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so i read 5 chapters today. surprised to see how much that i progressed so much. still i have to review so much more. at least i finish tomorrow. then i can finally RELAX. i can't wait. ahhh....i am stressing. help me. maybe i need to do pilates again. argggg............gosh, all this anticipation is killing me.

ahhhhh.......i can't study, i've been on this one paragraph for about an hour now and i am so majorly frustrated cause i can't move on. dahhh!!!!! at this pace i am not going to get anywhere. maybe i should go to the library or something. maybe i need some music. ahhhh....so that is why i am blogging. i am kinda hungry, maybe i should eat something huh? well at least i cleaned out my inbox and a couple of other random stuff. ahhh...i wish i could just get into the groove of things. so yeah.......

on another note here are some pics from my sister's birthday.

okay, yeah, so i am maybe going to walk. i think i will. okay, too frustrated need to chill. later.

lazy monday. anyways, i been so down and depressed lately and i know exactly why but i am just not doing anything about it. it's really driving me nuts. this week is a pretty busy one, so i wish i could skip all this emotional crap and get on with my business. i am really getting tired of this self trials and tribulations. i don't know how much more of this i can take cause it's really blogging me down. anyways haven't found a permanent picker upper, only temporary distractions. anyways, i need to clear my mind and STUDY. seriously. i wish i could just relieve of make all this un wanted so called stress and anticipation disappear.

anyways, i am in a slump.

on another note, i saw matrix. it was good to get out and interact with people. thanks linda. so yeah, i like the 1st matrix better cause man, you can't fully appreciate the 2nd one until you watch the 3rd one. so yeah, i shall leave it at that. then on friday, we headed over to thai town and highlands for sirintra's birthday. the place we ate at the thai town was off the hook. it needs no name, just a sign of a sppon and a fork. they had live music and just the whole atmosphere was awesome. seriously! would so go there again. and it is way better than going to one of those fancy smacy restuarants like lawry's or the stinking rose. this place is way cooler and more worth it to go to!!! Thanks Sirintra for introducing me to spoons and forks. yeah, i know that sounded a little primitive huh? well it ain't. Then after dinner, we headed over to the highlands. it was a pretty cool place to go to. would go there again. here's a pics of a night in hollywood and more and here are other pictures from my album.

what to look forward to, banquet pics and memorial weekend pics.

well, i think that's about it for now. hopeful i'll fall out of this slump. lates.

ahhh...hello there. so tired, need a massage. badly! any takers? anyways, the weekend is over, BOO! it was a good weekend though ;). anyways, time to get back to work. ta ta.

hey there. i am so sore. i exercised today. anyways, hmmm....just wanted to links some pics. this is going to be a short entry cause i am too tired to blah. and go on endlessly. what i will say though is that I NEED A MASSAGE. any givers?

so anyways, as for updates....this is what sheila has been up to the past week. okay, i went to san diego the weekend before this to go chill with my pals. we hit up this club at downtown san diego. have a nice day cafe. it was neat how they had a disco floor! then went home monday. then went out with brian on tuesday and say cowboy bebop at the university center edward's. it was so cool. we had the theater to ourselves. good thing too cause i just could not stop burping. it was probably the strawberry lemonade i had at red robin. then on wednesday simon and i ate at nice time cafe. haven't been there in the longest time. on thursday went out with sirintra to islands. i really haven't been there in ages. then friday saw x2 at the spectrum edwards. went with sondhaya and wendy and met up with gen and glenn. i haven't seen them in so long. we ate and shopped afterwards.

so after all this eating out, i am really grossed out by food and can't stand it.

i been feeling down lately....maybe i have pmdd. hmmmm.......anyways, today i went shopping with sondhaya and wendy.....i bough myself a pillow to make myself feel better. it's really nice and pretty. matches nicely with my quilt. anyways. hope this week is better. i have a midterm on friday....boo.... :(

oh yeah, my computer is slowing down....booo...that means i gotta burn some stuff.

so anyways, here are some pictures.

this one is from the past weekend in san diego and this one is from a cople of weeks back when my friends and i went to trilogy.

sitting here listening to billie myers -- kiss the rain. I really love this song. i don't know why, if you are wondering that is, so don't ask me just yet. let me think about it some. I really like how it begins, everytime i heard that it makes me tremble inside. I react when i heard it and it gives me "that" sensation. Not a alot of songs can do that to you, ya know?

anyways, still working on my lab report. it's like 4ish, and i still have my introduction, discussion. working on my results section. so yeah, i would like to take a nap, but we'll see. i'll be really depressed when light begins to shine. of course, its different when that happens around you. :)i am so glad the weekend is coming up. i really need this break. i hope i actually utilize this time and not waste it doing some nonsense crap. ahhhhh.......sometimes i just get so frustrated. i am SO glad i am graduating, i really need this break from school.

