Happy Mother's Day! 

For Mother's Day, I made my mom a cake. It's Devil's Strawberrry Cream. It seemed to be a hit. I'd say, it's my favorite flavor. This week I have another task ahead of me. I am making a wedding cake cause I am getting married. You must be wondering, why am I making my own cake. Well, it is better that way. Haha, I'm just kidding. But I am making that two layer wedding cake. It will be a challenge because I never iced like that before.

I also met up with carol and we ate at baccali. it was good! I really enjoyed my filet! thanks again carol!

can't sleep......so now i know how phil feels. perhaps lack of sleep is a result of anticipation and anger? yeah?

okay.....i feel somewhat stressed. i really have so much to do and think about but can't help but just blow it off. i mean seriously....sometimes i feel like i need to get on track. its so odd cause a year ago i felt like i was in limbo. and not to long ago i was comfy and felt like i had accomplished something. but now i am retracting back to limbo. quite sucky. i feel like i need my life to just settle down and stop riding on this roller coaster.

i have goals, but the wheels aren't turning for them. i don't exactly know what i want to do with my life and i am tire of a quick fix. i have ideas but that's just it...there are so many of them that it really gets me dizzy.

it's already may and still i feel like time is going 10 times to fast.

life is so complicated. i make it sound so simply but sometimes i wonder if it is all just a lie. i don't want to sound negative but if i was always positive then i wouldn't be balanced now would i?

i need to really prioritize my life. i need to make investments that will pay off. but i am afraid taking risk. that's why sometimes its just so great to read a book and get lost in it.

i think i am a very patience person, but lately......i haven't been practicing it. i need to rework that.

something a bit deeper......death.......i am curious what is life after death. since i am of a religious nature.....i am taught to see life after death as joining jesus in his world. and yes i do believe in that. so why am i curious about death. probably because i am human and will sin because of the incident at the garden of eden. yes......some progress. it really helps to think and type outloud sometime.

so yeah.....i think as of now i am going to keep that chair and today i am going to checkout some powerbooks and ipods.

ciao for now bella

on my walk back from the gym, i discovered this to my dismay. 


it is so HUGE! 

so isn't that like a really huge vehicle. how does one get in and out of it? doesn't seem to pratical to me. it's definitely has presence. but man...how many lanes does it take up. i was so surprise to see it on my street. i was really WOWED by it.

so i bought an armchair......so many other things i could have bought instead of it, like a camera, an ipod photo, a labtop......hmmmmm...... oh well, i'll get those in due time. i am going to enjoy my new buy. it's comfy....i can't wait. i wonder if it is too big....hmmmm.....

so yesterday i donated blood. it was a spur of the moment choice. however, i thought about it earlier that week. so i had just finished my work and decided to go check it out and decided why not? i headed there and was just about to walk away, but i turned back. so i was quite antsy......but i did it. the lady was nice. the iron test was pretty painful. i had just passed the iron test. a second more and they would have rejected me. so it took me like 10-15 mins, but i wish they had taken the needle away cause after a while it started to hurt. it was my first time. and it wasn't so bad.

now i am in san diego. just had breakfast from le peeps. it was okay. i am getting really particular when it comes to food. cause the belgium waffle was just okay. last night i had sushi and that was just okay too. hmmm.....what to do now? i think i may just catch up on my anime.

a thought.....you don't really know someone. you may think you do....but in reality.....you never really know them....i mean really know them. i can honestly say that no one really know who i am. they only know a part of me. why is that? i think that's true for everyone though. we have mutiple worlds and when they collide is it confusion or something else?

with or without you?

everlasting dream.......

another day.....oh so ROUND. i feel oh so ROUND. blasted. i just showered and i would feel refreshed, but i just feel FAT. i am quite sleepy....that's what the shower does to me. oh the screen is begining to look blurry......so i shall leave you with this thought.....that is......at least for now.....GALAXY QUEST.

SO TIRED....i was at work until FOREVER. literally. the only good part was that i got to catch up with the boys. its funny cause at the begining of the day it doesn't seem like much, but things don't always go as planned. oh well. came home and detoured for some candy and made cookies. kinda disappointing cause they didn't turn out as i had hoped. however the two BIG cookies i made were a smash.

oh yeah, finally made that strawberry malt of mine. it was DELICIOUS. okie dokie. bedtime.

