it's fall and gosh so many memories struck me suddenly. it didn't hit me until now, but now i understand. isn't it strange. lately i have been questioning myself. wondering what is this feeling coming over me and then all of a sudden, the answer hit me. i am so glad. i don't know what it is about life, but it just has its way. i know i am an ambigious person, but what can i say that is the way i am. even as i write it i have all these thoughts, random of course, but never unleashed. composure. i must always sustain that cause it is my world.

i often wonder, who reads this? onto other things. memories, they are an almighty powerful weapon. sure we can control them, but can we really? lately i have been watching too much tv. i really gotta get off it.

but as i was saying. memories. whenever it rains i become nostalgic. why is that? i don't exactly know yet, or maybe i do, but it hasn't fully dawned on me yet. My recent awakening has caused me to think. more than usual that is. but yeah, lately i have been in deep thought. about what, you ask? about life, about the future. about the past, about the present. pretty much everything. i feel even my life is a multi-task. i think television is my tunnel, my escape. because then, i can't dwell in deeep thought. i think my rant has gotten a little too extreme that even i can't grasp what is going on. so let me slow things down and breathe a little.

the winter is nearing so the season is just right around the corner. i don't know if i'll be able to board. gotta find an orthopedic person to check out my knee. i been working out more lately. back to 5 days a week. would be more, but i am pretty busy these days.

feeling so lazy, i really need to be more active or study more. i am growing tired of tv. blah blah blah. enough said.

hi blogger. it is i, of course. so yesterday i was about to blog. but it cleared on me. so this is my second attempt to try to recapture the mood i was in. so around 9:30 ish. my dad calls my brother and tells him that he think someone stole our (my) car. i was like what the....no way. so my brother replies to my dad, are you sure? maybe you should look again. and so my brother and i go to venture out and get my parents and help find the car. see here is the situation. they went to the san gabriel super store and there are two parking lots. and so that is why my brother kept implying that they look again. so then, on our way there my brother calls to ask my dad if he and my mom found the car yet. and the answer was no. so half way there my dad calls my brother and tells him that they found the car. thank goodness. my shoes and such were in there. i was also thinking to myself at the time it happened...... what kind of car do i want to get. and gosh, i couldn't think of one. i am really not ready to purchase anything vast, i guess. so yeah. apparently a lot of people who shop at that place think that they got their car stolen, but just that they were looking at the wrong place. see that wouldn't happen to me cause i am pretty good at remembering where i park. but with age that may not be so prevalent.

also, apparently someone scratched up my car. stupid people who are so careless about opening their doors too widely. i mean really if you can't be considerate....yes i am talking to all you old asian people out there who are so careless....also you old people in general and everyone for that matter. be more careful or else you'll get what is coming to you. it always happened when i am not there. boy if i was i would give them a piece of my mind. none of this passive stuff. it'll be a full on war.

what else is on my mind. i went to the mall this morning. realize that i'll be needing to get some petite length pants. gosh. boo... but ae just makes their pants way too long. they say 32 and a half inseam, but it's really like a 34. usually i don't like to get jeans from there. but i found one worthy of my taste. so all i gotta do is exchange the one i got. which reminds me, i need one of those 15% of things. bahhh....anyone got one.

other news. i'll be in sd more frequently cause now i am there 4 days instead of 3. work, i guess i haven't talked about that. i am enjoying it. better than my 3 day one. hehehe. i am always traveling from one place to the other, it keeps me busy. this is temporary of course. next year, i'll be back in irvine. i hope i get my own desk. i should cause i have a computer. anyways. that's it for now. i rant again, when i am furious or so to say.

hi blogger. so today, i wend to redondo beach. as i had just typed redondo, i realize that it is a funny looking word. think about it, RED-ON-DO. it looks beter on caps, seeeing that now. anyways, i also found out that the mall here has just opened an AE. ROARRRR. i went all the way to west covina. if only i had knowned. oh well. next time. they are closed now. i might go tomorrow. but to south coast. after work. it will be quick. ahh...i start work tomorrow. boo hoo hooo.

so yeah, i need to iron. must look appropriate for the first day of work. i think it is going to be fun. yuppie. okay, i am going to go lazy around and perhaps being to iron, later. it smells like oil. oh no.

so i was just reading a few of my earlier blog entries. and wow. who knew that i have been keeping up with this since 2002. listening to pachebel canon brings from some good memories. more so 'my sassy girl.' sometimes i miss the old days, but should i erase my past or so i take it along with me. buddha says to never look behind. but is that possible? sure, why not? but entirely? anyways, i will rant more about this in a few. i just worked out. now i need to shower, buy eggs, and look for some business casual pants. what defines business casual anyways. but yeah. i am getting fat. i need to watch what i eat or something.

i am back. well when i went up north during labor day, i almost everyone wearing a yellow wrist band. and i was like, hmmm....i wonder why? then yesterday, i thought i had figured it out. and well, i thought it was like an identification thing. but here's what it is really. it's a wristband saying LIVESTRONG, to support cancer survivors and anything cancer related, i assume. let me read about it. here's a link though, if you'd like one. LIVE STRONG in addition, it has also become fashionable. read about it.

so check it out everyone, pictures and comments. even a new layout cool, huh?

so here is how my day went. i work up pretty early. so i think i already metioned that. but i did get my trim. that was so nice. i really needed it too. for some reason my hair was so dry and had all these split ends. usually i don't get those. but it was so nice to get a refreshing trim. then i went home. made dinner. watched ssome degrassi and did in-between stuff. whatelse. tomorrow, i may go shopping for some businesss casual clothes. i really need pants. i am getting fat. i need to work out more. it's that 2 week lag and it is killing me. start my new job on monday. that will be fun. okay... think i a even working in sd tues and wed, but not sure yet. oh well. laters.

magarita rocks 

at magarita rocks, where i went out with my friends on saturday night. this was out in PB. there were a bunch of skanky hoo girls. they were all lined up dancing. it was hilarious.

at mt. diablo 

this picture was taken during my trip up to the bay area during labor day weekend. sean and i went up to mt diablo. it was interesting but not a glorious water view. very nature like.

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what to blog about today? hmmm... i woke up pretty early today cause i went to sleep super early. i banked about 10 hours of sleep. my tummy aches. i guess i need to poo. i hope i can get my haircut/trimmed today cause yesterday when i went my hairstylist had already gone home. =(

i really need a trim. i feel like my hair is dried out. i wanna do something drastic, but it most likely will not happen. just a simple touch up will do.

irvine, it's so depressing here. i need to get out. the more i become submerged into this society, the more depressed i become. i need a new environment and i think irvine has become expired. for the next month, i'll be travelling a lot and won't be home at all. so maybe after that, i'll grow to appreciate my habitat once again. i'll guess we'll see. also it may just be my inner niche that is bothering me. come to think of it.....is being a hermit so wrong? once again the balancing gaming is played. i know my balance do you? let us hope i do not forget.

i was contemplating about working out, but i shouldn't really push myself, so i am going to take it chill. day of rest. i'll work out tomorrow.

i was thinking about high school. are we really the person we were back then. maybe, maybe not. but i truly believe that sure i may have some attributes from back them, but overall, i am a completely changed person. i don't even remember who i was back then, but 5 years from now, can i say the same thing? i beleive we are constantly changing, even though, it is say that you can't change a person. sure that is true, but a person can be molded in many ways especially if they become effected by a force of unchangable energy.

life, what really is the meaning of life? why was i put on this earth. what is my purpose in life. why was i created. there are so many ways to answer that. it is our choice to choose that path. it is up to me to decide my purpose. as of right now, my purpose in life is to ....