I noticed my motivation strive hasn't been as strong. i am really disappoint about that and i feel like i am such a slacker. i find myself having no time to do everything i want to be doing. and that needs to change. maybe i should just stop working at least until school ends. then i can start concentrating on my DATs. if i am even still considering that. probably. so that's what has been on my mind lately. That i should quite my job cause i feel myself not having enough time to do what i need to do. even though i work 6 hours plus 2 days a week, i find it taking a lot out of me. but also......i think to myself. hmm.....well, what would i be doing. nothing really, so i am just better off working, what do you think?

so tired. at home doing laundry waiting for it to finish. so that i can sleep.

mr. big -- to be with you

also, all time favorite song.......

billie myers -- kiss the rain

i just love that song.

oh yeah, i have been on a chocolate craze lately. i gave it up for lent, and realize that i will never do that again cause now i am downing all this chocolate. so bad for me.

as i was saying, i am so tired. i had my midterm today, it was so hard. pray for me. i get to take the tl-s. woo hoo....i can play cds without that annoying sound....the people who have ridden in my car know what i mean. so this week, i plan to study for my DATs like a mad woman.

lately, i have been feeling so full, so i am going to deflate to a more comfortable level. well, i am going to go now, maybe nap. hope my laundry is close to done.

"Tomorrow is Easter. It's over. Cows (and pigs) watch out, I'm on the prowl." --sophia


today is easter. went to church. back.. time to study. and watch out choco. lent is over. so i am free to devaur (sp?) you.

so much on my mind. where to begin. i have a midterm on monday. i really wish i didn't have it on monday. absolutely ruined my weekend. i am all sore cause i went to a party yesterday. trilogy. i felt so old. anyways. it was good seeing old friends from high school. the best part of the evening was that we didn't have to pay for parking, yeah! i would post the pictures up, but they are rated R, hehe. so that's too bad for you. well not really. but yeah, still. ask me if you really want to see them.

so today is saturday. parents and sister came to visit me today cause my sister was checking out the uci campus. it was a pleasant visit. i showed them the campus, we took tours here and there. then we went to go eat at olive garden. then that was the end of it. i got another uci sweatshirt. this time it is grey and got a t-shirt too. it'll be for my FAT days. i have been having a lot of those lately. anyways, i better start running before i bite anyone head off. my sister forgot my shoes. boo. but i am going to go home monday cause, man, i forgot my parking permit in my mom's car.

so yeah, my car needs an oil change. i better get it done soon cause like, i find it taking longer to start my car. anyways, lets see what else....oh yeah, so i told my mom and dad that. this was at lunch and my sister goes, oh, here's an idea. "why don't we leave the mdx here and take your car. uhh....NO." yeah she is mean and funny like that.

good thing about going home, i can do laundry, pick up my shoes, and whatever. curse neuro! okay, momentarily lashing out. so yeah, slept for the longest time cause didn't get much sleep last night. maybe for like 3 hours or more, i just couldn't get up.

well, other things on my mind. DATs. ahhhh.....somebody please kill me. or motivate me. cause ahhh.......i am so glad that i have nothing presssing after this weekend. so that means, i can devote it all to DATs. there are other things that are bothering me, but i'll save that for another time. and of you know me, then that means never and that is my way of saying that i am not going to talk about it. reasons......oh cause i haven't really thought it through, but just hangs there until i get around to it.

so life.....life........life has been.....well you can't just sum it up one word. at least with me that is. i like to ramble and rant and add flowery detail where i digress majorly cause even though i am tryin to get my point across, at the same time i am also being vague cause i don't want to be too blunt, call it a protective defense thing. okay....i'll end it here. don't want to get too personal now.

smell ya later.

ahhh.....i have a midterm tomorrow. boo......it's classics, but still. its almost week 4. i feel like i am just wasting my life away. i should be doing so many other things, but woe is me. i should get back to studying. it isn't much, but still. better prepared than not. so tomorrow might go to trilogy. but we'll see. then parents coming on saturday. and i have another midterm monday. boo. i just want to mellow out. without any over hang. anyways. blah.

once upon there was a lady who lived in irvine. she went to school there and did plenty a-shopping. today she saw better luck tomorrow with her friends. it was quite an interesting movie. thinking back at it, it was written very well. i have my critics. too bad i wasn't able to express them. oh well. i guess i'll save that for when the opportunity arises. sadly, when she was watching this flick, her baby sista called and she was not able to pick up cause she was watching the movie. poo-ey. anyways, the lady is now very tired and is about to crash. must be that cough syrup she took. it really takes a toll on her. wowie. oh yeah, chow is cute.

