It's that time again. christmas is coming and thanksgiving is just around the corner. tis the season for gifts and giving.

this year...i don't know what i want , i just know i have a lot to be thankful for. for the past few years, i haven't really yearned for anything.

I am fairly satisfied with life. but there is something that i perhaps subconciously year for. what that may be, i don't know or do it. see it's subconcious, so that be the answer to that. I have a skewed perception about christmas. i don't really dwell too much into it. i really just enjoy being in the holiday spirit, and i love the days off.

I love making wishes, but in the end i am just grateful for what i am blessed with. The past few birthdays i've forgotten about the whole birthday wish. i think it's because i was truly satisfied with life. I did a 180 on my life, so we'll see when next year comes around how hopeful i am . nonetheless.......i will end here. for the whole picture blur.

so i wanted to get away from studying, so i moved my blog over to the new version and i started using the calendar feature on goggle.

i have this problem. whenever i have exams, i am ant-sy and don't want to study. but i should. ugghh....bleh. so i need me a massage. i am hurting. is it the new top i put on my bed, or is it the lack of need i say more. hmmmm....nonetheless. sound like a massage is in order. could it be my pillow or the lack of water. i really just want the weekend to come. i need it and its only monday. what does that say. i guess its cause next week there are three days of school. then it's 2 days off. i will sleep and study. that's the plan. i have like so much writting to do.

i am just glad i have finished the reading for 2 of my thousand class. ahhh...i am so random, i miss going up north and just getting away for a week or so. i am suppose to go to mammoth, perhaps that will be relaxing, but what i really want to do is take a mini retreat from familiar surroundings and just sleep all day long and stretch and watch tv, whine and be a baby.

okay, time is up. i am going to study, alas..

closing with....these are the days of our lives, we should enjoy them to the fullest. there is this song that all of a sudden popped in my mind....it goes....i had a lover, who loved me.....blaahhh..blahhh....right from the start and to you ......can't remember the rest of the words.. who sings it?