What a horrible Tuesday! so here goes the inevitable. my day starts out pretty RAW. i get up and get ready for work. i head out the door. on my drive, i start to feel my allergy attacks. it gives me the chills thinking about it. so i get to work, and i feel itchy all over. I was DYING. i really couldn't move. i was going insane. i hate it when the weather changes. it absolutely KILLS me. so i pop a claritin. i went home to take a cold shower. that helped. however, my drive back was killing me. i bet ya people were thinking...'what the hell is wrong with her'. so i made it home. and after my cold shower.....i put all this numbing stuff on. i was about to call in sick, but i forced myself to go back to work. it was painful, but i hung in there. i made it through the day, the claritin worked wonders and all that numbing stuff i applied.

at work, the day was mediocre. however, jorge struck again. the day before i had made a request for a personal day. it's personal, what right does one have over my personal day. it is allowed and what authority does one have a say in it. I HATE PEOPLE trying to MONOPOLIZE my time. I feel they do not have the right. I am not down with ALL THIS BULL SHIT. My TIME is my time, and if i choose to sit on my ass and do nothing, i will do that. today, i have gained a new perspective. i have new eyes on and a new outlook. so here's the thing, no one has the right to tell me what health practioner to see. cause one, hey, jackass, it's my body and blood not yours. if i want to go there, then i will. you should not question something like that. it is my CHOICE, or am i not to have one of those. thanks for your opinion, but NO THANKS. you really know a way to ruin some pleasures that WE have in life. but hey, just remember who works for you. ya that's right....

another thing....you should learn to respect other people's feelings. how do you expect people to work for you if you do not treat them like people. that's right, like people. we are not robots. and another thing, RELAX, take a chill pill. cause you know what...you don't set too good an example. how do you expect to shine is no one respects you. cause you know what, i bet there are plenty of people who aren't too fond of you. and you know what....i getting there. i try to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, but you're really testing that. so much more to RANT about, but i am trying to keep it civil. haven't you learned from you previous experience?

i understand where you are coming from, in some twisted way, i just don't agree with you. but as always, you WIN and that is not fair. but, i will take a stand with LUCAS and one day.......


so i cleaned today, but my desk is still a mess and i still have to organize some crap. i am such a rat pack, i gotta just throw eveything away. worked out, made dinner. doing laundry. feel pretty productive. off i go to fold clothes.

so everyone, guess what? I am moving. i have finally decided to MOVE. move away from my bubble. i am moving to the bay area. i was recently offered a position and i have decided to accept. it'll be good. a new change of environment for me. it will do me some good. perhaps i will mature even more. anyways, going to head out soon. so wish me luck. thanks!!!!!!

so today at work....it was fun. yesterday bryan brought donuts. they were so DELICIOUS. it so hit the spot. but being a PIGGY. i had 3 donuts. so alas, i worked out for an hour to burn it off. i was like, okay, 1 donut to go. just a little bit more. but yeah, to my point, so the empty box was left there.....to my delight i took this opportunity to trick some people. on the outside of the box, i wrote "DONUTS! YUM! look insde" and inside, i left a post-it note saying, "haha...aprils fools!" that was so evil of me, but it was a delight. hehehehe. one of the many highlights of my day.

p.s. you've just been fooled. haha.....april fools.

I was on face analyzer this weekend for a lack of better things to do. and found this amusing. however inconsistent. oh well.....still amusing.  


hmmmm..... 

I had a pretty eventful weekend. but it's tuesday so it would be so lame to talk about it. and i am lazy. i, however, had some pretty AMAZING cheese. it was/is SO DELICIOUS that i cannot stop taking about it. okay....

as my usually...had slept for 12 hrs. bery refreshing. woke up, learned how to make tartines and donuts. worked out...linger....went to LUNA restuarant and lounge. went to sleep. went to church. worked out. went to body worlds 2. went to dinner. and monday came around. in all that i discovered the face analyzer.

now i am going to do something productive: SLEEP.

in light of my boredom

Your Seduction Style: The Dandy

You're a non-traditionalist, not limited by gender roles or expectations. Your sexuality is more fluid than that - and you defy labels or categories. It's hard to pin you down, and that's what's fascinating about you. You have the psychology of both a male and a female, and you can relate to anyone.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Belong in 1969

1969 If you scored... 1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in! 1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too. 1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all! 1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day. 1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion! And chances are, you're currently in love. You have a strong physical response to love... And you are great at committing (As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

What's Your Love Style?