hmmmmm..........reminders. email deb the dental scope. reply to emails from asda.

oh yeah, also went to t.g.i.fridays, it was kinda sad cause i couldn't have any meat. these lenting fridays. gosh darn it. so i ended up just getting a caesar's salad. also....the first time my friends and i didn't stuff our faces. kudos to us. :applause:

amongst others things, we had a potluck this week. it was cool. john brought MEAT. YUM! potluck

odd. i started just typing a little story and ended up telling you all what's up with me.

so yeah, the third week of classes is just round the corner. i already have a midterm on friday. boo! and then on monday another midterm. i mean really, double boo squared. so yeah!

Spring break was awesome cause i got to chill with friends and here's some pictures to show you what i have been up to.
vegas
vegas cont.
nor cal
tahoe
nor cal cont.

well, that's all for now so knock yourself out with all those pictures.

gosh....i feel quite horrible today. i think i'm sick. i can hear it in my voice now. my throat is so dry that i am constantly having to drink water bottle after bottle. my nose is to the point of congestion and well its no good. i think i am going to start coughing so i better drink gallons of water. and my body is aching. sorry for being such a winer guys. anyways, going up north today. driving up with jason and ruby. thanks so much jason. and you too ruby. you guys are the best! hopefully i don't get either of you sick. anyways, i am a bit tired. and still need to finish packing. so smell ya later.

currently listening to moby -- memory gospel.

so today is wednesday. the day that i really have to crack down and my studying on. maybe i should go to the library, but i don't really see that happening because i just can't stay there too long. props to those of you that can though. so yeah.....i think i'll brush my teeth, get a bowl of cereal, shower and study. then go to school and see my professor and then come back home and study. we'll see how all things go. just need to STUDY. I just can't wait till after 10:00 AM tomorrow cause then I am FREE. FREE from school for at least the next week. I can't wait. SPRING BREAK babe!!!!! Thank goodness we have such an occassion. I bow to those administrative people.

oh yeah, don't worry, this entry won't be an essay like all the other ones that i write. hmm.....i think that's pretty much all i had to say for now. off to brush my teeth so i can eat. oh yeah, today i woke up with a pleasant though, so i'm not all that crabby. still not in the best mood, it's the whole finals things, but after tomorrow, it'll be grant. with the plus and minus of ohh....i coulda done better on that exam and dang work, but after that it's chill. might even head over to urban and get a top and then to target to get a toothbrush and toothpaste and whatever else i need. then dinner with my research group, then. .... :)

want to nap. can't. will not wake up. turn into deep sleep. need motivation. need to study. study sheila! and stop looking for something to snack on. you have nothing to snack on. and if you did, don't. you'll feel sick afterwards. so it is better to starve. okay. time for me to study. no use not studying cause well....don't want to sound cocky but well....okay, i am going to study and be quiet now and stop digging myself into a hole. ciao.

hey there, noticed i haven't blogged in a while. probably cause i've been in a crabby mood lately. anyways, i just woke up. went to take a nap and woke up at 6:30. dahhh...got no work done at all. gotta stop taking naps cause i never wake up. oh well, it's not like it was pressing anyways. so yeah....still all groggy. my neck aches, i think i need a new pillow. haven't had any good sleep lately. with my two pillows you'd assume it'd be more confortable. oh well.

let's see. went to the doctors yesterday. i got my physical and the doctor said i'm A-ok. don't feel so a -ok though. it's this damn period, i tell you. guys are so lucky. my whole body is aching as we speak. it really sucks. :( Maybe a nice hot shower will do the trick. So yeah, as i was saying, i also got a blood test done and DAMN that needle hurt. I still felt it after she took it out. OUCH! I always wondered though, what if there wasn't enough blood in that vein she chose...cause that's happened to my brother. I was really tempted to look too, but i decided not to. sometimes i really find it amusing.

ate some after that and then took a nap. i had cereal, it was SO good. I haven't had it in a while. so it was really yummy. it was special K red berries. I would be eating some right now, but i've got no milk. so i'll have to go to the supermarket later. oh yeah, I GREW!!!!!! Yeah! I am 5' 5 now. officially. see before i was only 5' 4 and 3/4. so now i've moved up. and i though i was done growing, i guess not. WOOHOO!!!!

