twisted way, i just don't agree with you. but as always, you WIN and that is not fair. but, i will take a stand with LUCAS and one day.......


so i cleaned today, but my desk is still a mess and i still have to organize some crap. i am such a rat pack, i gotta just throw eveything away. worked out, made dinner. doing laundry. feel pretty productive. off i go to fold clothes.