Morning....man, i feel kinda quezzy......kit kats in the morning.....not a good idea.....

i thought about working out today....hmmmm....yeah, i am going to, but hmmmmm.......i'll pass.....my head aches, so tomorrow......a nice swim would be pleasant though....so maybe that....i hope the pool is clean though. i really can't go if it is dirty....however swimming in the ocean that's another snafu.

so much....to do...so little time. i sleep so much......i mean SOOOO much. i love the weekends. i just go home and sleep. so relaxing. i need to do my taxes. whatelse? hmmm....that's top priority, since the due date is coming up. i really just need to press a button cause i already entered all the info. oh yeah....i am going shopping today....looking for some comfy jeans......i need to clean out my closet too....i need to do laundry, i have done it for a month now. i can probably go for maybe two more weeks, but i will try to do it this week. it's starting to crawl outta my basket.

the highlight of this week will be my butterscotch monster bars. i can't wait to make them. they are quite rich. this time i will add the walnuts cause i have some. i kept forgettting to bring them.

been thinking about getting a costco membership. i suppose it could be useful. oh yeah, at sam's club you can print digital pictures for 17 cents, that's cheap. that's another thing i need to get on, printing my pictures. i suppose i could also get a digital printed, but that's so troublesome, and my bro has one. but at some oneline company they have a promo to print for 99 cents, so maybe i will get on that too.

tonight i've got family dinner, it's my uncle's birthday. chinese food.......i can only eat so much of that, i am not really hungry though.....maybe later. okay, time to start doing random things. oh yeah.......a must see and must get is Chinese Odyssey 2002.

ROAR......i am so thirsty, but alas, i am so lazy and do not want to go run outside to my car to get a bottle of water. ROARRRR.........i had some cranberry juice, it was light and nasty. i am sticking to apple's and eve. you can't go wrong there. okay, i will get that bottle after all. cause .......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......i am still thirsty. sometimes i think i drink way too much water.

so today, i had dim sum at hop li, just had their grand opening yesterday. it was pretty good. would definitely go there again. thanks for the treat linda!!! i liked your 2nd favorite....in fact i am tasting it now. hahahaha.

after dim sum, i took my parents to SAS, their FAVORITE shoe store. they had fun and so did i. i kept trying on all these shoes...pretty comfy. my mom got this pretty BAD ASS pair.

i am feeling tired now.....i think it's the vietnamese food kicking in, it's making me sleepy. snooze....snooze.....snooze.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

crazyhorse 

just had some yummy spaghetti. that was pretty much the bulk of what i ate this week. hmmm...what to have next week. it's friday, yummy! after work, i headed over to the gym. however, i was so tired that i only biked for 20 minutes. i attempted the elliptical, but that was a lost cause. do i came home and stretched and worked on my abs. buts alas, it was all half assed. i took a shower and just crashed. now i am all full and want to head back to bed. going to head back to arcadia soon. i better get a packing.

last night headed to D&B and checked out crazyhorse. totally had no idea they had dancing there. but yeah.....in honor of st. patrick's day, green beer was being served. it looked strange. like gue....anyways, good times.

Lightness....


i am having trouble breathing. maybe cause i choked earlier. my back kinda hurts too. and my left side. it is actually VERY painful. i wonder why? awk...it hurts. it's weird. yet not unusual. what else? this past weekend i was pretty busy. let me see, went home to arcadia, slept for 11.5 hours. so pleasant. then went to a 3-year-old's party. then had dinner with friends. then check out a bar in brea. fun times. i liked the crowd there. also, worked 9 hours today, quite exhausted. i think i will go to sleep soon for my next 9 hour day, really 10. but i think it'll be more lax. cause i did most of the work today, so hopefully, i'll get out in 8 :) time for bed.