i also went to go get my eye check follow up. can you believe it, my eyes as SO bad now. -3.50. NO WAY. seriously. they went up 1.25 from last year. what the? CRAZIE!!!!! BUT i am going to get re-checked cause i don't trust this doctor. because she gave me the wrong percriptions the first time, or so she claims. and she keeps thinking that she issued a -3.50 to me. but i know she didn't. and so i doubt her and thus will not buy any contacts until i know for sure that is what my actual percription is. i have noticed though that my eyes have gone bad. cause i can't see even with the contacts i have. well i can see, but not too well, like if it was far away. i might give the -3.50 a try today. i hope it doesn't do anything bad to me though. i also didn't know that your eye glass percription is the same as contacts. debating what i should get done....hmmm........i might do eye glasses and just get contacts myself. hmmm.....i guess i'll think about that.......get new frames as well, huh? maybe, but i really like the ones i have....they are so light. heheheh. that's titanium for you.

Moving on. i have to work today. CRAPS. then study (which I will really do). today the saga begins. :( But then after Thursday when i am FREE, it's gonnabe a blast....tee heee.

it's almost ten. i should shower and get to work. i hope i get out early, then maybe i can run some errands, eat, and study.

saw my sassy girl. SO FUNNY! I really like it. :)
also saw princess mononoke. also very good. :)

ahhhh....can't wait till finals are over!!!!

at home in arcadia. just got back from watching a movie with my sister. the guru. it was a pretty good movie, actually i liked it a lot. so what made it so all that? hmm....well, i really liked the whole dance sequence and the story itself wasn't bad. yup, now i gotta get the dvd. hehe. let's see.....still need to start my laundry. i have so much to do, booo...... i better get cracking on it too cause tomorrow i don't know if i'll have to do all of it. okay, well, i don't really have that much to do, but still.

friday......went to class. then work. then office hours. it went well. i upped my 91 to a 95 in classics. i feel quite proud of myself now considering the cut off for a solid A was 89. I also scored a letter of rec. whoo hooo. I was chit chatting with my professor and he was telling me how life is europe is so much more awesome. another interesting fact that i learned was that he's canadian. and well, if you know me......i have this whole thing for the whole canadian culture. anyways......after that, i headed over to another professor's office hours and that went well too cause, uh...well...i knew i was doing well in that class, but i guess i just wanted to hear some clarification that i am actually getting an A. so far that's 3 A's, my best ever. now all i got to do is raise my B+ to an A in ethics. that is the only class that is holding me back from my 4.0 this quarter. Down side to all this....i gotta write my personal statement for dental school and REALLY get cracking on my DATs. motivation proclamation.

went to thai spice for dinner with some buddies. man on man, never going there again. it wasn't really all that bad. i think i just chose a bad combo. something mildly spicy and something sweet is definitely a bad mix. i just wanted to puke. so after that i left for arcadia. the drive wasn't so bad. it went pretty smooth. thanks jay. so i get home and my parents bring back lobster tacos. yum. it was delicious. i must say though, they really like to trick my little brother. see they told him that what he was eating was a lobster burrito but in reality it was a fish burrito. see, my lil bro doesn't like to eat fish. so my parents have to con him, so he'll eat something. and since today is a no meat day, fish/lobster was the only thing he could eat. i would explain further why he doesn't like to eat fish, but don't want to bore you too much.

so to liven things up, i slept so much yesterday. hmmm....that kinda killed it cause now, i feel all tired. also, don't feel too much like myself when writing this. okay, something is irking me, that's why. can't really say. at least not here. so moving on......what's on the menu for tomorrow?

so here's the plan.....wake up early and finish doing laundry and run. i really need to run. i feel like i've eaten so much this week. i should weigh myself and see. hmm...jabbing pain in my tummy? what does it all mean? as i was saying.....so then after that, maybe run some errands if need be. then go to costco for my follow up check up for my eyes. then head over to my cousins for my neice's birthday. then church. then dinner with my family. which reminds me, i better get a cake for my dad. then back up to irvine. :D

sidenote: at home, okay....when i am at home my patience level drops. yeah....i am really annoyed right now. even though i don't go blowing up at my parents like my sister.......all i want to do is scream sometimes. so as you can see when i am blogging i hate to be disturbed.....imagine...sheila....sheila....sheila....aren't you going to do your laundry....sheila....where are you going to sleep....etc....and all this bickering in the background over nothing. ahhhhhh....someone shoot me! and then i come to my senses and realize why i like to spend so much time by myself when i am at school. yup, it's decided i am not going to move back home after i graduate. my parents aren't mature enough. but still, i go home, it's the whole family give and take thing....cause they are family.

okay, i've calmed down now. so as i was saying, i have a lot of patience, but when it comes to my family, i am not as patient. it's probably cause i am more comfortable around them and cause they are my FAMILY. so here's another reason why i don't like coming home. there is no place for me to sleep. seriously. that's one reason and cause it's a damper.

well, that's it for now.

oh yeah, sean......thanks. the pig game was awesome, i really enjoyed it. gave me a good laugh. and the music... you remembered :) 823

in the spirit of my lil sis, i took this.
Which Kingdom Hearts character are you?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......okay, my head going on overdrive and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....it's unpleasant......yup, i can feel my head going round and round and round. literally screaming inside my head.....

calm down sheila. breathe!