Am I really?

Congradulations you are Jem!


Which Character from Jem and the Holograms Are You?
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so let's see, it is tuesday already. gosh...and on top of that, it's march already, so much to do. i need to make a to do list or something.

this past weekend, i went to a potluck/birthday party. over at the hill of monteray park. the view was pretty jazzy. seee....

LA at a distance. just beautiful, ain't it.  

i am so tired. i want to go back to sleep again. i just ate. and now i am a zoombie. my stomach erts. ouch! so tired. i went to sleep at 10 last night. then work up at 8:30. had breakfast and went back to sleep. then work up at 12:30. had lunch and soon i will sleep again.

CAST YOUR VOTES!!!
below are two pairs of boots. which one do you think I should keep?


KENNETH COLE 


ALDO 

I had a lovely nap today. i was so sleep after work, i had my cake, checked email and crashed. i woke up refreshed. :)

Then I met up with Deb and we had dinner at Viva de France. It's charming there. :)

Devil's Food with Strawberries n Cream 

This past weekend I made a cake. You can see it in the above pictures. But you won't be able to taste it. That is, for the except few. It turned out well and the reviews were inviting. Don't know what i'll make next, maybe nothing. just kidding. i am sure i'll think of something.


Luna Park Los Angeles 

This past weekend, I decided to hit up this place I read about on MSN. Early this year I read about 10 things that "you" have to do before winter ends. And Luna Park was one of them. The suggestion was hot chocolate. I decided to think "out of the box" and have dinner there. It's influence comes from the Luna Park in San Francisco. It's got crimson-colored walls which gives it an added romantic auora, yet also a cozy gathering with friends. The mojitos were pretty good. and the food, i must say...i can't complain. and from me, that's a big compliment. all in all, it was a grand experience. i would defintely go there again, to try their desserts. Afterwards, we decided that we'd go to a korean bar. but it was only 7:30 so, we'd only looks like alcholics. instead we attempted to watch a movie in westwood, but that didn't work out. so we chilled at the coffee bean instead. then hit up cafe toe bang. i liked it there it was so cozy and cute. that's my first korean bar experience and soju. good times. ;) you know who you are. hehehe. alrighties.....till next time.

cold....

thinking about napping. kinda tired, actually really tired. last night i didn't get my full eight cause i went out. i also had a so-called nightmare. it was about food. but i'll spare the details cause i am too lazy to explain. in fact i am speechless. perhaps, i will rest after all. however, i really do need to read. snooze.....

so much to do. so little time. i am pretty tired. it has been so hard to get up these days. for a 60% chance of rain, today is a really nice day. i was going to cycle but i think i need to rest. my back muscles are contracting and it hurts like CRAZY. headaches constantly pounding at me. i am taking advil. lots of it, but it isn't really helping all that much, i'll wait and see what happens tomorrow, if it doesn't get better, i am going to start taking tylenol with codane. it has been pretty bad lately. as i type the pain increases, perhaps, i should stop.

today was a medio day. i managed to do most of my work, except notebook. we even had a discussion about that today. here's my input, i didn't say too much cause i was dying from my pains. plus, i had more work to get done. now my boss isn't the nicest lady and i have finally come to realize that. she is pretty demanding and expects a lot. i don't mind that so much, but i think she could be more understanding about what we do. sure she is busy herself, but she has to realize that WE are not robots. she expects us to do 10 things at once without error. of course that is not possible. when you want someone to do multiple things, it wouldn't be up to par. isn't that right? multi-tasking is my specialty, but you have to give me a 1% error. i think that is only fair. aside from that, i work hard and i am feeling under appreciated. so what's that tell you. do you think i'll work hard for you if you're going to treat me like shit. of course not. nonetheless, i still work hard cause it is who i am. and if you find me sitting for 2 mins, that's cause that's the first time i got to take a breather.

i love this blogger, it let's me vent and express what i am thinking before i blow up.

i just had a little snack. perfect to put me in a mellow mood. i might nap, but first a shower, then maybe dinner, no nap and head to bed early. i have a feeling it will rain tomorrow. well that is it for now, at least.