:breathing:

okay....i am calmer now. sorry, had a sudden attack there. cause of attack.....addiction to shopping. how can you stop the unstoppable? okay, so this is how my day went.

slept for 10 hours or so. i think i slept for too long cause i was all tired today. so went to class and wow.....it was packed full of info.....got somewhat confused on unsaturation, so i'll go to OH and get some clarification. what else? headed to work. it was an okay day. stayed later than usual, but it actually wasn't so bad. gave the boss my new schedule for next quarter. she keeps trying to make me work fridays, WHY? i hope she understands that next quarter, i will NOT work fridays. really, i am not that important, she has someone else working on friday too, so i've decided that i need not come in. yet i am still sucker into coming in. and for what.....to check eligibility? really...anyone can do that! at least i get this friday off. which is pleasant cause i wasn't going to work anyways.

so after work, i head over to mitsuwa cause i wanted to get some calpico. since i was in the area, i headed over to southcoast cause i wanted to check some thing out. went to ae and got my sister an undi. your welcome pia. ended up buying a little something for myself too. thanks mommy. hehe. after that, i sorta just lost control....i think also cause i needed to get it out of my system......okay, so it's not outta my system yet. but it will soon be. i have noticed though that i have this huge bag of stuff. hmmm...what's wrong with this picture? yeah...yeah..yeah...i know. that's why i was screaming earlier. anyways, i'm sure it'll past. i wonder if they have an SA for this? anyways.....after my mad shopping spree, i headed over to sephora to check out some new scenes. went there to try out ralph lauren romance.....decided against it. i think i may get the kenzo one. not the flower one, but the aquatic scene. i'll go back and give it the final test and if i like it, then i'll get it.

headed over to mitsuwa, got my calpico and whatnot. decided to get some grub as well. it was yummy. my first real meal of the week. was going to get fat burger, but decided to go healthy.

that's pretty much it, kinda tired, maybe i'll sleep, maybe i won't. oh well. maybe i'll read. hmmmm...d & g light blue is strong.

just got back to irvine. went home today, and didn't get any studying. bah.....it's around 10ish right now, so we'll see if i can get some work done. left for arcadia around 9ish and got home around 10. went to the mall to returned some goods and ended up buying more goods. dahhh! anyways, bought some jeans, and a tank top. and a trenchy like peacoat, it you can call it that. don't know if i really wanted it, but i figure, i can return it later if i don't like it.

ate at some japanese place in san gabriel. don't know the name, just know where it is at. it was okay. the place i wanted to go to was edo ma sushi. i just really enjoy the blend of california rolls and wasabi. another good place is maru. the salmon there is delicious. had cake afterwards. it's like a family tradition thing. we always get cake on our birthdays and we all huddle around it and take a picture of that kodak moment. it was really fun taking pictures of the family.

saw part of how to lose a guy in 10 days. from what i saw, it looked really dumb. yeah.....okay. oh no, sophia, we forgot to get your blue tape. aww man. well, i'll see if i can get it for you here. okie, i got my eyes checked. so there's this machine that blows air into your eyes. so you know that it is going to blow air into it. so this might sound stupid, but knowing that it is going to blow air into your eye, wouldn't you be more likely to not let it blow that air. like in that episode on friends with rachel? so my point here is, it's like you know what's going to happen, yet you don't aviod it, you just let it happen. doesn't that sound illogical. okay, i don't know, i just wanted to point that out.

i am -2.5, went up again, but i kinda knew that already. hehe....i was already wearing -2.5's. so i wonder, did i really need to take that eye exam? hmmmmm....could have saved $69. oh well, better to know than not to know. went to church after that. got some mickey D's. fast food, haven't had that in a while. finished laundry and headed back to irvine.

the drive was slow at first. i was tired, but half way into it, i was more alert. 37 minutes. not bad. once again, road kill. it was horrible. this time it was huge and bloody and yuck.. ahh...bloody 'ell. well, that's about it, going to put stuff away and get studying.